The Lives of Five Hundred Thousand
Temptation Raihan

Raihan stopped his car right in front of his house. Zain was still asleep on my lap so I had trouble getting out of the car. Without asking for help Raihan took Zain out of my lap and held him and I got out of the car.

"We put Zain to bed first."

I nodded then followed behind Raihan entering his house. We walked together to the top floor where Raihan's room was located. After arriving in Raihan's room put Zain on his soft mattress and then covered him.

"Mba just rest. Must be tired, right? I'm out first, mba." Raihan was about to walk outside the room but unconsciously I held his arm as if I did not want to be left behind by Raihan.

Raihan smiled sweetly looking at her hand held tightly by me and I just realized that I was holding Raihan's hand. I immediately let go of his hand and lowered my head in shame at the young and handsome man before me.

"I won't leave anyway, I just want to go downstairs for a moment" Raihan said as if he understood my heart.

"Wheels....!"

"Yes mba!"

"What..can I ride in your house until my husband leaves my house?"

Raihan frowned then looked at me who was looking down while my hands re mas my knuckle book. I was so scared that Raihan refused my wish because I didn't know where to hide if not in Raihan's house. Honestly, I am not looking to meet with Surya because I am still upset and disappointed with him. Raihan held and lifted my chin until my face lifted right in front of his face until we looked at each other. My heart started beating so fast. I'm confused why my heart is always like this if it's looked at closely by a man six years younger than me.

"Mba can stay in this house anytime you want, anyway I'm just happy to be here close to me."

"Rai.I.I'm just...!"

Raihan kissed my lips gently before I continued my words. I was washed away by Raihan's soft kiss until I refused him but returned. I don't know why I didn't reject Raihan. Maybe because all this time I felt less affection from my husband. Surya never was gentle with me. When he wanted to kiss me he was often rude as well as when asking for his right as a husband, Surya never treated me gently so I never felt comfortable when he hooked my body. We kissed long enough for me to realize that my actions were a mistake and a sin. I am a woman who still has a husband. When Rai was still enjoying my lips I pushed slowly the chest of Raihan's field so that Raihan retreated backwards.

I covered my face with my palms and I took many times as I had committed a sin. I was confused by how I felt about Raihan. Do I feel comfortable being close to her because Raihan's gentle attitude towards me and towards my son makes me start to grow a love for her? I brushed off that feeling. There's no way I love Raihan who I consider to be my own sister. I am just a lonely man and lack the affection of my family and of my own husband.

"Sorry mba, sorry.i. I. I don't mean less than mba but me...!

I shook my head as a signal Raihan did not need to continue his words. I ran into the bathroom in Raihan's room and I cried in it. I don't know what to cry about? is it because I regret having kissed Raihan and as if I betrayed my husband or because of the reality of the life I live, hated by my parents and not loved by my husband? I don't know, for sure right now I just want to cry spilling my heart.

I was in the bathroom long enough for my crying to subside. I washed my face removing the trace of tears on my face. After feeling calm I went back to Raihan's room and I didn't see him there was only Zain who was sleeping soundly.

I went outside the room looking for Raihan. My gaze circled around until I found Raihan sitting on the living room couch staring at his laptop screen. I walked slowly towards Raihan and I stood behind him without Raihan noticing my whereabouts. I noticed what Raihan was doing on his laptop screen. It seems Raihan is not doing his college assignments but doing something that is work.

"Wheels...!"

Raihan looked back where I was standing.

"Mba Nuri's...!"

I walked around the sofa and sat next to Raihan a distance of one and a half meters. Raihan glanced at me who was sitting and re-read my knuckle book a habit of mine when I was nervous or anxious.

"I'm.I'm sorry mba, I made you cry. I didn't mean to harass mba, me..!"

I shook my head and smiled thinly. I can't blame Raihan because he didn't force me. If I feel forced by Raihan I may have rejected him before Raihan kissed me further but in reality I myself welcomed him as willingly as if I wanted to.

"Forget it Rai, let's just say it never happened."

Raihan looked at me with a slight smile and then turned his gaze to the laptop screen.

"Are you busy Rai, am I bothering you?"

"Oh, no, not at all mba." Raihan immediately turned off his laptop screen and closed it. Then focus on looking at me.

"Is there anything you want to talk about?"

I breathe heavily.

"No Rai, I actually want to go home but I'm afraid there's still a Surya mas at home."

"Is there a problem with your husband?"

I turned towards Raihan who was looking at me seriously waiting for an answer from me. Should I just tell Raihan so that the burden on my heart is slightly reduced? my thinking.

"I'm upset with Surya Rai's mas."

"Why?"

"Because Surya often insulted me and often compared me to his ex-wife who said he was a scholar and good at making money."

Raihan tilted his seat facing towards me.

"What insults did he say to mba?" Raihan began to ask questions as if he wanted to know how Surya behaved towards me and what insults Surya often said.

