The Lives of Five Hundred Thousand
Solar Recognition

I spent my day babysitting Zain and producing crackers and selling them. Very grateful my crackers sold hard even I added three more stalls. I count sheet by sheet of money that is in the hands of the sale of crackers this month.

"Eight million two hundred thousand," I said softly. Then the smile on my lips found this month's profit to be greater than last month's profit.

"No result betrays effort. Thank you, may my efforts always be smooth."

Today I have no activity just waiting for the clothesline crackers that were produced last night. While waiting for the crackers to dry and Zain was playing the hen alone, I sat back and relaxed while playing a phone that has not been replaced for five years by a new one. It came to my mind to replace it with a new one but I felt a pity with this phone because this phone is the only thing left of my labor while working in the chemical company and I think of it as a memory. While it has not been damaged and is still functioning properly then just use it.

On a whim I opened a Facebook account that was rarely opened. The first status that appeared in my berandaku is a photo of Ipah's togetherness with Surya mas and his children in the bath rides.

Since meeting Ipah at the Nano's birthday party his son Elis, he never again sent messages and insulted me but often uploaded his togetherness with Surya mas and to his two children. I don't know what it means to upload photos to the same them on Facebook with a better caption. Is it possible that he deliberately heated up my manation to make me jealous or angry? unfortunately, it doesn't work at all. I never felt jealous or angry when I saw a picture of them stopping by my door. Either because my mind is busy thinking about my efforts and thinking about Raihan who just disappeared so much that I forgot my feelings even barely have the same taste again Surya.

If I used to be a little afraid of losing Surya mas because in addition to having affection for him also I need a living from him to buy Zain milk. But now that feeling of affection gradually disappeared along with his attitude that was never willing to change. I might be tired and want to give up because I don't want to spend the rest of my life with a man who never cared about me and my son. It occurred to me to sue Surya, but I rethink is it not sinful if I first sued? Maybe I should ask someone who knows the law of divorce.

I ignored the pictures and checked the inbox. There were several messages from Andre arivu and I read them.

"Hi mahmud, how are you? Why is it so rare online?"

Then I typed a sentence in reply to Andre's message.

"Thank you, be aware of busy he he!"

When I was about to close the account, Andre replied to my message.

"Have you been taking care of your husband and kids?"

I only replied to her with a faint smile emoticon.

"Yes, the plan is next month I want to go back to Indonesia."

"Couldn't you?"

"Truly dong, why? glad to hear I'm coming back?"

While typing crossed my mind. Does Andre still remember his own words about inviting marriage after adulthood?" But the memory of a person is different. He could remember or vice versa.

"Take confidence once," I replied later.

"Ha ha ha. Don't you know that my confidence has been ingrained since I was in SD? I've only dared to propose to a girl in elementary school first."

I was astonished, Andre remembered it and now he's insinuating me and maybe he thinks I don't remember it. She didn't know how I expected her to come to see me and marry me before I got married. But now that desire just disappeared, especially after seeing a wedding photo photo with his ex-wife, it was very disappointed at that time and until now.

"Continue?" I still pretend I don't know.

"The boy accepted my proposal. That's why I want to go back to Indonesia to marry her."

I coughed reading it. Is what Andre said just a joke or a serious?" I shake my head so I don't think about it anymore.

"Owh."

"Just, oh? don't you want to know who that woman is?"

"No need, it's your privacy I'm just someone else."

"Why tell me to remember something?" I asked, but in my heart I cursed him, "it's too late Dre, it's too late."

"You don't remember what I told you before?

When I was typing to reply to Andre's message, the sound of the motor stopped on my home page. Then I stopped typing no longer reply to Andre's message but rather logged out of my Facebook account and kept my phone in the drawer. After that, I walk towards the door will open it but before reaching the door it turns out that Surya first opened the door and then barged in without greeting. Pretty surprised for him. How not, suddenly he entered without greeting like a robber who was about to rob someone's house. I was silent on the spot while looking with a surprised face.

"Dadam!" greet her, while smiling in my direction.

I just kept quiet. Not saying hello back, not approaching her, not saluting her and not even smiling at her.

"Nuri..your husband came, why not welcome anyway? you don't miss your husband?" Mas Surya protested because I ignored him.

He walked up to me and was about to hug me but I avoided him and said with annoyance."Don't try to touch me, what kind of husband two months does not come home and never gives a living. What do you think I am?"

"I just came already You're omeli Nuri, aren't you alone who doesn't need a living from me? I'm not coming home because I'm busy working, baby." Surya denies my accusations.

"Ck, don't pretend amnesia mas, you yourself said you won't be willing to give a living for me. What did you say, busy? Yes, busy times work because the result is to satiate the stomach of your ex-wife right no?"

"Your queen...!"

"What's? wanna deny? do you think I don't know what you're doing with your old ex-wife?"

Seen the face of the mas Surya reddened and while tracing the waist of the mas Surya said in a loud voice." Don't insult him Nuri, what if I give money to Ipah? did you forget she was the mother of my son?"

Just mentioned his old ex-wife he didn't accept. Did he not know that his ex-wife had insulted his legal wife with more hurtful words. I call it old is the fact that it is not just the origin of speech.

Then I ventured to challenge back." I did not forget the mas. I know she's your ex-wife. But is it worth it that you treat him special? take the street, eat at restaurants and shop and that's what you do to her very often. While I'm your legal wife did you ever do that to me? don't do it all, just don't give a living. I'm tired of living with you and I don't want to spend my youth with a man who doesn't know you."

"you...!" mas Surya was about to slap but swiftly I fended him off.

Holding his hand and staring intently at the two glances of his eyes I said, "divorce me now!"

Mas Surya pulled his hand from my grip and laughed out loud and I hated to see it.

"Do you think I'll divorce you? ha ha, it's not that easy, my dear. I'll never divorce a wife as beautiful and beautiful as your body."

"Fuck you mas, if you don't want to divorce me why do you behave like this to me mas?is it my fault you are?say me with rage.

"Because of your own attitude that never sincerely accepted me to be your husband Nuri. Did you forget our first night? you mentioned the name of another man in the middle I fucked you. Don't you know what it's like to be me? it hurts..it hurts so much. The woman I love and just married still loves another man" said Surya with his chest up and down and his face flushed red.

I smothered my mouth and shook my head in disbelief at the solar mas's admission that I hurt her the first night. I myself do not remember what when Surya first snatched my crown. What's the name of the guy I called his name? because I myself am not close to any man but Raihan. But I don't think I could have mentioned Raihan's name.

"I don't care about Zain because he doesn't look like me. I know why she doesn't look like me because you're not sincere when I fuck you and I'm sure you're imagining making love to another guy right?" accuse me Surya. Again, I shook my head. Mas Surya accused me while I did not feel that way.

"And one more thing you should know and maybe this will make you pretentious Nuri," said Mas Surya and I looked at him seriously waiting for recognition what else Surya would tell me.

"I married you not empty-handed and not capitalized Nuri, but I married you with three hundred million dollars. Three hundred million is not a little money, right? If you don't believe me, just ask your mother and your sister Supra" she said. I was shocked and really surprised to hear it. Though when I married with mas Surya only in the form of a very simple party even for dowry was no more than five grams.

"I won't ask you for that money, Nuri, because I know you can't possibly have that kind of money. I just want you to serve me well and accept whatever money I give you without protesting."

I held my chest that felt so tight. My tears started to break. I did not expect my mother and first brother to treat me like a child and sister who had been sold for three hundred million.