The Fading Love
Come

I woke up in the middle of the night because I had trouble sleeping, I didn't know what was wrong with me, I had been trying to close my eyes but I always woke up, if I can be honest, I'll just keep picturing Zidan's face. That man is no longer my husband, but he was still my children's parents, Aska's pregnant time.I am still his wife, I always sleep next to Zidan, Zidan would faithfully rub my stomach if I had trouble sleeping, it was in the early days of my pregnancy, after we had a big fight, Zidan never cared about me anymore because I was still angry, and it looks like the child in my womb also wants to get a swab from his papa.

"Oh Allah, dear sleep, your mother is sleepy, son... Yes, now sleep yes dear" I gently rubbed my stomach while muttering. Now that I'm nine months old, I'm about to give birth. In the early days of pregnancy, I was not too placed with the name of cravings, but after entering the months of birth, why exactly my child is like missing every grain of the papa, but after entering the months of birth, why exactly my child is like missing every papa, I desperately forgot the papa, but he asked me to meet him. Oh, my God, I don't understand anymore.

I chose to sit leaning on the bed, I rubbed my big belly. I remember a month ago when I was shocked by Zidan's arrival. The man looks not taken care of at all, whether his wife does not drain it well, looks very sharp jaw that always shows her dislike to me.

"Yes.. I beg you to forgive me Aya..."

"Mending you home, you with my son already have no relationship anymore" That papah I'm talking. Maybe now my papah wants to punch Zidan in the face, but given the age that is not young anymore, so it is stopped.

"Sir, please let me meet Aya and my son, I want to talk about something important" I heard Zidan who was in the guest room, Zidan came to invite me to refer back. It's nice to play a reference, there's no apology for the traitor in my life, and he's still calling me Aya, you stubborn little guy.

"Aska" I shouted as Aska ran past me, it seemed like my son was unconscious with the presence of his papa. My son was ready with his fishing gear, forced me to follow Aska, actually lazy to look at him again.

"Aska" Zidan realized my voice, he managed to pass through the papah that had forbidden him to pass, Zidan moved to rest in front of me.

"Yes.I'm sorry, please forgive me Aya..."

"Wake up! why try there, fall your self-esteem if it's rich like Mr. Narendra" Zidan puffed with a clear look, he thought I'd melt with his face, yesterday-just try... I kept being given an intimidating cold look, a terrifying sharp look.

"Yes--"

"I said stop calling me that! you have no more rights to that call!" Upset me as I pointed at her face, I felt Aska's tiny hands hugging me from behind.

"Ma-maah" My son just sounded terrified by his papa, what this man really hoped for again. Aska never showed any news or anything else about him.

"Aska.." I stopped him from touching my son.

"Don't touch him, I'm not Ridho my son is hurt again in your hand, it's enough pain my son, talk him quiet with" waduh, why can I be cruel to him, why can I be cruel to him, honestly I don't have to. Zidan looked down while nodding weakly. Slowly he stood up and stood in front of me.

"Do you want to be born?" our gazes clashed with each other, Zidan looked completely different, his body thin, unlike the last time I saw him.

"Yes" I answered.

"what woman is a man?"

"I'll get a beautiful child turns out, I'm sorry Aya, I'm really sorry"

"The danger is that if you are not cheating, have cheated, are hard on your own child, and see now how Aska to his papa, this is what I fear, we may have become ex, we may have become ex, but there is no such thing as a former child, we can break up, break up, break up, break up, but your blood still flows in the blood of the child. You will continue to connect with them, but you even deliberately cut off your relationship little by little with your own child, and see now.

I took a deep breath, I was so easy to boast since the big pregnancy like now, my words were too long, Zidan alone could only duck while nodding slowly.

"You really are, and my regrets are of no use"

"It's good that you're conscious" I said as I folded my hands in front of my chest. I don't want to show my unbearable face in front of him.

"May I give you a name?" he looked down again at my stomach. He wanted to name my second child. When Aska was born, she gave him a name.

"no need, I can give my own son a name" I turned my face the other way, I don't want to be withered if I keep looking into his eyes, not melt and re-refer to him, but I gave him permission to name my second child.

I thought he would force it again, but in fact he just nodded slowly and smiled so sweetly and looked so tired his face.

"I want to hug Aska can?" I turned towards Aska, my son shook his head, I could feel his trunks.

"Aska doesn't want to, she's afraid of her papa"

"come home now Zidan, before I call the local village officials to drive you out of my house"

"I'm saying good, I'm taking the kids with you, I'm sure you can take care of the kids"

"our house remains your home and your children's. Since the beginning we married the house has been the right of you and our children"

"no need, I don't need a penny from your family"

"please, accept yes.my feelings will be completely destroyed if you reject the house, Aya" I silently did not accept nor refused, really I did not have the heart to see the look of Zidan. The man stepped closer to Aska, he sat in front of Aska.

"Son, papah kangen Aska. Sorry papah, son, Aska must be afraid of papah, son. One thing Aska should know. if papah loves you very much. Papah does not know when we will meet again son, maybe we will not be found again. If Aska is an adult later. papah tipped mamah and adek yes, take care of them and be a good child, papah dear Aska" I clenched both hands with tightness in the chest, I hold the tightness in the chest, zidan's words sounded heart-wrenching. Am I being too mean to him? I just don't want my son to feel the pain a second time.

"Ziya Melisa Fadillah" The name I prepared for our son, a name as beautiful as you.