The Lives of Five Hundred Thousand
Expressions of Raihan's feelings

I was swept away in Raihan's arms, ignoring the noodles I was cooking. I widened my eyes after I found that the noodles I cooked had grown.

"Rai.please let go of her hand."

"Don't want to mba, rarely can I hug mba like this." Raihan refused to let go of his hand he became spoiled.

"This noodle is so dead Rai, I want to lift it."

Raihan did not answer nor let go of his embrace but his hand grabbed the stove button and then turned it off. Then Raihan turned my body towards him. I looked up at Raihan's face above my head because Raihan himself was one hundred and eighty inches tall while I was only one hundred and sixty-seven inches tall. Ideal height for Indonesian body size.

Because the distance between my face and Raihan is so close that I can feel the smell of the warm breath mint that Raihan has. Raihan looked at me and I became nervous.

"Rai..le.let me Rai!"

Raihan did not let go of his embrace he instead looked at me with eyes full of longing.

"I. I love and love you mba, I. I want to replace the position of Surya mas to be your husband. I want to make you and Zain happy. I know I'm not happy with Surya?"

I was dumbfounded and my lips were slightly open. I didn't expect Raihan to talk to me like this. I looked into his narrow eyes and found sincerity and seriousness there.

"Ba..how could you want a woman who is married and has children and is old like me Rai? out there are still many young women who are more worthy to be made your life companion Rai."

"I.I just want you to mba, just want you in my life." Raihan me lu mat my lips gently. At first I was shocked but for a long time I was washed away for him. I also enjoyed the touch of Raihan's lips playing on my lips until I unknowingly opened a little of my mouth giving a gap for him to enter my oral cavity. Raihan's tongue traces my oral cavity in detail and I reply to him. We twine and taste each other until we feel out of breath and release the pagutan. With a state of ngosan I breathe a lot of air as well as Raihan.

"Let me re-cook the noodles mba, just sit in the chair," Raihan said after our breath returned to normal. I looked down my face embarrassed while Raihan smiled at me.

I looked at Raihan's body cooking noodles. I was a dilemma for him. Between believing and not that Raihan wants me to be his wife. Raihan turned to look at me and gave her sweet smile. I immediately turned my eyes. I'm ashamed to have noticed.

Ten minutes later. Raihan brought two bowls of boiled noodle egg topping on top as well as meatballs and placed her one bowl in front of me. Then he walked again to fetch some water in the dispenser and put it back in front of me.

"Thank you Rai!"

Raihan smiled as his gaze could not be separated from me. I don't know why I feel like Raihan is always smiling after we kissed earlier. His face looks like a series. Is he happy? I don't know I don't know.

A bowl of noodles made by Raihan in front of me really arouses my taste. I can't wait to enjoy it without me noticing Raihan watching me with a smile.

"Boy eaten baby!"

I looked up at the handsome man sitting across the table.

"Rai.don't overdo it I don't like."

"Huh.ha..! yes it's been eaten mba, mumpung is still hot if it's not fluffy anymore."

I obeyed Raihan's orders and began to feed him his noodles. I ate it voraciously in addition to being hungry because the noodles taste good and taste different on my tongue. Is it because Raihan affixes other spices or do I not know and the point is that it tastes very good.

"Nak mba? I made it with love and special affection for mba to eat it tastes good."I'm surprised why Raihan can know my heart? does he have a sixth sense?my thinking.

After I finished eating the noodles I washed the dirty utensils in the sink and immediately Raihan hugged me back behind me.

"Rai.please let go of this!" I refused in Raihan's embrace I don't want another khilaf like that.

"I just want to hug Mba!"

"Rai, we're not married couples I don't want to be happy again like that."

Raihan let go of his embrace." If I'm already a husband mba, can I be free to hug mba?"

"Rai.it couldn't have happened where maybe we could be a married couple!"

"Why mba? why can't you?"

"Because of you....!"

"Because I'm a child who won't be able to give a living born and inner? do I want to prove that I can give a living bathin same mba? mba don't worry I can satisfy mba in bed anyway, mba also do not have to worry I can also give a living money to mba and Zain and whatever else I want will give."

"Why mba?"

"I'm a woman who already has Rai's husband, there's no way we can be a married couple."

"What is impossible mba, mba unhappy right with mas Surya. Why don't you ask her for a divorce. After that we got married."

"Speaking is easy but the truth is not. You know before marriage I want marriage once in my life."

"So that means you don't want to marry me?"

"Wheels...!"

Before I continue my words Raihan leaves me in a state of anger. I breathe heavily. I was confused how to face the attitude of Rai who had been clear to talk wanted me to be his wife. On the one hand maybe I started to like Raihan's gentle figure to me and I wanted a figure like Raihan to be my husband. But on the other hand I have a husband who will not divorce me. Besides, I do want a marriage once in my life. I finished my laundry which was delayed. After that, I followed Raihan to the second floor.

I saw Raihan sitting on the family room couch and busy struggling on his laptop screen. I walked towards him and stood beside him.

"Wheels..!"

"I'm at work mba, mba Nuri just rest in the room," said Raihan without turning to me. I know Raihan's still mad at me.

I nodded and left in front of Raihan and went into the room. I saw that Zain was still asleep when he hadn't had lunch. I'm going home now, I thought.

I immediately packed the goods given by Raihan and I put it in one place so that I could easily carry it. I tidied up Raihan's room before I left because I didn't want to dirty people's houses. After that, I carried Zain who was still asleep and brought Raihan's gift.

I closed the door slowly and then I approached Raihan who still looked busy. I stood two meters away.

"Rai.I want to go home now," I said.

Raihan turned to me looking at me with a flat expression.

"Oh, yes it's heart," Raihan said then turned his gaze back to his laptop screen.

"Thank you for giving us a ride in your house and thank you for the clothes you bought for us and the food you bought for us."

Raihan nodded without looking at me. I smiled faintly and then I took my foot off Raihan and when I was about to go down the stairs I looked back first and I found Raihan watching me but he immediately turned his gaze towards me others.

I walked silently to my house. Raihan's hugs, kisses, and words were ringing in my brain. I exhaled and shook my head. I can no longer think about what Raihan did to me.

After arriving in front of my house. I saw Surya's motorcycle still there. I wonder why Surya has not returned to Jakarta? why is he taking so long off? I entered my house through a side door and happened to be not in the lock. After being in the kitchen I found my mother who was eating Padang rice at the dinner table. My mother looked at me with a cynical look.

"Where have you Nuri gone, your mother and your husband. You bastard son of a bitch."

"I'm staying at a friend's house."

Then I rushed into the new room I occupied and put Zain to bed on the floor and put my luggage.

I heard Mom swearing rudely but I let her not respond. After I no longer hear mom cursing and it seems like mom is no longer in the kitchen I went out of the room to take ablution water because I have not prayed dzuhur. When I opened the door and closed it, there were two hands around my waist.

"Where have you been, baby?" mas Surya hugged me from behind and I gasped in shock at the treatment that Surya had never done before.

"Mas misses you so much, don't be angry again, is it the same?"continued again. I silently stared neither talking nor moving. I still can't believe Surya was being gentle with me. Mas Surya turned my body and was about to kiss my lips it coincided with the mother coming out of his room.

"Heh, you know no shame and no place." Mother's touch with her cry while staring intently at us. Me and Surya were shocked. Mas Surya canceled his intention to kiss me.

"Mother just disturb," said mas surya.

"Who disturbs you, you know no place."

"hm, mas I want ablution first because I have not prayed dzuhur.

"Dear, wait in the room?"

I stepped into the bathroom without responding to Surya's words which I thought were very strange.