The Lives of Five Hundred Thousand
I'm not a kid

The clock has shown the time to enter the Maghrib but the rain still has not subsided even bigger and accompanied by strong winds. Raihan repeatedly looked at the clock that was coiled in his hand.

"Mba, can I pray Maghrib here?" raihan asked with a look of serious face.

I was astonished and amazed at Raihan. He is a young man today but still remembers and obeys his duty as a Muslim.

"Bo.by Rai. I also want to pray..!"

"Do you want to pray together with me mba?"

"Bo..by Rai, yes have taken ablution water first!"

"Ready mba..!" Raihan walked to the bathroom without me because I was sure Raihan would know where the bathroom was. While waiting for Raihan, I held two prayer mats in the TV room.

After Raihan finished taking the ablution water I rushed to the bathroom to fetch the ablution water. It took me a few minutes to get some water after that I immediately put on my face and stood behind Raihan.

"Can I start now?" Raihan asked me who was still busy justifying the location of the mucus I was using.

"Owh, yes Rai.I'm ready!" I answered when in fact I was still doubtful about the location of the face I was using because it felt saggy.

Raihan became my prayer priest for this time. Prayers that I have never done in my entire life with my brother and my husband. Honestly, I am very impressed with Raihan besides being very young and handsome, Raihan is also a beautiful young man. I feel like Raihan is what I need in my life.

"Astaghfiruallah it's azim...!" I was in my heart. Why should I want another man while I am a woman who already has a husband even though my husband is not a man who obeys his religion.

Raihan looked back where I was still sitting on my prayer mat while pensive.

"Mba Nuri's...!"

Raihan's greeting made me a little flabbergasted then looked towards Raihan who was also looking at me.

"I.iya Rai..!"

"Mba why ?why bengong? is there anything you're thinking about?"

"It's okay Rai, I just imagine if my husband is a Sholeh man like you Rai..!"

"I mean Nuri's husband like me?"

I immediately smothered my mouth. Why can't my tongue compromise? I'm so ashamed of Raihan. Raihan smiled very sweetly at me and I was stunned to see his smile.

"Did Nuri want me to be a priest forever?"goda Raihan's.

"Huh? what the hell are you talking Rai..!" I became misbehaved and re mas mukena who I still use.

"He.he.if Mba Nuri wants me to be a priest forever..!" Raihan is still teasing me and it feels like I want to drown my face right now. Not because I liked Raihan's flirtation, I just felt embarrassed to have been teased by a little boy who I thought was like my own sister.

"Wheels....!"

"Yes baby..!"

I raised my pupils.

"Eh, sorry mba. I was just kidding!"

"I.iya I know Rai.you are indeed the person who likes to joke and never talk seriously." I don't know why I feel upset and don't like the words of Raihan who says that his words are just a joke.

"Why is his face so bent? I'm.I'm really sorry I'm just kidding."

"Well, my face lines are like this Rai..!"

"Mba Nuri when smiling looks very sweet. Try smiling I want to see a sweet smile mba..!"

"Still sweets Risa Rai..I am old where there is sweetness."

"Lho, why bring Risa anyway mba?"

"Yes, it is so Rai, Risa is beautiful and educated again.It fits with you the same people are and college children. Moreover, you've got the green light from the mama." I don't know why I remember when Raihan looked at Risa and it felt like there was something stuck in this heart I don't know.

Raihan smiled thinly and looked at me so closely that I became misbehavior for him.

"Is Nuri jealous?"

"Remain jealous..?"

"Nrt ...! I told you I'm not jealous because I don't have a right to it. I. I'm just happy if you're the same as Risa."

"What chadian is mba? how can it be if there's no flavor here..!" raihan said and then held his chest.

"Risa is indeed beautiful and on campus many students like it but unfortunately I am not one of those who like Risa mba. I have absolutely no interest in him and if asked to choose of course I prefer mba Nuri than Risa." Keep Raihan.

I was astonished to hear Raihan's words that he preferred me to the beautiful Risa. It is hard to believe that a perfect Raihan prefers women who already have children with their appearance that is far from fashionable.

"Ha.ha.alah it is Rai.don't be kidding that can make me soar because I'm afraid of falling in the end."

"For this time I'm not kidding mba, I do not like Risa and if mba Nuri is not someone's wife of course I would prefer mba than Risa." Raihan seemed to be speaking seriously.

"I.iya Rai.I am the wife of this person.you are still very young Rai.your future is still long and there is still plenty of time to find and choose what kind of woman you want."

"If God wills, I only want a woman like Nuri in my entire life, not another woman."

"Ha.ha.kamu it's a big jago ngegombal ya Rai, already Rai.see that my son to fall asleep in the waiting chair who prayed no longer than that." Raihan followed my index finger and smiled at Zain who was asleep on the sofa. Then Raihan got up and approached Zain. While I was still fixing the face and the prayer rang out.

"Does Zain want to be moved to mba's room?"

"Let me raise Rai...!"

"It's okay mba, let me just." Raihan picked up Zain to be moved into the room but before Raihan entered my room I prevented him.

"Why mba?"

"Ja.don't be in this room Rai.in that room." I pointed to a room I had only been in for two nights with Zain. I was not wanting a room with mas Surya to remember his insults to me and his slap at that time. I wonder at Surya why he had a long time off work when I did not feel at home he was at home. Not because he never spent money on daily shopping but rather his carefree attitude towards me. Like this time he left without telling me where to go and when to go home.

"Owh..!"Raihan brought Zain into the room I pointed at and after entering Raihan fell silent with his eyes around the room. I know Raihan must be surprised because in this room there is only a floor mattress and two pillows.

"Why sleep here mba? wear a floor mattress. Doesn't pity the same Zain had to sleep on a mattress?"

"What is Rai. It's okay to just sleep here."

"Why not sleep in the usual room mba?"

"The room was in the same place as Surya."

"Well, why? aren't you a couple who have to sleep in the same room?"

I breathe heavily. Confused how to explain it to Raihan.

"Rai.you're still a child won't understand household matters. Later if you are married you will feel it for yourself. Already, just put Zain here." I told Raihan to immediately put Zain on the mattress and Raihan also according to although it looks heavy.

"Already Rai.leave it."I walked out of the room but Raihan blocked my arm tightly and without speaking anymore Raihan me lu matted my lips greedily. I turned my eyes to get a sudden attack from Raihan. A few seconds later Raihan removed his lips from mine.

I was fixated, my tongue felt faint to speak and my heart beat racing quickly. I did not expect that Raihan whom I considered a child and whom I considered a sister had kissed me.

In my residence Raihan looked at me fixedly.

"When do you think of me as a child? from then until now I always thought I was a child. I could've done more than just kiss mba to prove that I'm a grown man and not a child. Sorry mba, I didn't mean to harass mba but. I don't know how to express this feeling...!" Raihan came out of the room while I was still silent. I feel like my knees are feeling weak.

I inhaled as much air and exhaled it. I try to get rid of my nervousness and try to act like normal.

I came out of the room and I said Raihan was staring out the window and flipping his curtains. The rain still has not subsided even still heavy in addition to the lightning is mutually unpretentious.

"Wheels...!"

Raihan looked at me and smiled sweetly.

"Why mba? does my being here make Nuri feel uncomfortable?"

"Mom..no, I just wanted to ask if you're hungry?"

"It's so good that he he he..!"

"I'll do something first." I rushed to the kitchen to make something because I did not have side dishes to cook so I took the initiative to make fried rice only and I happened to have a stock of eggs.