The Fading Love
One day with Om Tama
"Mamah..want to see Tama" Ziya tugged at my clothes, so I had trouble making breakfast for them. Today it's usually they meet Tamam Every Sunday Tama will come to the house to play with them, but one week ago Tama gave the news that he can not come first, but one week ago, or just invite them to play, because there is work outside the city, I told them, Aska can understand but Ziya is not, I told her, my one child is too early to control and position the situation. Tama is like a father to my children, they are very close, even Tama gave my children permission to call him papa, I forbid, it does not taste good. One week of not meeting Tama made my beautiful son fussy all night. I allowed the location of my glasses first and I turned off the stove, I turned my body towards Ziya and equalized the height with her. Ziya had just woken up, but what he was looking for was Tama, his hair was still a mess.
"Om Tama work dear, next week you guys meet ko" Ziya rubbed her eyes, her lips began to curl down, her tears slowly came down.
"Ziya want to play with Tama. mamah, Ziya want to om Tama" I hug this small body to calm down. What I have to do, I never contact Tama so that my children can meet her, but Tama himself who came or contact first.
"Let's go baby" I trim Ziya's hair, I'm holding Ziya. My son drowned his face in my neck.
"Mom"
"yes, why?"
"In front there is Mr. Tama Bu" I almost staggered back when suddenly Ziya tried to get down from my sling.
"Oh my God, don't run, baby"
"Bi, make a drink for Mr. Tama, I'll go to the room for a while"
"Yes Ma'am"
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"Ziya sat under the boy "I put a jar of chocolate cake on the table, then I sat in the front seat.
"no papa Inayah, Ziya kangen said one week no one met me" I smiled warmly, my children alms that with Tama. Aska who already understood more than Ziya was just sitting a henchman beside Tama. I remember my Aska's childhood was difficult to get close to a foreign man, she always considered a foreign man let alone his age was the same as his papa would hurt me, it seemed like my eldest son had a trauma because of his papa. It took a long time for Tama and his wife to be able to hook Aska's heart, Aska continued to stick with me when Tama came to see you, looking very frightened on the look on my son's face, and my son, and now that my son is 12 years old, Aska cheerful and chatty seemed to be left far behind and did not grow in my child's body, Aska became a person who was a lot of silence, I was sad actually, I was sad, but how else, I can't do anything, I've also tried to bring my child to therapy, but I don't have the heart, too, my son just became quiet maybe because of his age is getting bigger too.
"Aska's already the Pr?" Aska just nodded and tidied up the book as well as her study equipment.
"thank you Tama"
"Yes son" Tama rubbed Aska's head
"Save the book first Aska, just down again eat the pudding"
"yes mah"
This is my Sunday routine with my two children. I let my kids play with Tama, they'll play until they forget the time, if Tama hasn't come for a week, I leave them in the room.
"Tama, I'm going in first yeah, I'll have lunch here, don't go home"
"no need Inayah, I have lunch outside" I see my son's lips have curved down, Ziya flanking Tama's arms while whining.
"eat here om, same Ziya sana ka Aska sama mamah" Tama rubbed the top of Ziya's head and gave a small nod.
"thank you... Ziya dear papah" maybe now my eyeballs have appeared to grow, my son is just there, when he called Tama papah, that's also because of Tama anyway, he who once asked my children to call him papah, it is I who feel bad, he just smiles.
"Ziya..." Tama looked at me and blinked her eyes while giving a gesture.
"no papa" Alright, they are indeed very close, really like children and parents.
"Tama, I'm upstairs"
"yes"
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"yes ma'am" I always try to keep cooking for my kids like now. Although I am also busy with my work, but I want my children not to feel the loss of my role as their mother. I spend my free time with them, I may not work and choose to accompany my child to school.
"Mom, the fruit's all out?"
"iya Bi, stack it as usual"
"if you have asked for help call Mr. Tama with the children in the back garden, we have lunch together"
"yes Ma'am"
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"Om Tama, mamah Ziya's cooking is good, right?" Tama nodded and raised her one thumb towards Ziya.
"so nice"
"Happy master once cook om, Aska and Ziya's sister will eat a lot if the mamah cook" this time Aska who voiced cheerfully. I rubbed the back of my son's head gently.
"Yes, your mama is very good at cooking, om Tama just to add many times" Tama looked at me and smiled, I returned Tama's smile
"Enak and definitely healthy" said Ziya again.
"already, spend your meal, it's noon, om Tama also have to go home"
"yayhhh, Ziya is still kangen same om Tama mah"
"Later toys yes, next week om tama ajakin you guys vacation to the floor" Ziya to the point of unconsciously throwing her spoon and fork because of excitement.
"yes son, next week om Tama ajakin you guys to the beach
"yeee" Aska and Ziya were really enthusiastic.
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"I'm sorry Tama, you have to sleep with the kids first" I feel bad with Tama, Ziya suddenly tantrum, Ziya wants to be accompanied by Tama to take a nap, be tama home kesorean, Tama Nya just relax, I'm not good with him.
"just relax, I also like to play with them.Your children are already considered like my own children, I love Banget with them.
"There are many Tam, makasi already love children as sincere as you heart" Tama just nods small, he stopped at the door of his car and pointed his position towards me.
"Dad, eum"
"yes why Tam" Tama lowered her head, what she wanted to talk about, why my feelings were suddenly strange.
"Maybe this is too fast and hastily, forgive me if I am presumptuous, I just want the burden of years on my head and my heart loose, it has been a long time since I have harbored Inayah, and I can no longer keep it to myself.
Oh God, what is this, what is it with Tama, Tama's gaze is not as usual, I put my fingers together because I was nervous.
"You want to marry me, Inayah"