Being Married to My First Love
Longs

Povs. Stifling

After morning prayers I decided to go back to sleep. Yesterday's activity was pretty intense. In the afternoon of Maghrib I just came home from the office. Then at seven o'clock drive Mami to Kak Windi's house. Mami sulks from the loneliness of living alone at home.

Flashback On, uh,,

"Mi, I just take you to Kak Windi's house how? Mami must miss Chaca." I asked

"You are yes, Ga. At least it could make Mami melt, obey your will."

"Yes, Mami agreed while staying at your sister's house."

"But not until one day you are not devoted to Mami just because of women" said Mami.

"Mommy is everything to Rangga. Where maybe Mami does not obey Rangga if Mami is right." I embrace Mami's body to calm down.

It's also the same with Mami. If only I could ask Reyna to stay in Solo. So that Mami is accompanying. In the past the reason Mami was so happy I was dating Princess was, because she often accompanied Mami when she played home.

Even when I wasn't around, the Princess often came and went alone with Mami and it's been going on for years. Either go out together or shop at the mall. That is what makes them so familiar, like a mother and daughter.

When I found out Mami asked Reyna to take the pregnancy pills I was in shock and emotion. I wonder why Mami did that. When Reyna said, maybe Mami needs time to accept her to be my wife. At that time I began to think that I was in Mami's position.

A mother must feel sad and disappointed if her daughter is left married by a lover she loves with another woman. That's why Mami hasn't been able to fully accept my marriage to Reyna.

Arriving at Sister's house, Chaca immediately ran over to us. I caught him and then I carried him. Mami looked very happy to see this granddaughter of hers. She kissed Chaca's cheeks many times. Then I dropped the boy off on the living room couch.

"Cha, take care of Oma well? I'm going to Cake Uyut's house!" I sat next to the boy and rubbed his head.

"Om, going to Kek uyut's house? There's aunty too?" the boy turned away from the television show that aired Upin and Ipin and turned to look at me questioningly.

"Yes dong there's aunty too." I swiped his cheeks gaunty. Apparently once met Reyna quite imprinted in the mind of this child. Yesterday time to Jakarta they were very attached.

"Chaca wants to come, Om..Chaca..!" the boy started whining.

"Om, something must be taken care of first, baby! Chaca will follow Mommy and Daddy, same Oma as well." I said.

"Now, the milk is drunk first, Cha!"

"When is the reception, Dek?" Windi's sister, who had just emerged from the kitchen, handed Chaca a glass of milk and joined her in sitting next to Chaca.

"Thursday ahead, brother. Papi said the building was a bit difficult because the time was tight, the schedule for the hotel rental for this week was full. Finally adjusted the empty date next Thursday." I replied.

"Why not just held in your Grandpa's house, Grandpa's yard is wide, why bother renting a hotel building." Mommy from the toilet is coming.

"But do not want to disturb Grandpa Mi's break, right if at home to prepare and clean up it takes time too. If at home there will be a lot of people passing by and guests coming, so Grandpa can not rest well." I stood up and will return home.

"That's it, too, Deck. Kasian Grandpa, if he can't rest, he's recovering from illness." Brother Windi is making a sound.

"Om, where are you going? Chaca's!" Chaca stood up and held my finger.

"So Om, I told you. Chaca's leaving tomorrow with Mommy." I crouched down in front of the boy, then I held both shoulders.

"No way, Chaca wants to meet aunty. Chaca wants to go to the same salon aunty, Om!" the boy began to whine around my shoulders tightly, afraid of being left behind.

"Duh, how is this, brother how to persuade him?" I turned to Brother Windi for help. Because this child if you already have the difficult will to persuade him, he wants to be obeyed. Brother Dion, Kak Windi's husband is very pampering his daughter.

"Take a nap to his room. Usually at this hour he's bobbed. Abis he angler you're leaving!" kak Windi's proposal to leave Chaca when she is already sound in her sleep.

"Chaca this is already malem, it's gone tomorrow huh..? Yuk, Om accompany the booby in the room!" persuade me gently, so that the child will recede.

"Yes, Om, can Chaca come tomorrow?" chaca slowly loosened her hand that was coiled around my neck.

"Yes, Chaca must have been invited to Grandpa Uyut's house with Mommy as well."

"Yuk, Om carry to the room!" I lifted up the body of this boy, his hands clutching my neck. It seems to be getting more contained. It's worth gaining weight from the last time he met, his cheeks looked more and more chubby.

"Mommy, Oma, Chaca is bobok first huh? Drug...!" his one hand was busty, his farewell to Windy's sister and Mami. Kak Dino is in his study.

"Drug, don't forget to pray before going to bed?"

"Good night, baby!" exclaims Kak Windi irrigating my steps up the stairs.

"Good night, Mommy!"

"Good night, Oma!" this kid is adorable. The presence of a child brings its own joy in the midst of the family. And I will not delay the presence of the little angel in my wife's womb, if God gives it now or later.

Arriving in the room I dropped Chaca on the bed. I lay my body beside him.

"Om, why wasn't aunty invited to stay here with us?" this boy tilted his body facing towards me.

"Because aunty wants to keep Kek Uyut and Nek Uyut there. Kan kasian, Grandpa and Grandma Uyut are very old must be guarded. Especially being sick." The boy seemed to be nodding his head.

"Later when it's big Chaca will also always take care of Mom n Dad!" good boy I rubbed his head.

"Of course dong dear. Chaca is a good boy." I said.

"Om, miss not the same aunty?" this kid's question makes me want to fly to Jakarta immediately or if I could teleport, I would teleport to Reyna's room right now.

"Of course miss dear, really miss even!" my answer.

"If aunt Puput misses not?" this time the question made me gasp. I wouldn't have expected Chaca to ask this either. Lucky it's just the two of us, what if we asked when we were three with Reyna.

