The Faithful Wife
Still Happy or Sad

By trying to hold back tears, Hanna put the clothes of her three sons in the bag, she did not put all of them, she left her third dress one stel one stel, she said, surely he will miss his third prank. Maybe if he misses them, he can just hug his third shirt.

"This is Ma'am" said Hanna by handing over the bag containing her third shirt, her mother-in-law did not reply, she could feel this farewell.

"If you live there don't be naughty, son" Hanna said by rubbing their heads

"Mother promise, will you see us often?"

"Of course it's dear"

"If my sister is born may I take care of her mother?"diki

"You are indeed the best sister" Hanna said by rubbing Dika's cheek

"Mother, we want to say goodbye to Aunt Miska"

"But Aunt Miska is away with Isnan"

"Oh yes, this morning I saw Auntie Miska go with om Isnan ride in the car"Mertua Hanna can only smile at the behavior of her grandchildren.

"Now go with grandma and grandpa ya"the third nods his head and follows in the footsteps of his grandmother and grandfather.

"I'm sorry mom, Hanna" said her in-laws by hugging Hanna while crying"Thank you for taking good care of your grandchildren, you're not so sure you can take care of them like you, but I'm sure you have a reason that's true" said his in-laws by letting go of his arms"If you've given birth tell mom yes son, because somehow this is mom's granddaughter too"she said again by rubbing Hanna's stomach, but Hanna was only able to nod her head

With a heavy heart Hanna drove the three heroes into the car, the three were still in a state of crying. If Hanna can be honest in her truth she doesn't want to part with them, even her little heart isn't willing to part. If he finds out his husband is remarried and not in prison maybe he will be able to survive the current conditions by taking care of them. But unfortunately the journey of his life is already written and there is no way he can change it. Because the journey of his life is not written using a pen so he can change it whenever he wants. Her hand-leaving made her chest so painful, even her pain was not as severe as when she found out her husband was remarried.

Hanna was standing where her son's third room was sleeping at night, she saw a closet that had no contents anymore

"I must be strong, I must not be stressed" he said by wiping his stomach"There's still something I have to think about, especially my future child"

It had been two days of Hanna traveling around looking for work, and finally she got a job as a shopkeeper, for now whatever kind of job she could be grateful for was halal important. With the spirit of four five he set out on an angkot ride, at least the money he received from Nina for the capital he rode in angkot before he paid his payday. It is not easy for pregnant women to do work that is said not to be light, lifting and shifting the cardboard that still has its contents.

When she was on break her cell phone rang and the incoming call from her husband's no

"Yes"sahut Hanna was flat when her phone was connected

"Good morning, ma'am"he was surprised because it was not her husband but someone else

"Monday sir"

"Is this right with the wife, Tommy sir?"

"Yes right sir"

"Sorry Mom, can you not come to Bhayangkara hospital?"

"Hospital? Who's sick sir?"ask Hanna curiously

"Sorry Mom, I can't explain via cell phone"

"But I just entered work sir, if there is no right reason then I can not go" said Hanna slowly but her heart began to be overcome with fear

"Sir Tommy committed suicide"

"Until when will you continue to trouble me, mas" said Hanna softly and in the slightest he was not surprised, but judit heard him"No bored lest you always make me suffer, you always make me suffer, just once to make me happy mas" his murmuring again

"Sir Tommy died, Mom"

"Hhhh!"Hanna screamed with her mouth shut, as hateful and as sick as she was towards her husband she could not deny that she would be this sick when she heard her husband died from suicide, Hanna cried while rubbing her stomach"That little thought made my son orphaned before he was born, then what will be said by your three sons, mas. Should they be sorry because both of her parents died by suicide" the shopkeeper approached her because he saw Hanna crying

"My husband, Mom. My husband"

"Yes I know, but your husband why?"

"Died Ma'am" Hanna answered by wiping her tears

"Ha" the shopkeeper named Bu Linda shut his mouth, he was unable to cover up how shocked he was

"May not let me get permission"

"Go away"Linda felt sorry to see Hanna.

