Being Married to My First Love
Bouquet

POVS. Cindy

Two months have passed since the abrogation of my sermons. I heard from Umar, he said yesterday Mas Fadhil has carried out a marriage contract at the pesantren mosque. And abi justifies it. Abi said, Ustadz Maulana told me that Fadhil is reluctant to do ta'aruf back in the near future. However, this time it was the women who came first to invite ta'aruf Fadhil, at the insistence of Ummi Aini, finally Fadhil obeyed.

I was relieved and happy to hear the news of the marriage. There was no envy or sadness in my heart. Instead, I am very grateful, meaning that Mas Fadhil is moving on from me and wants to rearrange his life.

Before I felt very guilty for making Mas Fadhil disappointed and hurt. I knew Mas Fadhil was serious with me at that time. But I have to keep doing it. I don't want to marry with the blessing of my parents. I hope Mas Fadhil is happy with his marriage now.

"Thank God, I'm so happy, Bi. Finally mas Fadhil got married too," I told abi.

"Cin, aren't you sad? Did you cancel that sermon because there was another man?" ask abi.

"Astaghfirullah, Abi. Cindy's not that bad, Bi. Cindy had a good reason why Cindy had to call it off, Bi," I said upsetly to Abi.

"Wantas because, what? You never told Abi and Ummi the truth" Abi asked.

"But Abi promised ya, wouldn't tell Ustadz Maulana or mas Fadhil?" I have to make sure that Abi keeps my reason so that it is not known to Fadhil.

"God willing, you make Abi more curious, Cin," said abi impatiently.

"Actually, it was because of the request of Ummi Aini, Bi," I said.

"Mister Aini?" abi asked in great surprise, "Why did Ma'am Aini ask you to cancel it?"

"Because Ummi Aini was worried that I would not be able to give him offspring, Bi. Mas Fadhil's brother until now has not been blessed momongan, Bi. And, Ummi was worried that it would happen to Cindy too. Ummi was worried that I would have fertility problems because I had cysts" I told abi.

"Astaghfirullah, why can Aini think narrowly like that. The soul and the offspring are the will of God. And why don't you tell this to Abi and Ummi, Cin?" abi looks very sad.

"I don't want Abi and Ummi to feel my sadness. And, I don't want to until Mas Fadhil knows my reason, Bi," I said.

"Astaghfirullah Cindy, you are patient, Nduk. Forgive Ummi and Abi for prejudging you yesterday. One day you will definitely get a much better replacement for the sadness you experienced yesterday!" ummi who heard directly left the dishwasher in the sink and switched to hug me.

"Yes, Ummi. Cindy has taken it. Allah did not predestine Cindy with Mas Fadhil to mate. But Cindy is sure, Cindy will find the best soul mate that God has written in farul mahfudz for Cindy," I said convincing ummi, "Cindy, go to work first, Ummi?"

I went from my seat and salim to ummi and abi.

"Yes, Cin. You be careful!" ummi's words accompanied my steps.

"Yes, Ummi. Assalamu'alaikum!"

"Wa'alaikumussalam!" ummi and abi's answers that I still hear.

I've been feeling well, so that in a week I'm no longer escorted by Abi to go to work. Last time control on dr.Anung SpOG. My uterus was declared fertile and clean, from a cyst. But it does not rule out the possibility that the cyst will one day grow back.

"Cindy, this is a good time for the condition of your uterus. If my advice is, immediately get married and do not delay to have a baby," said dr. Anung made me smile.

"Doctor could, I'll look for it first, Doc. The man who wants to marry me" I replied with a joke.

"There is no candidate yet, do I want to help you find? I have a friend who is looking for a soul mate too, Cin!" said dr. Anungs.

"Oh, the doctor joked! Just pray, Doc. Hopefully soon someone will propose to me," I said at the time.

I don't think I've reached my workplace. It was a cheerful morning because my burden seemed to have slipped away. I thought I wouldn't get married before Fadhil got married. And now that Fadhil is married, my shoulders feel light without burden.