For years dating the Princess, making her presence is common in the midst of this family. I admit there was a sense of loss, when I needed a friend to share, he was always there to listen. When I needed help, he was there to help. When I am sad, he is there to cheer.

But this longing is not like missing a lover, rather longing for togetherness with friends or sisters. Suppose he becomes my brother or my best friend maybe our relationship is better now. I don't want to be hostile to him. I want to see him happy with the man who loves him. Because she is a good woman.

I was the one who was guilty of him. Holding him to stay with me all this time, even though I did not feel the vibration of love when with him. Even though I tried so many times to love her, it felt like a pretense. My heart did not turn to him. But I was like a coward who did not dare to end it for fear of hurting his heart, in the end he was now really hurt.

"Emm. of course miss too dear. Kan aunty Princess is a good friend as well." I remember Chaca was also very attached to the Princess. They sometimes eat ice cream together in one big cup. Buying a doll together, the Princess can be a friend to him.

I don't want to spread hate on others. Do not for not dating him his relationship with my family close to him also cut off.

But for me the best thing right now is to keep a distance from him. Reaffirm the boundaries between us. It is not good for me to be close to him even as a friend. I should be able to keep Reyna's feelings as my wife and keep Princess's feelings from getting hurt. I hope he can move on soon and get the man who loves him.

After Chaca fell asleep I immediately rushed to go home. I have to prepare my departure for Jakarta. If I don't leave soon I'll be late and miss my flight.

Arriving at home I immediately took a suitcase, then headed to Doni's house. So he can take me to the airport.

"Don, let's hunt late!" I said I didn't want to be late.

At the airport, I immediately ran in. Luckily I still did not miss the plane because there was still fifteen minutes left after checking in and getting a boarding pass, then headed to the departure gate.

Sleeping on the plane for an hour is a relief. At least a little filling because it has rested for a while. Arriving in Jakarta, I ordered a taxi. Later if you have to wait for Papi or Mr. Bejo to pick you up.

When I arrived at Grandpa's yard, I was about to enter the house, but stopped for a moment because there was a Papi on the terrace.

"Assalamu'alaikum, Pi's. Not sleeping?" my many.

"Wa'alaikumsalam."

"Yet, why have you come? Shouldn't it be tomorrow?" search Papi.

"There's nothing at all, Pi. I just want to get to Jakarta soon." I said.

"Yes already, the hunt is in. You must be tired!" I nodded then towards Reyna's room.

When she entered the room, Reyna was asleep. I put down my suitcase and then rushed to the bathroom. After cleaning myself and changing clothes I immediately went up to the bed and lay down beside Reyna. I embraced my wife's body that I miss so much. Three days of not meeting frustrated me because of the distance that separates us. I kissed her face, she moved a little but was still closed.

When I took it close, apparently my movements made Reyna wake up. I really want my passion to be channeled tonight. Although very tired I do not want to leave the opportunity to combine love with him. Finally it was a long, thrilling night.

Off Flashback.

I woke up when I found the ringtone of a cell phone. I who initially was very reluctant to open my eyes finally moved when I saw Reyna's phone ringing on her dresser. By the time I got closer, the ringing had stopped. It was written on the screen, a missed call from Dipa.

"Who's Dipa?" muttered.

I opened the message. My selfish side wants to know. I read the previous message only sent the address of the shophouse maps at 7 p.m.

"Did they meet at the shop yesterday?" I'll ask later.

Suddenly the door opened, revealing Reyna from behind the door.

"Have you woken up, By?" he smiled and looked at me and approached me. I greeted him by clutching his waist.

"Have you had breakfast?" he nodded. I put the phone in front of him.

"There should be a phone call from Dipa, I haven't had time to pick up it has stopped ringing. Who's Dipa?" my many.

"Oh, that's my old friend, By. Kemaren met while at Aunt Shinta's boutique. Turns out he's Shinta's aunt's son." Reyna's first point is to be honest.

"Why send the shop address?" my many.

"Emm. yesterday he was just talking. In the past when I went to college, I had stolen a cell phone, at that time we became lost contact. Because I was overtime waiting for the arrival of goods, I asked him to come to the shophouse. We used to be friends, By. You're not angry, are you?" i doubt. I feel a little possessive of him.

"Did she ever have more feelings for you?" Reyna seemed a little surprised by my question. He was silent and did not answer.

"He likes you?" ask again.

"Emm.iya, I just found out yesterday. But nothing happened, By. Since long ago I only considered him a friend, and he also understood the position I am now married. I'll make sure he won't interfere with our relationship, By!" inexplicably.

"really? Lastas why did he call you this early?" Reyna loosened her embrace around my neck.

"I don't know, By." she replied softly.

"However I can make sure nothing will change, for me he will only be my best friend no more. And you're the only one in my heart, By!" said again.

I'm silent thinking about it. I'm jealous for sure. My wife is liked by other men. Reyna is still hard to guess. My instincts say she has never dated before we got married, Reyna is still very innocent, but lately there are only men who appear to like her.

"Okey, I trust you, Hana. But don't get too close to other men. You must set limits among men who have been close. You are now a wife. There should be no gap for other men to approach you!" i'm affirming. Reyna seemed to be looking at me.

"Are you jealous, By?" he cupped both of my cheeks with his hands.

I crumbled with his gaze. I slowly exhaled to be calmer.

"I will do my utmost to preserve my dignity as a wife, By. I make sure there are no other men, in my heart there is only one name that is Rangga. Please don't ever stop believing me, By. I love you!" I was so happy to hear his last words.

I pulled his waist until he stuck, then I kissed his lips briefly, I looked into his eyes. I feel like he's honest. I kissed her lips again and I l*******.