With a limped step he waited for the angkot, he was at a loss as to what he should do at the moment.

"Mothers...

I failed to become a rib, because God has destined me to be a backbone" he said slowly when he was in the angkot, people who were in the angkot saw his pity, full of pity, hanna doesn't care what's on their mind.

"O Allah at this time I am hiding behind the word surrender, in fact I hope high to Your God, I can lie to all humans" he said in his heart with ******* ***** his hands"But not with you. Where you know more about my heart than I do about myself. Please, please hold my heart as hard as God, for I am now very fragile, as fragile as God"inner again, his hands tremble, cold and sweaty"Please keep me warm. Because right now there is no place for me to lean. I feel so bad, so full of joy because there is no more place I complain"he eyes already feel so tired, because too many tears are coming out"If this hope I do not save on You. Who do I keep this hope?"

"Isn't this what you want, is it? You want to be a widow whose husband died because he didn't cheat on her?"he cupped his face using both of his trembling hands

Arriving at the hospital, he was only able to stay still by looking at the body of his husband who was covered in white cloth, he tried to pat his cheek several times to convince himself that he was not currently in a dream. The slightest tear did not come out, but his heart felt so painful.

"Sorry madam, the ambulance is ready"Hanna looked at a policeman and next to him a doctor"Can Hanna tell me the address we're going to?"without thinking about what would happen Hanna immediately gave her address

When she heard the siren sound of tears Hanna could not hold anymore, she clutched her husband's body that felt so cold and stiff

"Why must this hurt that you left behind, mas!?"he whimpered"Once I fell down my tears to weep over the wounds you left behind, so that the wounds you left heal but this wound is getting sicker because it's too deep"Hanna dropped her head on the chest of her husband's body"Mother felt so much pain... If I ask God to return your body to me so that I can complain to you, is it worth it Mom?"she said softly"While it's impossible but I really hope Mom. I was too greedy and selfish of Him, for my common sense had been overcome by the wounds he had inflicted, Mom"

"I have failed to become a full-fledged mother, because the role of father I had to take to support my unborn child" Ma'am"

With trembling hands he took his cell phone, then searched for a number that too often was on his cell phone out calls

"Hello" Miska's voice behind the sebrang

"Sir,,"his cry broke back, and,

"What's Hanna? What the hell's going on? Why are you crying? And that voice, isn't that the ambulance siren?"Hanna cried even more and more"Please tell me, Hanna. Don't scare me" Isnan who sat next to his wife felt astonished

"Mas Tommy, ma'am"He could no longer say the word, what a great Hanna, he was so amazing, he was so strong. Honestly, readers, if I was in Hanna's position, my legs would not be able to pump my helpless body.

"Tell Hanna, did something happen to you? Are you okay?"

"Mas Tommy died"

"Ha"Miska shut her mouth because of how shocked she was, the current one on her mind was not about Tommy, but her younger sister. Can her sister get through all this? Can her sister, Miska crying sobbing on her husband's shoulder. The fate of his brother who was written by God is so heavy.

"Mas Tommy killed himself mbak"Hati Miska was really destroyed, he did not want his sister to bear the status of a widow in a pregnant condition because her husband died of suicide, he was not willing to bear the status of a widow, surely it will be a Boomerang for his child when born later. Eager for his sense of Miska hugging the body of his sister who he believes at this time must be really desperate and very fragile.

"Tell me, tell me where are you going to take your husband's body?"

"House of his parents mbak"

"I and Isnan will soon follow. You must be strong Han, you must be strong. Because I'm sure you're my greatest little sister, because you're like a mother" she said, wiping away her tears. Hanna was only able to smile wryly behind her phone"Remember Hanna, the tears coming out were not because you were weak, it signified that you were the greatest woman"Miska was trying to strengthen her mere puppet sister, so that he no longer knows what he has to say, but at least every utterance can make Hanna more calm. At the moment Hanna only needs the shoulder of her brother, because she is really tired of her life destiny.