Hope and Wish
R&W19. Running out of gasoline

Nothing I like, my days are full of emotions the past three months. In order to protect Galen from my emotions, I had bang Zio deliver Galen to my father only. Let Biyung take care of his grandson, who I often scold without clear fault.

Anyway, I feel like Galen's been fussy ever since Cirebon came back. 

"Eat, Ra." Sister-in-law showed me the contents of her dinner plate. 

"Later to come out, brother." I did not eat, before spending my energy first. 

Usually, I try to find my hunger. I'm not as gallant as bodybuilding, it's just that my body shape is more grooved, especially the abdomen. I don't look like I've ever given birth, because my abdominal muscles look like an hourglass. Girls time is not like this. 

"Don't wander on, Ra. I'm afraid I'm suddenly here, and you're not there. Big brother bang Zio cover-up anyway, if it turns out the proof you're not home?" He looked at me and enjoyed the food. 

"I can take care of myself, brother. I'm not coming to a place of worship, just calm down." I leaned my back on the sofa. 

It feels so bored, so bored. Nothing interesting, everything made my mood bad. 

I don't blame my father for my mood swings and my psychic changes. But maybe I can not be sincere, coupled with seeing the story that Flowers display at this time. 

I want to beat up the samsak this instant too. 

'Zee, Farah' the two names are embedded in the photo that he made status. Especially this? Facts moreover? Why does the workshop look bad now? Why does it have to be a photo posted by Bunga? 

Are not the flowers married? Then how did her husband feel, seeing his wife displaying a picture of another man? 

The photo is not blurred, this photo is not an edit or anything like that. It was very clear in my eyes, that Bang Bisker smiled down to hold the two princesses. I took a screenshot. 

So, they're gonna be family? 

I want to pray that they die quickly.

Aaaa…. Oh, don't. 

Thank you for making me self-conscious. Maybe I should wake myself up, rather than keep hoping that Farah's father would find me in Cirebon. 

"I'm out first, brother." Not to forget I grabbed my car keys on the table. 

I don't know which way I'm driving and which way. I was just trying to let go of my emotions on the gas pedal that I set up so quickly, in order to cause a thumping feeling that c*n*u in my heart. 

No matter the police siren, red light stop, or cake market jam. I tried to camouflage it into an ambulance, which turned on the triangle lights continuously. 

I remember the moment I fed her with a fork, the moment I wanted to stab her in the face with a fork. I remember when he put his arm around me and asked Biyung to take our picture, it felt like now I wanted to slam his body forward. I remember when he held my hand while holding the fork, I now feel like I want to twist his hand until it breaks. 

I'm hot right now. 

Surely Bunga won without any effort. Stupidly I just keep hoping he will come, father decided he must have glanced at the flower that will be widowed. 

Tiiinnn….

"Welcome to which hospital? From there speeding on," exclaimed a pick-up driver who was on par with me. 

Bastards! I don't want to be questioned and reprimanded. 

I turned out in the direction of nowhere, until finally pulled over because I realized the gasoline indicator was on. Why am I running out of gas like this? It could be badly damaged this car.

I took this car slowly, to the end I did not find a gas station or a place where people sell bulk gasoline. Until the end, I had to willingly replace the damage done to this white car. Because my car is completely out of fuel. 

Bang Zio was in Aceh to take Galen. Brother-in-law obviously can't help me, I have to trouble Ranty and her husband? Ah, it seems that only the confidant of the father works in this branch of Cirebon. 

The car is fully upgraded and uses an injection system. If the injection car runs out of fuel, it is certain that the damage will propagate. 

Aghhh….. I just want to cry. 

"Yes, Brother. I'm going there."

Until finally, my confidant and I decided to hire a private crane that put up a hefty rate. Though my car tank has been submerged in gasoline again, but in fact this car can not be saved by gasoline alone. 

I feel so fucking shit now. 

Throw away my anger, but I make myself hard. 

"Regulated, sir. Is this the key, right? I'll just get off here, I'll be home by taxi online." I asked to stop at the intersection of the city. 

"Ati-ati, Brother. Just let me know if I need any more help." Fortunately the trusty guy was pretty good. 

"Ready, sir." I closed the car back. 

I haven't eaten before and just now I feel hungry. After searching for the nearest cafe on google, I immediately ordered a taxi online. 

My emotions had already worn off, but my frustration with myself was now more dominant. I feel stupid for ruining that million-memory car. 

Until a week later, my car wasn't done. I went to a confidant of my father who I trusted to clean up my car, just wanted to know where my car was repaired. 

"This is the sign of proof. The car's in the workshop, because there's a lot of stuff that's being ordered." He gave me a note. 

Should it be re-upgraded? Instead of cleaning it up, I'm afraid my car missed its racing capacity. 

"Aren't you booked yet, sir? I want an upgrade." I read the unpaid orders. 

"By, Brother. Go straight to the workshop near the red light, brother. I usually subscribe there, the car left was calm and not afraid of the parts replaced."

Uh, what's he saying? The workshop by the red light?

Obviously I immediately glanced at the name of the workshop that was printed thickly on top of the note. 

The AutoVar Project

I memorized the name of the workshop, even knowing the owner. I was afraid, I was there and she was there. 

Uh, but his efforts are already in father's care. The revenue of the workshop will be deducted by what percentage, because the people who will take care of the business father. 

Haah, just calm down. After all, the workshop bang was enjoying the togetherness of his small family in Aceh. 

"Yes, I've been there, please clean this up first, sir." I gave him some maps he had to work on. 

"Ready, Brother. Ati-ati." Father's men nodded steadily. 

No vehicles, inevitably online taxis are an option. Bang Zio is working in Jepara, he brought other cars available here. 

"Hurray, Ma'am. Can anyone help?" A workshop employee in embroidery uniform on his back approached me. 

"This, Bang. Want to check my car." I held out that note. 

"Oh, over here, Ma'am." He invited me to follow him. 

Which side the hell? How do I feel this workshop is getting wider? 

Middle done some people, some even go under it. How long is the body of the employee who goes under this car, like a body…….

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