Being Married to My First Love
Visit Abi's house
From the afternoon after the lesson Cindy looked moody and did not say much. Dimas felt something was different from his wife when he returned from the clinic.
"Umma, see Qila's picture?" Qila thrust her picture book in front of Cindy.
Cindy is not seen answering Qila's questions, her gaze ahead of the television but her mind is somewhere.
"Ummas...Umma...!" call Qila over and over again but Cindy is still silent.
Dimas who witnessed that then crouched down in front of Cindy. Squeezed his wife's nose until he stuttered when he realized from his daydream.
"Emhh..mas Dimas! Why the hell is my nose pincers, sick tauu...!" cindy said as she held her nose.
"Hhahhahahaa.., Umma bengong anyway, in the claw of his nose is the same Papa!" Qila laughed at Cindy's cuteness.
Dimas then tos with Qila. Cindy was embarrassed to be caught daydreaming by Qila and her husband.
"Mas Dimas is home?" ask Cindy to switch the conversation.
"Well, what time is it?" Dimas covered Cindy's cheeks with both hands then directed her towards the direction the wall clock was located.
"Hahh.pada is nine!" Cindy rubbed her eyes with both fingers. However, it is true that the clock on the wall shows the number nine.
"You're exhausted? Get some sleep, let Qila I stay until she falls asleep!" tell Dimas attention.
"I'm sorry, Mom?" Cindy felt guilty because until late had not invited Qila to sleep.
"It's okay!" Dimas turned to Qila, "Darling let's Papa read a fairy tale in the room!"
Qila nodded then tidied the books and colored pencils into her bag, and Cindy helped her. Cindy thanked Dimas as if she understood his current state if he was tired of heart. Even though she did not reveal her grief to her husband.
"Umma, Qila bobo first huh. Good nights!" Qila embraces Cindy's neck then kisses Cindy's right cheek and left cheek.
Cindy replies by kissing Qila's forehead, as is her usual routine while driving Qila to sleep, "Good night, dear. Before going to bed, don't forget to pray!" Cindy reminded.
Dimas stood up and took Qila to his room.
Cindy took the television remote and pressed the power off button and went to her room.
Arriving at her room, she kept her instant hijab on the bench in front of the dressing table. Then he washed his face and took ablution.
After cleaning himself, he went up to the bed and put on a blanket to cover part of his body.
He recited the do'a before going to bed and three short letters, then tried to close his eyes. However, after a moment of closing his eyes he still remained awake. His mind was still wandering everywhere.
Ummi Aini's words affected his brain. Like he kept ringing in his ears. Scratch a wound on his chest. It's so terribly painful.
Without tears slipping from her eyelids.
'Oh Allah, am I really destined to marry Dimas because I will not be able to get pregnant and have children from my own womb?' cindy murmured in the heart.
Klekka.
The door opened, looking out from behind the door. Dimas walked closer towards the bed. Then lay down next to Cindy. Cindy hurriedly rubbed her eyes and hid her face. Lucky by then he had turned off the room lights and replaced it with a sleeping lamp so that the light was only from the dim light.
"Why not sleep?" ask Dimas.
"Don't know, Mom. I've been trying to close my eyes since, but still can't sleep" Cindy said.
"There's no problem, Mom. I just feel tired" Cindy said.
Dimas felt something was covered up by Cindy. However, he will not force if Cindy does not want to tell a story. Maybe Cindy needs time to be fully confident to share her grievances with Dimas. He will try to give Cindy time to be more mature to deal with the problem.
"Come on to bed!" Dimas pulled Cindy to sleep in his arms.
Cindy slowly felt comfortable, then fell asleep in her husband's arms.
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In the middle of his sleep Dimas woke up and did not find Cindy who was sleeping next to him. The wall clock shows at 03:00 in the morning.
Dimas then goes out to find Cindy. There was the sound of the sound of female cries from the direction of the mushola. Dimas sneaked a peek from the door. Apparently his wife was sitting on a prayer mat while raising her hands up as if she was praying. However, all that sounded was just a soft sobbing of his lips. Maybe Cindy muttered in her heart to pour out her sorrow on the Almighty.
Dimas's guess could be true, it looks like Cindy is indeed facing a problem. However, his wife could not tell him. Dimas guessed, maybe something happened to Cindy when she was teaching this afternoon. Cindy was okay before. And since coming home he always looks moody.
Usually a child will be closer to his mother. Poor as well as his wife for more than a month married, Dimas has never invited Cindy home. Although occasionally still meet at the place of teaching will certainly feel different when he can go home.
'I'd better take him home tomorrow, Abi, hopefully he can be better when I meet Ummi!' inner Dimas.
Dimas then returned to his room and performed tahajud prayers in his room so as not to disturb Cindy.
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The next day is Sunday. Cindy is getting ready to pack her clothes, Qila clothes and Dimas clothes. Because Dimas said he would take her somewhere and stay there. However, Dimas did not say his true purpose. Finally, work clothes to wear on Monday were also brought and also Qila school uniforms to wear on Monday.
"Are you ready, not yet? Let's go!" bring Dimas.
"It's over, Mom. Where the hell are you going, Mom?" ask Cindy curious while carrying a suitcase containing her clothes, Dimas and Qila clothes into one.
"You will know!" dimas said, "Mom, we go first!" Dimas said goodbye to his mother.
Dimas had previously said his goal was to go to his mother if he wanted to visit her Abinya Cindy's house. Of course that's what he said when Cindy didn't know because she was in the room while getting ready.
Twenty-five minutes drive at last they were almost at Abi's house.
"Lhohh, did Dimas want to go to my house? Why not say it?" cindy asked as she was surprised to see the road leading to her house.
"Now it is not your home, but Abi and Ummi's. Later if you get the inheritance of this house from Abi, then you can call it your home," said Dimas teasing his wife.
"Isshh, Dimas is starting to deh ngeselin!" cindy said then immediately got out of the car because they were already in the yard of Abi's house.
Once inside the house they were immediately welcomed by Abi, Ummi and his sister Umar. Today fits perfectly with the schedule of Umar's return from the pesantren. After a while chatting with Cindy's parents, Dimas asked Abi and Ummi for permission to take Umar for a short walk to the stall.
"Ummi, nitip Cindy for a moment yes I want to take a walk Umar and Qila first for a while to find ice cream. Please take Cindy to talk, it seems like something has been bothering her mind since the moment she came home from teaching. However, he did not want to share his story with me" Dimas told Ummi while ummi was in the kitchen and Cindy was in the living room with the others.
"She's Dimas, be careful!" ummi.
"Cin, ask Ummi to help you in the back. I took Qila and Umar to find snacks first to the front shop," Dimas reasoned. Cindy nodded.
Dimas drove by in his car with Qila and Umar. While Cindy went to the kitchen to meet her umminya.
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