Being Married to My First Love
Reminiscences

A woman with a tempestuous rage, rummaging through all the furniture in her room. Disposing of pillows, bolsters, and bed linen in any direction. The sleeping lamp he threw on the wall until the bulb on the inside broke. The makeup tools that were originally neatly arranged on the dressing table are now scattered on the floor. He spilled out all the resentment that was in his heart.

"Breng zek you, Jono. How dare you lie to me!"

"Who is behind you until you obey him more than I do!"

"I'll find you and chop you up if I find you! Aaaaarrhgh... !!" throw the bench to the wall until broken.

Braakkk.

"Why do you have to die! Why should you!" her cries broke out instantly, "I just want to ruin your happy marriage to that saintly pretender who has taken you away from me. Not to harm you and make you go away for ever!"

The woman continued to fumble out all the uneg-uneg that was in her heart.

"Hhhhaha... ! However, it is appropriate for you to have chosen him over me, Rangga! Just die, so between him and me, you won't be able to have you! Hhaha... !" said the woman muttered while laughing at herself in front of the mirror like a madman.

"Master, the non-Daughter is rampaging!" said a maid to her master.

"really? Has the disease recurred?" the man rushed to his son's room.

Arriving in front of the room, the middle-aged man stole a hear from behind the door of the room. He realized that his daughter had relapsed her illness. The only daughter he has suffers from a mental disorder. Her son suffered from posttraumatic stress due to sexual abuse and made him have to carry a child outside marriage due to rape when he was drunk by his own friend.

Since knowing she was pregnant, the Princess became stressed out not focusing on her career. Her dream of becoming a extinct model was already, she was kicked out of the agency that housed her. Product endorsement cooperation is revoked by the company. He became even more depressed when he saw the newspapers telling him what had happened to him. All eyes looked at him jal*ng and shook him. He said it was something he deserved.

He continues to hate Reyna, and thinks it all started with Reyna. If only Reyna wasn't Rangga's first love. Then Rangga will love her as his first girlfriend. If Reyna does not come to Hadi Jaya's family, then Rangga will marry her, and if that night he did not see Rangga and Reyna who were doing a romantic dinner then the Princess' heart would not be hot so bad thing happened to him. The more hatred in his heart made his soul shake.

Her parents brought the Princess to live abroad to live together as well as for treatment. The daughter underwent treatment at a psychiatrist to treat her psychiatric disorder. For months the Princess underwent treatment finally he improved and was willing to take care of her womb.

When I returned to Solo. It is unexpected that the Princess will return to see Rangga and Reyna. And it managed to ignite his emotions back and make him stress again. Coupled with the eve of labor that makes him have to realize his new status later is to become a mother without a husband due to pregnancy outside marriage.

A week ago, the Princess finally gave birth by caecar. After giving birth the baby was cared for by his mother and assisted by a baby sitter. The princess herself does not want to take care of the baby. Because every time he saw the baby he would think back to Ferdy.

The princess has never known about Ferdy since. The last time he saw Ferdy, when his father asked Ferdy to come see his father. The princess didn't know what her papa did to Ferdy afterwards. Since then the Princess has never seen him around her and the Princess is reluctant to see the man who ruined her life.

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In the afternoon, there was a funeral for Rangga. Reyna was only silent in front of her husband's body while occasionally wiping her tears that pooled in the eye, during the procession of incest.

There was no more shouting and roaring in front of the corpse, although at this time she was eager to shout loudly calling out her husband's name. But that's not possible. In Islam, we do not allow that.

He tried to be patient, resigned, and sincere, although it was still in his intention, because in reality he could not be patient, his emotions were still up and down. After he resigned but inwardly still wondering, why should it be this fast? And to mengikhlaskan, of course he will try to be sincere even though it is very difficult to do

While baby Reynand, while guarded by Mira and Gina while the takziah takes place.

