Being Married to My First Love
Season2. Similar Habits
POVS. Lala
Like the silhouette of twilight in the afternoon, I feel your presence so impressive, giving color with a beautiful stroke. But only for a moment and then left, disappeared into the night. Could it be that your presence is just to make me feel disappointed and hurt. You just left without a word….
I typed a few words on the screen and momentarily deleted them. I tried to start again and again remove it. So many times that I feel tired. Not my body but my heart. Feeling bad with my new heart this first time. Is this how it feels in ghosting?
At first I felt comfortable with someone's attention, felt perceived and needed. But only for a moment and then it was gone. All forms of attention are mistargeted, not for myself but for others. Was that misunderstanding my fault entirely? You just guessed without ever asking.
Then can't you think that Laluna is Laluna who sincerely brings comfort to you. Without needing you to know who Laluna is in real.
Why should you come at that time, if you'll just come and then go. Even I love you sincerely as my best friend.
And now you've shut down all access and won't be friends with me anymore, just because Laluna's not who you want to be. And with all your heart you deserve to ignore me. If so, why don't you just take my heart wound with you, so that your tracks won't run through my mind.
I open the usual reading application platform, apparently there is a private chat from Zakira. My best friend in the world. Then I opened it.
"Wow .. lots of chat!" pekikku when he saw a series of messages that contained curhatan from him.
"Huhh .. Why do I think about it so much that I've ignored me, that I almost ignored a friend who really cared about me!"
For a moment my heart was comforted by a message with Zakira. Until late at night, Zakira said she wanted to end our conversation because it was time to rest. Then what about me? I felt the silence and alone again.
At a time like this, I remember it. How heartache this is, until one chapter that I want to inculcate into a story, still stuck in 300 words. I'm having a thing called writer block. So that the framework of the essay that has been neatly arranged since this morning evaporated just like a pencil stroke that was wiped out.
The clock on the wall shows 01:30. I was surprised when I saw him, why so soon? it's early morning and I haven't produced anything.
I finally got up from my seat and went to the bathroom next to the kitchen. Immediately I took the water for ablution, and was about to go back into the room. I set up the prayer in one third of the night.
I feel that there is comfort in my heart when I recite the Do'a to the Almighty, my heart becomes calmer and lighter. Then I lay down to rest first. When we do something, we must do it with a happy heart. And give the result to God. There is no success without earnest effort. And, imposing the will when the mind is in a state of mind will only waste time in vain.
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When the dawn of Adhan reverberated Reyna slowly opened her eyes and circled the place where she was when she woke up.
"Astaghfirullahal'adhim!" reyna exclaimed as she covered her mouth with both hands when surprised to realize that she was in the same bed as Abiyu.
Wasn't I sitting on the back of the bed last night? did Abi's brother fix my position?! inner Reyna wondered.
However, when he looked to the side he found an unusual sight. The two men beside him were sleeping face to face, even in the same sleeping pose. Reyna was amazed.
If only you were there, By! he said in his heart as he looked towards Abiyu and Reynand who were asleep with his son.
Reyna rubbed her face with both hands. He then stood up and headed to the bathroom to clean up and take ablution.
"Wait, Reyn?" abiyu said with a heavy voice typical of waking up. I was about to go into the bathroom but was delayed.
"Huh ... What is Kak?" Reyna asked Abiyu a question that was not very clear on hearing.
"Wait, we pray together!" abiyu said then continued his steps towards the bathroom.
Reyna waited while holding two prayer rugs. Similar things he often did when performing prayers together with Rangga. Shortly thereafter Abiyu returned with wet hair exposed to ablution water. The same thing Rangga did.
Reyna stared sadly as it constantly reminded Rangga. They are both different people and have very different characters.
After performing the prayer, Reyna again reflexively extended her hand forward and only realized her actions when Abiyu had already grasped her hand. Finally, due to the responsibility he continued to kiss the back of Abiyu's hand and quickly stood up to avoid meeting with the netra Abiyu who was in front of him.
Abiyu just smiled looking at Reyna's rapidly changing behavior. Between wanting to keep a distance with him and accidentally carrying out habits that are often done with his partner.
Reyna folded her face and found her son who was awake. While Abiyu who already knew what Reyna would do when Reynand woke up from his sleep, finally went out of the room without being asked.
After breakfast, Reyna and Abiyu drive Maya and Fely to the airport. Because Mother Maya will return to Jakarta that morning as well.
While alone, before separating mother Maya had told Reyna one thing.
"Reyn, the dignity of a wife is to preserve the honor of her husband. If you are facing a problem, do not drag on. Get it done by establishing good communication. Do not let the husband be tempted to snack outside. If the husband does so, there are two underlying factors. First because he was not satisfied with the service of the wife or the second wife who deliberately ignored his obligations until her husband turned away. Mommy hope your marriage is blessed by God. Mother go home first yes, take care of yourself!" said mother shortly before leaving.
"Em .. yes, Bun. Thanks for the advice!" reyna hugged her in-laws.
When he was on the plane, Fely revealed his anxiety. "Mother, I actually disagree if you're married to Reyna's sister, Bun!"
"Why, Fe?" ask mother Maya.
"It is clear that Reyna did not love Abi's brother Bun. I don't want my brother to suffer with his marriage!" he said with a frown.
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