Because, I Love You
Episode 163

Almost all night for me to be alone on the front porch of the house, trying to examine what my mother has said through her advice and thoughts. Well, I'm a woman.

For all I know, women are a place where the weak and selfish hit. In this world, not all women will be weak and reckless in their behavior.

Unfortunately, I am not one of those women of choice. The past does not need to be remembered anymore and we make shadows to prevent us from looking at the future. But it's different, I have a big reason that I can't handle anymore.

I admit, I'm stupid. From the beginning I knew the love that I had considered true and the last I had, I was betrayed by the third person. And it really hurt me, and when I came back to know what love is, what it is, to believe, again I had to let it go because I love it so much anyway.

How many times have I failed to hold on to my love, and I have always lost to the third person. Is this fair? Sure didn't. I always felt God was playing tricks on me. Until finally I was met with a male figure who has now become a husband and father of my son.

The man I saw differently, the man who never spoke much, never spouted words of love, never tried to touch me forcefully. Then he suddenly asked me to be his wife, how do I not feel the luckiest woman? When he accepted me with all my bad in the past.

Although many times I asked him to say and tell me about him in the past, he always refused and firmly spoke ONLY I AM the first woman he loves and only I have managed to change the rigidity of his heart about love.

And since the night of the reunion party, who expected it.. Behind the harmony and romance of Irgy against me all this time just collapsed after the presence of Hana that I just knew was part of Irgy's past.

Hah, it's been. I don't know what else to do, it's only been a day. But I miss him so much, so much to hear his voice. But still, I hate him.

This morning I was so lazy to get out of bed, my head was so heavy. It felt like many stars were circling around my head. All over my body felt very weak, my throat felt dry for a moment. I grabbed a glass of water on the table and gulped it down. Ah, it tastes so bitter. I don't know why so suddenly.

I tried to walk towards the door of the room with a slight stagger. I saw that mother was already busy helping Aunt Asri in the kitchen when my steps arrived at the dining table. I see Rainbow is also busy playing and occasionally issue a lot of questions by pointing to various vegetables and fruits as well as other side dishes.

"Can I help you?" Ask them to say hello. Then my mother looked towards me.

"Let's go, help mama cut this vegetable." My mother answered me with a smile.

And when I approached him, I suddenly felt like devouring a lemon. Mom quickly brushed off my hand that was about to suck it after I managed to split it into pieces.

"Breakfast first, or at least drink warm milk. Later your stomach acid relapses, Irgy will be angry at you." Answer her in a firm tone.

H**you know, my saliva is almost falling. I'd love to suck that lemon...

"Mother, this looks very fresh in the throat. Today Fanny's a little unwell, so I beg you a little I want to taste this lemon."

Then she looked at me and put the back of her hand on my forehead.

"Hmmm... You told me you'd have a fever if you were in the air for too long at night. Just sit down first, I'll make you some warm ginger milk." Answer mom while continuing to nag non-stop.

I was supposed to sit on the dining table chair, a few minutes later mom had brought me a glass of warm ginger milk. I took a sip, but somehow it felt disgusting. I didn't like the fishy smell of this milk until I spewed it out in front of my mother.

"Fanny, my God. You okay, son?"

"Mother, I don't like the smell of this milk. Very fishy, this is disgusting." Answer me while closing my nose and then feel nausea again want to vomit.

"Mother, Fanny is just exhausted and needs more rest. It'll be better, too,"

"Don't argue, are you still afraid of taking drugs? Don't embarrass you in front of the rainbow." My mother answered again, nagging me.

"Ma, mama why? Mama's sick? Here Rainbow check ma." Rainbow quickly ran to the room and returned with a stethoscope toy hanging around his neck. I laughed for a moment at my daughter's response.

"Ah, mama fever. I had to go to the hospital to get medicine. Come on ma," said Rainbow eloquently.

"Come on, kid, we're going to the doctor. Before you really get sick later, you don't want to make Irgy think any more."

I think this time, because I really feel the need to see a doctor this time. My body feels weak, my head is very dizzy. My stomach has always been feeling great since yesterday. Ah, I hope I don't have to swallow much medicine later.

I still forced myself to drive a car to get to a nearby clinic faster. For a moment I thought what if I had another illness? My stomach has been cramping since yesterday. Then I and my mother and Rainbow entered the room of a young female doctor. She smiled kindly to greet me, and immediately told me to lie down for an examination.

I noticed that he smiled to himself and occasionally glanced at me, making me feel awkward. What is he thinking right now? Why is it that I look at you like that?

After I finished checking, I got up and sat down in front of him.

"Doctor, is my mom sick?" Rainbow asked ahead of me to ask.

"Your mama doesn't hurt baby, your mama and your sister who's in the stomach just need to rest more and avoid excessive stress."

"Thank God Doc, if I'm okay. Uh, wait for the doctor. You, you said sister's in my belly?"

My soul was shocked at the doctor's words at this time. Likewise with my mother, she looked confused but immediately changed her expression and happy.

"No way doc, must be wrong. How could I have been pregnant, I hadn't noticed all this time."

"Ehm, when was the last time you found your period mom?"

"I.. I forgot doc, but this.. This must be wrong." Answer me with trembling, mixed. Between being happy and not believing.

"Let's just try USG. In the next room, let's."

With my knowledge, I obeyed the doctor's instructions followed by my mother. My heart trembled more and more, I did not believe this was God...

And it's true. After doing the ultrasound examination, it was the doctor's turn to be aghast.

"Again safe mom, there are two fetuses in your uterine sac. And it's already into the third month, congratulations."