Because, I Love You
#BILYS3 195

I felt ashamed when I finally had to tell all the things that made the Rainbow that Kevin knew so jolly and cheerful now a cold figure. It was a bit of a wonder for Kevin, and with all my strength I told it to Kevin and Nia. It was as if they did not sigh at all listening to me speak, then Nia hugged me who was crying.

Even though I have remembered all of them, I still can't believe that Ammar can still live a decent life in this world. Why God is still letting her live, I've tried to forget all about her for the sake of the whole of my household, for the common good. But seeing Fanny get hurt like this, ah.. It was as if I felt old wounds again.

"Eh, may I try to talk to my little elf?" Said Kevin then, he immediately wiped away the tears that fell down his cheeks. His breathing was so deep, he seemed to be clenching both of his hands silently trembling.

"Kevin, i.. Um, I think it's too burdening for you."

"Irgy, since birth I have considered Rainbow as my daughter. Until now, I've even missed him from year to year counting his age to the present." Kevin replied firmly and then looked at me. There was a feeling of relief and a little claustrophobic seeing him so caring.

"Fanny, let me and Kevin get closer to the rainbow. I'd like to think of her as my daughter, too, or if it were possible whatever the Rainbow wanted we'd fulfill it."

"More.. You,"

"Sstt... We're family, aren't we?" Said Nia while touching my cheek with her warm palm.

I hugged her then, I was so happy that a Nia who used to hate me so much but now she's really changed. Full of tenderness and motherhood, I was a little relieved. I can let Kevin fully live with a kind-hearted woman like Nia.

Moments later, after dinner Nia and Kevin were playing with my twin sons. While Irgy was out of nowhere, I intended to help aunt Aisten in the kitchen. I intend to bring some snacks for Nia and Kevin who are engrossed in the playroom.

"Oh, how exciting are you when you're playing."

"Hahaha, yes ma. Om and aunty play games too, Rafa and Rafi love to play with them." Answer them with a cheerful laugh.

"Ehm, Fanny. Where's Rainbow? Since dinner was over he just disappeared."

"hem, yeah.. I see, your little elf is always alone in the rooftop after dinner. Sometimes he also goes straight to the room to be alone and always gets angry if we force him to talk to him."

Instantly Kevin stood up, after hearing my words.

"eh Vin. Where are you going?" Ask me after she leaves from before me.

"I'll talk to my daughter, let me Fanny."

"But Vin, this is not the right time. I don't want Rainbow to be mad at you later."

Kevin kept walking ignoring my words. And Nia's holding me back to stop Kevin.

"Fanny," Call Nia gently and then shake her head at me.

"Do you doubt my husband you knew first?"

"Nia, I just..."

"Srsttt... Trust me, I've never seen my husband win someone's heart, and you know that, too, right?"

I fell silent then nodded slowly at Nia.

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In the roof courtyard, Rainbow was sitting casually on the sofa with his body slightly stretched out staring at the night sky. Kevin smiled from a distance and slowly walked up to him.

"Hah, the night sky is always able to be a sedative for the heart that wants to avoid noise".

Kevin's words surprised Rainbow until he moved to fix his position earlier.

"D, Eh.. Om, um.. Will you relax here? Then I'll go to the room." Rainbow with a little clumsy.

"May I ask you to accompany me here, just for a moment."

"But om, I..."

The rainbow was silent for a moment. Then he turned his gaze around as if he wanted to find a way to immediately be able to return to his room.

"You are a child who has been waiting for his presence by your parents, many sacrifices made by your mother Fanny all this time, son. His past life has been so painful for him. Maybe you don't understand, but I'm sure you still have the heart to listen to this."

"Om, i.. I'll go to the room first."

"Because om is also part of your mama's past son,"

The rainbow flinched and turned towards Kevin with a sharp look.

"It hurts so much to be separated from the person we like, do you believe how we split up?"

The rainbow fell silent with its lips trembling, and Kevin gently and carefully told all of it to the Rainbow. But he still tries to hold back and save all the embarrassing things that have happened to Fanny in the past. He didn't want Rainbow to follow in his mama's footsteps in the past.

And Kevin did not expect if all the words he said since earlier made Rainbow cry sobbing until his breath gasping. Kevin grabs her in his arms, tightly hugging the little girl he regards as his own daughter. Kevin closed his eyes while kissing the Rainbow head, he seemed to be in the time of young Fanny at that time, while with him.

"Om, I'm always afraid of goodbye. I felt like I was rediscovering a friend who could understand me after meeting Lucky, after I had to separate from Tama's sister. I always felt alone, um,"

"Sat... You were never my own little fairy, many loved you. And from now on, you'll never feel alone again. There's an om you've always called good uncle since childhood."

"But om, how can om still be good friends with mama to date?"

"Loving someone who is real is to make and see them as. It is not selfish to make us greedy just for loving him. That's the reason, until this moment. Only by staying friends like brothers will we still feel that love is fair, do you understand?"

"I'm confused om, I don't know what to say."

"Don't say anything, son. You'll slowly understand when you grow up and start falling in love." Kevin answered by continuing to hold the rainbow in his arms.

"Om, does this mean... someday I can still be good friends with Lucky om? Although, we may not meet again." The rainbow came back sobbing in tears.

"Start from within your own heart, open your heart to start all over before you know Lucky. Learn to control your heart from the beat, you are a source of happiness for your mama Fanny. When you grow up, if you're ready for everything. Let your heart decide."

"I'll try it om, I'm sorry..."

"Why are you apologizing son, you're not wrong. You just don't understand it yet and it takes a long time to understand it, and now you're about to turn 17. Age mature enough to start a new life and story."

"Om is awesome."

"Currently, have you started to admire me back?"

"Oh, GR. No, just ordinary."

"Hm... Tell me, did you have a boyfriend at school?"

"Ih, what the hell is om. Kagak, who expressed his feelings anyway a lot of om. But I refused it, I couldn't open my heart to them."

"Well, don't tell me this little elf om only likes the same sex."

"Oh, om. Bad, not dong. Rainbows also have their own criteria of men who have not encountered rainbows to date. Therefore the rainbow is still single, tauk."

"Oh, really.. Is the criteria guy like om? Handsome, smart, funny, mature, and dashing."

"Oh, No. Om too old, hihihi."

They joke around with each other, and in just a moment Kevin is able to make Rainbow cheerful and talk a lot again. A carefree laugh joked with Kevin who continued to prank on him.

And you know, my heart just wanted to explode. I gasped for breath holding back my cries that silently looked at them behind the door leading to the courtyard.

Thanks Kevin... Thanksmeme it... And thank you for all your love for me that is still faithful you kept until this very moment, and you vent all your feelings to love my children. Especially Rainbow, your little elf.