Because, I Love You
Episode 162

This trip was a little stressful, it was the first time I drove alone with a little boy who had been sitting next to me full of joy and excitement. Gleefully singing and counting, occasionally mentioning the alphabet many times even though it is still a mess.

I got carried away, laughing cheerfully with the laughter of Rainbow who acted funny since then. Plong felt, for a moment I could forget all the problems I was facing right now. By staying focused on driving I sang and counted following the directions of the Rainbow.

I didn't feel like I had entered the city streets leading to my mother's house, after hours of travel. We stopped only when the rainbow felt like peeing and thirst.

Entering mom's yard, I pushed the car horn first. And not long after Aunt Asri opened the door of the mother's house which was then followed by the mother. They greeted me with a warm smile, I was about to go out first to open the door to the Rainbow but she had already come down first and ran to hug my mother.

"Omaaa, oma baiiik..." Call the Rainbow with a shout.

"Hallo... Upz, ow. Well, oma is no longer strong holding this great grandchild of oma." Welcome mother by hugging and kissing Rainbow many times. He seems to have trouble holding a rainbow.

"Mother.." Call me then and hug mom, kiss her two cheeks in turn.

"Welcome, miss, welcome little lady..." Sapa aunt Asri.

I smiled in response. Then my mother invited us inside.

"You must be very tired, Aunt Asri has prepared a room for you both."

"dee, oma. Later Rainbows want to sleep as good oma," Babe Rainbow with cute.

"Well, really.. Um, I'm glad to hear that."

"But Rainbow thirsty oma, Rainbow wants juice." Chirping again.

"Little lady, aunt has prepared everything that miss likes. Come with aunt here," said Aunt Asri. The rainbow responded cheerfully.

"Mother, Fanny was very tired and felt a little nauseous. The head feels dizzy, Fanny wants to lay down the body for a while." I said to my mother.

"Eh, good son. At dinner, mom will wake you up."

I nodded then headed straight to the room that I had prepared. The room that I always use when I am at my mother's house at any time.

I used to clean up all my gear with rainbows. I felt like I was really crumbling all over my body.

I lay down for a moment, unwinded during the journey here. My mind was empty, slowly my eyes began to sleepy and I fell asleep.

A moment later I felt that if my sleep was so short, I was struck by the sound of knocking on the door and the sound of my mother calling me repeatedly. Makes me wake up with the condition of the head still feels heavy and dizzy.

I got the clock lyrics on my wrist, showing at 7 p.m. I was surprised and then walked towards the door. To open it because mom's voice is still heard calling me.

"Yes mother, sorry Fanny overslept." Answer me with half my eyes closed.

"It's dinner time, son, let's eat first. After that you continue to rest."

"Hemm, okay. I'll get out soon, I'll clean up first mother." Answer me in a soft voice.

With a giant step I headed to the bathroom to clean myself first, to get back to make my body refreshed.

After that, I thought it would be fresh and feel comfortable again after taking a shower. But no, just my whole body feels more and more limp. I'm getting a little fever, ah.. I hate the conditions that make me sick. I hate taking medicine, I have to be strong, I murmured in my heart.

Then I went out of the room even though my two footsteps felt shivering and trembling as I stepped out one after another. Until I arrived at the dinner table, I smelled the scent of mother's cooking that I had long missed.

"Hm... I've long since missed this distinctive scent." I said while sniffing my nose.

"Eat a lot Miss, this is all the cooking mom. He deliberately cooked this much for you and little lady."

"Thank you Bi, you are also always loyal and alert to keep mom away from me."

"This is aunt non's job. Well, enjoy dinner, aunt to the kitchen first to continue the work."

"Bi, don't eat this?" Ask me again.

"Still full non, later." Answer with a warm smile.

"Ehm, fine." said I responded and then put a serving of rice in addition to some meat and vegetables cooked as delicious as possible by the mother.

"Son, eat slowly. Later your digestion is disturbed Fanny," said my mother when I eat so greedy.

"Fanny's hungry for a mother." I answered briefly and continued to eat my dinner.

"Ma, let's have a dinner race." Suddenly the rainbow said the thing that made my mother laugh amusedly.

"Come, who's afraid."

"Can't cheat Ma" replied the Rainbow threateningly. I continue to eat my food non-stop as well as the Rainbow. We really look like we're starving.

After being satisfied and feeling full I took a glass of water. While Pelangi is still fun to eat her dinner accompanied by my mother who has finished her dinner first.

"Fieuht... Lovely." I took a deep breath because my stomach was so thick.

Then I left first from the dining table, I intend to go to the front porch of the house. I sat on a chair that was available from the beginning on the front porch of my mother's house. Tonight the sky was so bright with a clear moonlight that it illuminated the entire front yard of the mother's house.

