The Faithful Wife
Such Deep Regret

Astri still embraces the tiny body of her daughter, her chest is so tight because all this time she never thought about what would happen if her daughter married because of the matchmaking she and her husband willed, she said,not the happiness that his daughter harvests but the suffering is so deep

"forgive me mama son"again Astri apologized to Kinar, she hoped that apologizing would ease her daughter's pain,but it is not precisely the shinar getting sick because his mama did not stop saying sorry, Kinar hugged Astri's body so tightly he hoped by hugging his mama's body his pain would be reduced

"why didn't you say from the beginning that you weren't happy son?"

"what should I say ma?"

"you're not this sick if you're not pregnant"

"don't blame my future son ma"

"no son, no, no, not what mama meant like that"even every remark Astri uttered went awry even Astri had no right to say anything, Shinar let go of his embrace and looked at his mama's face,astri's eyes flashed a deep sense of guilt.

"i want a break" said Kinar softly

"rest my son"Astri covered Kinar's tiny body with a blanket and before leaving the room Kinar Astri kissed her daughter's forehead after which Astri came out and headed for the kitchen

"have you spoken to your daughter, and do you know how your daughter feels because of your greed and selfishness"Astri just silently heard the words of his mother-in-law because what nek popon said was true, Astri sat on the dining table chair as well as Grandpa Popon they both sat facing each other"have you ever thought about what will happen to a marriage because of a marriage?no you never think that far"Astri just kept quiet by playing the glass that was in his hand"I've told you to your husband and also on the tatit that I don't agree with Kinar and irsyad's marriage, and do you remember what you said at that time?"popon's voice is so soft"do you no longer remember, but until now you still remember, you said love will grow when they are together, did you see that love grow?no Astri love that never grows but it's Irsyad's seed that grows in my grandson's womb"nec Popon rubbed his already wrinkled cheeks"if only at that time you listened to the word mother would not be suffering like Astri at this time" Popon's tears began to fall on his wrinkled cheeks"mom did not have the heart to see the suffering felt by Kinar"

Astri was still silent, said Grandpa Popon if only he had listened to the words of his mother-in-law would not have suffered like this

"mother loved her from childhood, when you and your child decided to go to Jakarta and leave Kinar to the mother, "nek popon was unable to continue his words, he said,she still remembers after the departure of both her parents Kinar and her sister Kinan almost one Sunday Kinar did not want to eat she just cried and said that her mom and dad never loved her.

"i'll stay here for a few days Mom"

"no, mom won't let"

"but why Ma?"

"your presence will make Kinar feel more guilty because you always say sorry"Astri just keep quiet"go home to Jakarta and let Kinar here"

"i'm really really sorry Mom"

Astri is still sitting on the dining table chair he still blames himself because as a parent he has failed to make his child happy, do not parents always want to make his child happy?but the choice that Astri made was wrong, with a slow step Astri entered into the room Kinar in view of his daughter's face looked thin and so pale, so pale,the slightest hue of happiness did not radiate on his daughter's face

"do you suffer so much, son?"astri said so softly, Astri slowly lay his body beside his daughter who slept so soundly"if by staying in Jogja makes you calm mama will not mind son, son,and whatever decision you're going to make, I'm going to accept it while it makes me happy" Astri said

In the morning Astri was awake and preparing breakfast including warm milk for the shinar is also available at the dinner table, this evening the astri was not able to close his eyes,because in his mind he was still guilty

"astri's broom is still so early in the morning but all of it is available at the dinner table"

"iya Bi Narsih I always wake up and when I close my eyes I get dizzy"

"don't be too stressed"

"ah bi narsih"Astri went into the room with a glass of milk, Kinar was awake and sitting with his stomach

"are you awake, son?"Kinar looked at his mother with a smile

"why should mom bother?"kinar said when Astri handed her a glass of milk

"mama does not feel bother dear, mama does not want to see your grandchild when born later is not healthy, then spend her milk after that we have breakfast"Kinar sipped his milk until it ran out because Kinar wanted his mama to know that now he was happy

"i don't usually have breakfast ma*

"why?"astri asked with a slightly disappointed face"Didn't you always have breakfast?"

"after becoming pregnant I rarely have breakfast ma"

"mama forgot son" said astri by wiping his forehead Kinar looked at Astri with a look full of pity, during this time his mama never showed his dull face, his,because his papa meets all the needs of his mama so that his mama lives full of happiness but today

"but suddenly my stomach feels hungry ma" lied kinar

"really"a ray of happiness flashed on Astri's face"Did Oma's granddaughter feel hungry?"astri asked by caressing her daughter's belly, with the spoiled Kinar writhing in Astri's hands, a thing that Kinar had never done but today Kinar wanted to indulge with his mama.