The Lives of Five Hundred Thousand
Ngedate on 69 levels

We were silently pondering and introspecting ourselves who was wrong between us. Raihan who left us and preferred to accompany Nura and her family chat or me who did not want to hear the explanation in the slightest. But I think we are equally wrong. Raihan was wrong to let me wait for him for too long and even coolly chatted with Nura and her family. And I myself was selfish not to give him a chance to explain it even I broke my cell phone card.

In the midst of silence we arrived Raihan spoke first."I apologize for my attitude at the same time. At that time I wanted to explain it, but I refused my explanation."

I looked up and looked seriously at him."Are you blaming me?"

Raihan smiled broadly at the expression on my face." I don't blame mba, I just tell you that time I wanted to explain it but I refused it raw."

"What a difference you still blame me."

"Different dong darling!" Raihan started to flick and I instantly unsheathed sharply.

Raihan chuckled a little at the expression on my face that somehow seems to be at the moment." Your mama's really adorable to be angry again, Zain."

Zain, who was called by his name, smiled at me. I got more upset with him and set my eyes on him in another direction.

"Will you hear my explanation now? so that mba doesn't misunderstand."

I shook fast." It's gone stale," I said tightly without looking back at him.

Raihan sighed big."How would you know if you don't want to hear my explanation first?"

"I said it was stale. If you want to explain why not just from before. Why don't you try to come home and explain to me. But what the truth is, I waited for you day and night but you never came."

"But it was Mba himself who asked me not to...."

Raihan blames me again. I immediately left regardless of his unfinished words.

"Mh..!" I did not care about his call but when I stepped four meters away from him arrived a tall body figure held me from behind. Whose body if not the body of Raihan who was hugging me.

"Ray, peeling. I have to go home now mumpung not too late. Because if it's too late, there's no more bus to my place."

"Leave it. I'm not gonna let Mba get away from me anymore."

I'm holding Zain, it's hard to escape his embrace." Lepasin Rai, I have to go home now."

"No. I'm sorry mba, I'm wrong I'm sorry. What do I have to do to forgive me?" Finally Raihan relented and apologized first even though he was not entirely guilty.

"Rai, please let go first I'm having a hard time moving this."

"I won't let go before I stop getting angry."

"Rai, I stink you know, since the morning I haven't had a bath, haven't changed clothes not even brushing my teeth. Aren't you disgusted to hug me like this?"

"No matter."

"Wheels..!"

Raihan did not care about my babble but turned my body and then covered Zain's face with his palm and kissed my lips without excuse. Raihan's action made my eyes widen instantly. I was a little rebellious but the originally rough kiss grew softer that it made me fall silent and get swept away by the soft kiss and forget about Zain among us, forgetting my disappointment and frustration with him and of course forgetting the name of sin. I kissed her back. A kiss from the one I love so much and I missed some of this time. We paced each other, tasting and exchanging saliva spilling the turmoil of longing that rose in our hearts.

Again I say that we are not holy men but men who do not escape the word sin. The weak man of faith who cannot resist lust and I as a normal woman is neither hypocritical nor dismissing that I love kissing kisses from the man I have loved all this time.

"Papa lehan's....Zen nda bica loam!" Zain shouted as we kissed. I gasped and so did Raihan and then released our pagutan which still feels hanging and giggling.

Raihan took his hand off Zain's face. I looked down embarrassed while Raihan just smiled at my behavior.

"Not angry anymore, is it, baby? do you want to kiss again?" Raihan asked with a seductive smile. I looked down at my embarrassed face.

"Look boy, your mama is really adorable once again if you're ashamed of it."

Zain smiled adorable. Whether he understands or not Raihan's words are definitely Zain's face looks serialized.

"Wheels..!"I pinched her belly which was wrapped in a white shirt. It is a habit if I am in a state of misbehavior when tempted by it.

"Awww, it's always nyubit. Just kiss why the hell mba make it better." I paid no heed to the protest but pinch it back. And at that moment Raihan held my hand and took my body into his arms. He hugged and Zain tightly.

"I love you guys so much, so dear." Raihan said then kissed the shoots of my head and also the shoots of Zain's head alternately and at that time I let out tears. Raihan let go of his embrace and wiped away my tears that continued to flow incessantly.

"I'm sorry mba, I've disappointed and hurt you. I have absolutely no intention of hurting my feelings. I'm.."

"Already Rai, do not discuss anymore. I, I've forgiven you."

Raihan stared in the glare of my eyes until his gaze was able to shake the deepest recesses of my heart." What, have you really forgiven me and not been angry with me?"

So impressed by his narrow eyes that I was unable to say a word but just nodded. The past let pass and the important thing now is that Raihan proves the word.

A sweet smile fell on her lips."So...how about the answer to my question?" He asked while pointing at the heart-shaped rose. I followed her index and narrowed my eyes and turned my eyes back to her.

I looked at those hopeful eyes deeply." You...really proposing to me Rai?"

