The Lives of Five Hundred Thousand
Come with me to bed, Rai!

We released the pagutan after feeling that the oxygen stock had run out in the lung cavity. Then I inhaled the air greedily while Raihan just smiled looking at me. After my breath stabilized, I turned my body to see the view of Jakarta again.

"Look in my darling!"take Raihan.

"I still want to be here Rai."Refused it. Besides not being satisfied with the view of the city I also still feel ashamed of him.

"Yes, then I'll go inside first, baby."

I nodded slowly without looking at him. Raihan rubbed my head and entered the room.

Late at night, the cold began to slip on my body until it reached the ribs. I could not help but hold the cold until I gave up and chose to go into the room and close the balcony door.

After closing the door slowly, Raihan was busy talking to someone on the phone. I stood up and watched. In my heart I wish there was a bright spot about the whereabouts of my son Zain.

Raihan glanced at me after realizing I was watching him at the door and hung up.

He smiled at me." Are you satisfied, dear?"ask her while walking towards me. I, who had been standing on the balcony for an hour, just looked at the atmosphere of the city and felt a little ashamed of him. How not, I feel like a village person who is impressed to see the city because this is my first experience to see the city of Jakarta at night on the building.

I nodded slowly.

"Is he sleepy now?"Raihan asked back while grabbing my hand.

I'm shaking. Besides, I might get sleepy because I just woke up two hours ago.

"Mba hands are cold. Is it cold?"

"No, emm Rai.."

"Hem, why baby?"ask her, while rubbing her palms on my palms that feel cold.

"Have you heard of Zain, Rai?" I asked back expectantly.

Raihan sighed heavily then stroked the back of my head. At that moment he answered."No mba yet, they're still trying to find."

"Is this city so big that it's hard to find my son?" Along with saying my eyes glazed with glass while looking at him. Then I turned my gaze sideways and looked up holding back tears from spilling over.

Raihan who realized that I was about to cry immediately embraced and hugged me.

No matter how hard I hold back my tears from flowing, in the end it flows too. I cried in Raihan's arms and wet the tee shirt he was wearing.

"Prophey baby, be patient."Raihan constantly calms the fragile me with infinite patience.

It took me a few minutes to spill my sadness in Raihan's arms until my tears subsided on their own. Raihan wiped away the traces of tears still stuck to both of my cheeks.

"Don't cry anymore huh?"His words between the sidelines wiped away the trail of my tears.

I smiled and nodded slowly.

"Now mba bobo baby !" after saying, Raihan led me into the room. He asked me to go to sleep because the clock was at midnight. I followed him and let him lead me to bed. I sat on my hips on the bed and Raihan raised both my legs to go up. He also confirmed the location of the pillow I was going to sleep on. Raihan's treatment really made me feel like I had a husband who was really a husband, despite the fact that he wasn't my husband yet.

"Sleep baby, I'll sleep in the next room." Raihan. And when he was about to move, I reflexively held his arm as if I did not want to be left behind by him.

"Why baby?"ask her.

"Te.make care of me sleeping Rai." Ask me with doubt and shame.

"The company is sleeping?" his forehead was cringing.

"Ma.I mean keep me here until I fall asleep." I explained my point.

"Why do I want to sleep?

I nodded confidently.

I swallowed my saliva. I was wondering if Raihan would do that? but there's no way he's gonna do anything to me. And I don't know why tonight it feels so bad to be accompanied by him. What because all this time I've been used to sleeping with Zain and hugging him and now Zain is not beside me then.

"Why shut up, what are you afraid of, hem? Don't worry, honey, I won't do that unless I ask for it myself."

Again I swallowed my saliva, the last sentence made me even more embarrassed. Because the one who asked him to accompany me to sleep was myself. I was wondering if I was a cheap woman who had offered herself to a man even though my intentions were not going in that direction at all.

"Well, I'm going to bed!" Then Raihan confirmed the location of the pillow for my sleep in the middle and for himself on the side.

I put my body in the middle. Raihan covered me to the neck and he himself just sat leaning on the edge of the bed while playing his cell phone.

"Ray.."I could not close my eyes to call him.

Raihan turned his eyes on me."Why sweetheart?"

"Are you sleepy?"

"Not yet, why?" Raihan asked back.

"If you are sleepy, go to your room. I'm okay."

"I'll get out when I'm asleep."

"But.."

"It's okay, baby, sleep." Raihan put his phone on the nightstand and brought his body closer to me and then lay with me.

I was covered in a thick blanket felt cold heat on him. I was so scared that Raihan would do something like that to me. But it turned out that my guess was wrong, he just stroked the elus at the tip of my head to put me to sleep. What he did was exactly the same as when I was putting Zain to bed who had to be removed first.

I thought of Zain back. What is my son doing tonight? has he eaten? did he sleep on the same soft mattress as me right now. I pulled out a thick blanket that covered my entire body.

In the early hours of the morning I woke up in the middle of my sleep because of nightmares about my son. Sweat running down my body soaked my underside. My left and right lyrics turned out Raihan was gone maybe he left me after I fell asleep.

The door of the room opened, Raihan looked worriedly at me and asked.

"What's wrong mba, what's wrong?"Approaching me. Maybe he heard my screams when I woke up from a nightmare.

"Ray.."Say it with trembling lips. Then he hugged her and shed his tears.

While stroking my back Raihan asked."What's wrong mba? why crying?"

"Zain Rai, I had a nightmare about Zain. I'm so scared of Rai."I answered in between sobs.

"Just dream mba, trust me Zain must be fine." Raihan calms me from the crying.

In the middle of hugging, suddenly Raihan's phone rang. Then Raihan let go of his embrace and picked up the phone from who knows.

"So you managed to catch the kidnapper? what about my son?" A faint smile appeared on his lips.

"What's? "When the look on his face turned to surprise. I who saw the change in look on his face became anxious. I was afraid something bad happened to my son.

"Hold them off and wait for me to come." After that Raihan turned off his phone.

I immediately wiped my tears rough." Rai, what about Zain, is there good news?" ask me with a feeling of please worry.

"My man has managed to catch Zain's kidnapper but.."

"But what is Rai?" ask me with impatience and a pounding heartbeat.

"Zain, Zain wasn't with the kidnapper."

"What?" My eyes were perfectly round to his surprise. How can my son be kidnapped by the kidnapper but he's not with the kidnapper. Where is my son now? My tears are back. My chest immediately became very tight to hear that Zain was not with the kidnapper. I hated myself, as a mother I felt I had failed to protect my own child. I couldn't do anything and all I could do was cry. I am very sorry, very sorry why at that time I left Zain with bang Supri if only he did not leave it maybe the story would not be like this.