I sat up and put my head up, I closed my eyes for a moment. For some reason I suddenly started to tear up my cheeks. I remember the first time I met Irgy. I remember the good times we both had, no matter how tough our exams were. I still believe in him as the husband I admire the most.

Ah, there was a slight feeling of longing for her flutter to come enveloping. But I hate it, I hate this disappointment. My thoughts continued to drift far into every shadow of our early good times knowing each other and falling in love. It was as if my mind was now taking a walk through the good times of our relationship.

If only you'd open up to me first about your past with that woman, Irgy. I won't be this disappointed... Am I wrong to take a moment to calm down? Wishing we both self-introspection, fix every problem we have today.

"Son, aren't you sleepy yet?" Ask the mother who then occupied the empty seat next to me.

"Ah, mother. Um, it was sleepy. Until your tears keep flowing, hehe." Answer me by pretending.

"Sleep, it's night. The rainbow was asleep, he looked so exhausted."

"Hem, you go to bed first. I still want to be here, Mother,"

"Alright, don't stay out for long. The night air is not good for your health, son," replied the mother as she was about to re-enter the room.

"Bun, mother..." Call me with doubt. Mother turned her head and I lowered my face as she looked at me who seemed to be luring me to start talking first.

"Was.. Mommy doesn't want to ask me why I'm suddenly coming back here, Bund?" Say me again.

She smiled at me and sat back in the chair.

"Son, can you still advise you like you were a teenager?"

I looked down and my tears dripped one by one from my eyes.

"Fanny, did you hear Mother Son?"

I just nodded without daring to look back at my mother's face.

"Son, listen to me. Right now, you're married. You've become a mother anyway, you don't know what the problem is between you right now. But son, you shouldn't have left the house in an emotional state and without your husband's permission, Irgy."

Degh !!!

Where do you know if I go without your husband's permission, and I'm so emotional.. Maybe Irgy called mom first?

"Was.. Irgy told you before I got here? Huh yeah?"

"Yes, your husband was so panicked and worried on the phone earlier. But she forbade you from telling you, she allowed you to defuse your anger here until you completely calmed down and forgave Irgy, accepting Irgy back the way she used to."

I had expected it, auntie must have immediately notified Irgy of my departure earlier.

"Mother, is Fanny wrong like this?"

I began to cry out in my tears.

"Son, since marriage. You are no longer the responsibility of the mother. You belong entirely to your husband Irgy, no matter how big your problems. Finish well, son, don't drag on the rainbow's pity emotions."

"Fanny fears you, Fanny still harbors a huge trauma from every relationship in Fanny's past. To be honest, Fanny loves Irgy too much. So Fanny's afraid someone might take her from Fanny's life."

"Mother understands that, but the past is not something you should be afraid of. Don't always equate every single thing that happens to you right now doesn't mean you fall back in the same hole, do you?"

"But Fanny is disappointed with Irgy's mother, she is never honest, she never allows Fanny to enter her past first. Fanny hates that,"

"Is Irgy tempted by the woman's temptation?" Mother's question made me flinch.

"How did you know we had a fight over a woman in the past?"

My mother smiled at my question.

"You forgot? If your mother had been born into this world. Every problem in a relationship is not always the same. But we must remain alert, never weak. Make every problem and test in your household a bond so that you are more harmonious in the household."

"I'm sorry Fanny mom, if this time Fanny is too selfish and wrong."

"No son, mother doesn't blame you for this. Every woman will probably behave the same when it comes to feelings of jealousy, anger, or disappointment."

"Fanny loves Irgy Mother very much, loves her very much. Does your mother believe that?"

"Hahahaha, if you don't love her so much you won't run away to this house. Aren't you?"

"Aaah, mother. Don't tease Fanny, I know you'll definitely protect and defend Irgy." Answer me with a manyun lip.

"Fanny, Fanny... You are destined to be a fool and will always be together until the end of your life. So why would you worry if Irgy would turn away?"

"Then what should Fanny do at this time mother? Honestly, this disappointment still burns Fanny's heart and mind."

"Pease your heart, son, you are still enveloped by momentary emotions. Mother has asked Irgy for permission, to let you calm your mind while here. Irgy is busy with her office. After everything goes back to normal, Irgy will pick you up here. After all, you still miss Rainbow your only granddaughter a lot."

"But mother... Fanny still doesn't want to meet Irgy, Fanny doesn't want to communicate with her."

"When is my son?"

I shook my head at this short question. Because I also do not know when my heart will calm down and ease this disappointment...

"Now, don't think anything strange. Sometimes, in married life, we often feel bored or bored with the attitude and treatment of our partner. We just need to stay away for a moment to understand each other and fix ourselves from the triggers of each problem itself."

"I understand mother."

"Relationship in the household without problems, sometimes also the cause of the breakdown of the relationship itself son, do you want to know that?" Ask my mother back.

Again and again I shook my head to answer.

"Therefore, learn from now on from the problems you face today..."