"Yes mba, I'm malamar mba. Mba want to not marry me? to be a wife and mother to my children. Raising our children together. Accompanying my entire age in joy and sorrow." Raihan's words sounded so sweet in my ears. My brain is directly treveling. How happy I would be if I married Raihan. The figure of the perfect man, young, handsome, rich, kind, loving, loves me very much and my son Zain. But there is something that still holds in my heart that is the blessing of his family because I do not want to marry him without the blessing of his family, especially from Bu Hajah Fatimah as his mother.

"But...did your parents agree that we married Rai?" Ask me doubtfully. I'm afraid Raihan's proposal is without his mother's knowledge.

I was stunned to hear Raihan's long reply. I can't believe that Mrs Haji has allowed us to get married because she recently proposed to me for her niece, Andre. Did Raihan already know that his mother once proposed to me for her cousin? I want to ask you this time but I rethink the cause of the consequences if I ask.

"Why do you love?"

I was a little flabbergasted then shook my head quickly." Are you serious, Rai?"

"Look, I'm serious. Even mom asked me to get married."

Both my eyeballs are growing."Didn't you?" I don't believe what Raihan said.

"What mba still doesn't believe? Yeah, I called mom first." Raihan was about to reach for his phone but I hurriedly prevented him.

"Don't Rai."

"Why mba, don't you need proof?"

I'm shaking." I, I believe."

Raihan smiled broadly." How about mba now? Zain had agreed that I was his father and now his mother who had not answered agreed not if I became a surrogate father for Zai."

"Papa's replacement?"

"Not only that dong, of course be the legitimate husband of his mama Zain."

I smiled amusedly and without a second thought I immediately nodded confidently. I believe Raihan is my best mate whom God sent to perfect the happiness of my life and Zain's.

"Seriously MBA?"

"I want to marry you, Rai." Say it without hesitation.

Highlight Raihan's eyes seemed to sparkle with twinkle and along with it his smile was perfect."Didn't it? mba accepted my proposal?"

"Yes Rai, I want to be your wife, mother of your children, accompany your life throughout my life in joy and sorrow."

Raihan smiled widely then hugged me and also Zain who I was carrying. In addition, he also kissed my forehead and kissed the shoots of my head as well as Zain alternately.

"Thank you baby, thank you."

After letting go of his embrace, Raihan reached into something in his pants pocket. I noticed what Raihan was doing. In his hand was a grey velvet. After that, he opened the velvet at once I was amazed to see the velvet contents of the ring that looked luxurious and I was sure it was a diamond ring. Raihan took the ring from inside the velvet and then grabbed my left hand because my right hand was holding Zain. After that he removed the ring that was on my finger, an ordinary gold ring that I bought at a store a while ago. Then he pinned the diamond ring on my ring finger. The size of the diamond-eyed ring is right fitting as if Raihan already knows what size of ring I use.

"Rai, this is so fancy. It must be expensive." I said as I stared in amazement at the beauty of my fingers that had been decorated by a diamond that looked shiny and beautiful.

"You know, mba is much more valuable than this diamond ring."

I looked at him with glassy eyes and with a feeling I could not express in words. Keen, happy and of course happy have been betrothed by the man I love and he values me so much. A man who I want to be my husband despite our age is quite far away.But it is not that love can be present or felt by anyone regardless of status or age including me and Raihan. Raihan loves me even though I am much older than him and I love him even though I know that Raihan is much younger than me.

For this time I hugged Raihan first without any awkwardness to him. Even without any shame I put a kiss on her cheek and whispered.

"Thank you for your great love...Rai!"

Raihan seemed to smile and then say." If only kissing on the cheek does not feel mba, mending kiss on the lips hehe." I pinched his stomach again. I was embarrassed to have gone first.

"Good night, Mr. Raihan." Suddenly arrived two women who were out of nowhere to come and greet Raihan. I scrunched my forehead looking at the two young ladies dressed neatly.

"Oh yeah, you guys came in time."Raihan said to the two women.

"Yes sir."

Then Raihan turned his gaze towards me and Zain.

"Zain, can't you if you want to talk to your mom first?"

"Papa's bole."

"Papa's handsome son is smart and understanding." Raihan fussed over Zain's nose until Zain laughed.

After that, he took over Zain from my sling." My son hasn't had dinner. And the food was already there. Your job tonight is to feed her and take good care of her until my business with my future wife is done." Raihan said to the two men.

"Wait a minute what does that mean, Rai?" I asked because I was confused what Zain wanted to do.

"Zain will be taken care of by them for a while dear. Don't worry they'll take good care of Zain because the stakes are their lives."

The two women looked at each other and looked at me."Well, don't worry we'll take care of Zain really well."

"But...Where's Zain going to take Rai?"

"Special place. The place is suitable for Zain. There are also toys there so Zain will not be bored waiting for his papa mama ngedate."

Hearing Raihan's words, I lowered my head in embarrassment at the two women who seemed to be smiling at me. How not to be ashamed, I am just a single child widow who will be invited by a single man. Not just single, but he was much younger than me.