I fell silent, would it be appropriate and innocent if I told Raihan while this was my household matter and indirectly I told my husband's ugliness to others.

"Rai.intinya I'm just upset with Surya mas."

Rai mangosteen small mangosteen." It's good that you don't want a story. But I will always wait for Nuri to tell a story."

Adzan maghrib's voice rang out. Raihan invited me to perform congregational prayers and I agreed to Raihan's invitation. Raihan lent me his mother's face and I put it on. We prayed in Raihan's room. I was amazed at Raihan again. Raihan is a very young man but can be a prayer priest. And again I imagine that this man like Raihan is what I want to be my husband in addition to his gentle treatment Raihan can be a good prayer priest. I rubbed my face and stood up. I can't imagine another man because I have a husband.

"Mr..!" I turned towards the bed, Zain was awake and looking for me. I immediately opened my face and folded it and I approached Zain.

"Zain is awake?"

"Zen lapal mama..!"

"Zain wants to eat? we're going to the kitchen?" take Raihan.

Raihan walked outside the room holding Zain and I followed behind. After arriving at the kitchen Raihan sat Zain in a chair. Then he picked up a paper bag containing food brought from the restaurant last afternoon. Raihan opened the food box one by one and then placed it on the plate. After that, he brought a pring plate and a bowl of food and put it one by one into a microwave. Raihan warms up all the food. I only noticed Raihan's busyness while sitting next to Zain.

Fifteen minutes later, Raihan had finished warming up all the food and placed it on the dinner table. Then Raihan took three dishes and took the rice from the rice cooker. I don't know when Raihan cooked rice.

Raihan feeds Zain with the salmon soup he ordered and has warmed up. Zain seemed to be eating so voraciously.

"I'm the only one who feeds Zain."

"Feed, let Zain I feed."

Again Raihan rejected me and I let it go. I didn't eat right away but waited for Raihan to finish feeding Zain.

"Why not eat mba?"

"I want to wait for you to eat Rai!"

Raihan smiled sweetly at me.A meaningful smile. After Zain felt full, Raihan and I started eating. I eat while looking down while Raihan eats while glancing at me. I don't know what he sees in this ordinary me. I was a little uncomfortable in the view of Raihan but rather I was nervous in the face of Raihan who was almost without a blink.

"Eat a lot ya mba, let plump." again Raihan mocked me skinny.

"You're taunting me keep Rai!"

"He.he..!"

After we finished our meal, we relaxed in the living room. I noticed Zain and Raihan playing a puzzle on a thick carpet. Many times Raihan glanced at me and smiled sweetly. I was always stunned by Raihan's dazzling smile.

At ten o'clock Zain was already feeling sleepy and asked me to sleep. Raihan who heard Zain's wish immediately volunteered to accompany Zain to sleep. Zain nodded and Raihan held Zain into his room. I'm still sitting on the couch and letting Raihan put Zain to bed because that's what he wants. Soon Raihan came out of his room and sat next to me at a close distance.

"Is Zain asleep?"

"It's mba."

Raihan looked at me so closely that his breath was so fragrant in my nose. I'm so nervous in Raihan's eyes this close. I was afraid of the caliphate again like that where Raihan kissed me and I replied to him.

"Ray.me..!"

"Mba afraid I'm kissing Mba Nuri again like that?"raihan said with a look that did not turn away from my face.

I blinked my eyes, why did Raihan know my heart? my thinking.

"Wheels...!"

"Hum..!"

"I. I want to sleep."

"Want to sleep with me?" goda Raihan then I pinched his stomach with anxiety.

"Aww, sick mba!" screeched Raihan while holding his stomach my pinches.

"You're talking about Rai."

"He.he ends I'm very worried about Zain's mother."

I bend my face and Raihan fusses my nose.

"Don't pout that dong mba later beautiful can be lost you know."

"I seriously want to sleep Rai..!"

"Do I want to sleep?"

"Wheels...!" I immediately pinched almost all of Raihan's stomach because of the anxiety on him that continues to tease me so Raihan felt anxious then he hugged me tightly and arrived Raihan carrying me bridal style. I was shocked at Raihan's treatment. I'm so afraid Raihan will do something like that to me.

"Rai..Down with me, what do you want?"

"She wanted to sleep with me!"

"Rai.I don't want to be like this I don't want to sleep with you, you're not my husband Rai."

"Ssttt is quiet." Raihan took me to his room and beyond my expectations Raihan placed my body next to Zain who was sleeping soundly. Then she covered me with her thick blanket. I'm so ashamed of Raihan for thinking negatively of her.

"Sleep mba..!" Raihan was about to leave the room but I called him. Raihan.

"Why mba?"

"Where are you going to sleep?"

"Do you want me to sleep in one bed with you?"

"Wheels...!"

"Sleep mba, don't worry about where I'm going to sleep? there are still plenty of rooms in this house." Raihan smiled at me and then walked out of the room.