I walked with a smile towards my workplace. Arriving in the special room employees I opened a locker that read my name in the middle. How surprised I was, when I opened the locker door and was about to put my bag in.

There's a bouquet of red roses in my locker. I hesitated a little to take it. Is there nothing wrong with being in a hurry. However, the bouquet was so interesting that I missed, wanting me to touch it. This bouquet of flowers is in my locker. Finally, after making sure that no one else but me was in the room, I slowly took the bouquet out of my locker.

When I let out the fragrant aroma of the flower also burst into my sense of smell. What a beautiful and beautiful bouquet of flowers. When I noticed the shape, there was a piece of paper hanging in it. I also took it out of curiosity to know the writing in it. There may be a recipient's name, so I can give it to the owner, if this is a stray bouquet of flowers. It could be my friend's on duty at the night shift. My guess!

I was very surprised when I read the writing on the paper. My left hand smothered my gaping mouth and my eyes were perfectly rounded after reading the writing.

'Will you marry me, Cindy? 💕

From: Dimas'

My heart seemed to stop beating and disbelief in the writing that was inside that piece of paper. My body feels cold hot.

'Is this really God?' in my heart I wondered.

"For Cindy!" greet Mbak Sari when entering the employee special room.

Immediately I put a piece of paper in my pocket.

"Ehh, mbak Sari. Morning too, ma'am!" my word.

"What's wrong with you, Cin? Healthy right?" ask Sari while approaching me. He touched my forehead, cheeks and hands.

"What the hell, Ma'am. I'm fine, Ma'am!" I said while away from him.

"Your cheeks are flushed, keep your body temperature warm and your hands very cold. Don't you wanna catch a cold, Cin?" said mbak Sari who immediately made me feel funny.

'Is that really the expression on my face? Fortunately, it was only through writing. What if dr. Dimas who was in front of me right now and said those words directly to me? Maybe I'll just stumble on the spot!' my mind when I thought about it while smiling.

"Cin, Cindy...!" I gasped at the screams of Mbak Sari near my ear so that it spread my daydream.

"Ehh.ii-yes, Ma'am. It hurts, Mommy!" I frowned while rubbing my hot ears because of Sari's scream.

"Having been spoken to instead, daydreaming. It was a smile on its own. Ntar kesambet just know the taste!" mbak Sari.

Tok tok!

The knock on the door made me turn to the door that was still wide open since the arrival of Mbak Sari.

Deg.

I was very surprised, and my body suddenly stiffened. My heart feels like it's going to fall out. I could even hear the sound of my heart beating so fast. I immediately looked down as he looked at me. I bit my lower lip and squeezed the end of my shirt. I don't know, maybe my face is like a boiled crab.

"What can you do for me, Doc?" ask mbak Sari.

"Oh yes, Sari, please contact another doctor who can replace my practice schedule later tonight, because later tonight I have business" said Dr. Dimas.

"Okay, Doctor!" mbak Sari.

"Cindy...!"

The call of dr. Dimas who inevitably made me have to look up to him.

"Emm..., i-iiya, Doc!" I said nervously and then looked down.

"Don't think too much. I'm not going to ask for an answer right now" he said.

I glanced at him for a moment, then nodded in agreement. My body felt weak at that moment. I hope dr. Dimas immediately left so I could breathe well.

"Yes, Sari, please tell me, the doctor who can replace my practice schedule, huh? Excuse me, happy work!" said dr. Dimas then left the room.

"Okay, Doc!" mbak Sari still had time to answer.

I immediately sighed to my breath that had been restrained since, "Hhhhuuuuh...!"

"Ehh...Cin, what did dr. Dimas mean?" ask mbak Sari.

"Huhh, emm.nothing, Ma'am!" have Cindy.

"What answer did Dr. Dimas ask? What may be..," Mbak Sari began to think hard.

"Regular, Ma. I was asked to teach Qila to learn!" my words cut his conjecture. Don't let Sari think of me and Dr. Dimas.

"Ohhh.I pikiiir..," said mbak sari that I quickly cut.

"Let's go to work, Ma'am!" I said while leaving the room leaving Mbak Sari.

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