"Mom, I didn't think so, Ma'am. Their soul mate is so short. It's really me, Ma'am. Look Reynand is very small, but he's lost his Papa! Especially for Reyna, I can't imagine how she feels right now. I could feel his silence at this moment, for it harbored a deep sadness! Hiks... hiks... !" Gina is also touched by what happened to Reyna.

"Lo don't lure dong Gin, I'm from earlier nahan-nahan also want to cry. Look at this kid who looks exactly like his dad. How not to make the keys continue anyway, same Papanya ntar the Reyna!? Huwaaaa....!" both are getting more and more into grief.

Right then, Reynand awoke from his sleep. The baby cried roaring in his bed. Mira swiftly carried him, but baby Reynand still cried despite being carried by Mira.

"Gin, Reynand has a fever, he's hot. Get Reyna!" Mira's orders.

Gina hurriedly exited the room towards the living room where Reyna was. Grandma and grandfather who saw from the middle room also panicked as Reynand was seen crying nonstop.

"Awhile, Pa. I saw Reynand first!" grandmother told her husband. Grandfather nodded sadly too. Her chest felt sore imagining Reyna's next life without Rangga.

"Reynand why? Let me carry it, Mir!"

"Ohh, Reynand has a fever? His hands hurt, huh, honey?" said grandma while swinging her great-granddaughter.

Reyna appeared behind the door and Gina followed behind her.

"Reynand, this is Mama, son. Calm down, my dear. Come on Mama!" said Reyna who just came, then took over.

"Please close the door, Gin. Let me fuck Reynand!"

Reyna took Reynand to sit on the sofa, then suckled her. Luckily the baby calmed down.

"Reyna, you should compress his hand that was immunized, so as not to swell. It was likely that she would come back fussy when she felt her hand hurt," Reyna nodded.

"Good, Grandma!" reyna answered briefly.

Grandma comes back out of Reyna's room, leaving Mira and Gina who are still loyal to her.

Not how long there was a noise outside the room. Gina and Mira looked at.

"Like there's a commotion outside huh, Ma'am?" Gina sharpened her hearing as well as Mira did the same.

"Yes, Gin. Let's look outside!" the two friends opened the door, then went outside the room, then closed it again.

It turns out that the commotion that occurred because grandfather had a heart attack when he watched Rangga's body was about to be buried. Grandpa was immediately rushed to a nearby hospital by Reza.

"What's Mir?" reyna asked when she saw her two friends back in the room.

Mira and Gina looked at him for a moment. There was no other choice they ended up telling what they knew.

"Your grandfather had a heart attack, Reyn!" said Mira.

"Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un! Kakeekk... !" peekik Reyna sobbing.

This is another temptation, God! inner Reyna's sad.

"Lo's patient, Reyn!" Mira and Gina stroke Reyna's back to calm down.

Life trials sometimes persist without us preventing them. But God is sure that we can overcome it if we are willing to be patient and rely on Him.

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As usual, when the baby is finished in immunization will be fussy because of fever. Likewise with Reynand who always cried if he was dropped from the sling. From afternoon Reyna took care of Reynand alone until she missed her meal. Windy is busy taking care of the relatives who came so as not to know if Reyna is having trouble taking care of the baby.

Pukil 21.30 WIB, finally relatives who came back home. Some are waiting for Grandpa at the hospital and Reyna lives with her baby and Windy is also Chaca. Ani disappeared like swallowed by the earth. No one knows where he went. After hearing of Rangga's death suddenly, grandma had not found her belongings at home. Luckily, Bejo and his wife helped clean the house from this afternoon until staying in the back pavilion.

Reyna put her sleeping baby on the bed. He then curled up in the corner of his room. His head bowed and rested on his bent legs. He sobbed in his tears feeling tired heart and physical as well. He realized from this moment until later, he would only be alone in this room with his son. Her husband is gone forever. There will be no more Rangga who will embrace him give a hug, kiss his forehead affectionately, give his shoulders his place leaning, give him warmth in his nights. Now all just memories.

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