Hope and Wish
A&W56. Demand a quick decision

"Sok, snobs. I'm gonna cry out." I rubbed my tears that still escaped, then looked at her ferociously. 

"Heaven Adek in Abang loh, don't like it to the husband." He looked back at my sharp spot. 

All bring heaven, even though he made a mistake. 

"So, you think you're innocent if you make that cake to me? I said at the beginning, just go home and rest. Don't stay here, don't mind me here. Response I will not go here, if you do not make a mistake. I'm not a crazy person, but I'm like this 'cause you're pissing me off." I patted my chest. 

"Yes, don't think so either. That's polite, Dek. Slowly speaking, do not look Abang like his enemy's brother is that."

It's been contagious the flower and forced. Yes, yes, yes continue at the beginning of the sentence. 

"Indeed you're polite to me? I'm sick again keep being yelled at is that polite? I was sick a day last night, didn't you find out and ask her how she is being polite? If you come in a storm like this, mending already there home. Don't make my condition any less healthy." I nodded and wiped my tears again. 

"Yes, yes. Brother is sorry, isn't he? Don't be angry anymore. What's the pain?" He tried to hold my face, as I was about to turn again. 

Tight-tasting. 

Just hit like Martyrdom, my emotions overflowed with my hand in return for her. Yesterday was not this busy, yesterday was not this disappointed. Although it ended up bringing myself a hard time, even though I ended up bothering myself. 

"Easy then???" I looked at him in disbelief. 

"Yes greetings." He took a deep breath. "Zee seizures continue right after you get there, continue treatment and ask for the first therapy. Later three days later, asked to come again see the development," he continued later. 

"Current again? Real ones? If the child is still having an intense seizure, there's no way Zee will be allowed to go home. Especially to the playground." So I want to ask other mothers who have children with epilepsy, really should therapy on the playground? 

"Therapy, Deck. Who said to the playground?" obviously then.

Aye? Misinformed or what? 

"The one who said you were in the playground." I immediately looked at his face, so that I could judge the change in his expression. 

He fell silent, and his eyeballs turned. It was like thinking first to answer. 

"Yes from the therapy go straight to the playground."

Even more damn it turns out to be the truth. 

"We split up a while ago, Bang. Our household is only a month old, the cancellation of the marriage can also still be her cake, or divorce all together. Let in the next therapy, you can immediately travel from the therapy. Child intense seizures right? In the hospital shortly, continue therapy and go straight for a walk. I know where the playground is." 

"That means yesterday wasn't a bad day for Zee right? But it was a bad day for me, Bang. On what basis, until you don't come home? Zee had an intense seizure, brother had time to go home."

He was silent again, he avoided eye contact with me. It seems that if he is guilty, he wants to find an excuse. I don't know because, it appears his bad taste to me. 

"It hurts, Dek. He's on the general poly, so I take care of Zee. After the flower self-medicate, he took a lot of rest. If Zee is not there to guard, she is afraid she has a seizure but no one reports to the doctor" he said gently. 

So anyway? 

"Your cooperation is great right, it's fast to be parents. What did you say at the beginning, right? Another flower for the widow, wait a minute. But you took it and it was the widow." I speak softly, but somehow delivered not to insinuate his conscience. 

"Don't frown, Yang. It's still you that you choose, you're still home Brother." He held my other cheek, then tried to kiss me on the cheek close to his face. 

I was silent, not daring I had forgiven and willingly kissed her. 

"I'm not the place to go home, the one to bring home his past. It was discussed from the beginning, but I did not think that Brother got all the way to Bunga." I let go of his hand that was still in my jaw. 

"Don't look at the flowers, Yang. Look at Zeenya, you're there because of Zee."

He made his son an excuse, whether the doctrine of the Flower began to possess him. 

"Yes, whatever. I mean, I mean, Bang. Brother went home first to Brother's father, we better split up for a while. Until you can be firm to take Zee as soon as possible, or release Zee with her mother's family." I don't want something like this to happen again. 

"It has to be done again, Yang. Can't suddenly bring Zee home, while his condition is like that." He held his chin up, then smiled at me. 

He thought I would melt with his smile. 

"As much as I want to heal again or make a fuss again, I won't participate in it. The point is we don't go home first, Brother go home to Hamdan's father first. Whatever, Farah wants to stay on me or be taken too. I will not involve children in our problems, I will not bother children and children to bring their father. We're still husband and wife, until you mend your relationship and be firm about Zee. It's up to you to say I'm evil instead, I try to understand the situation. But I don't want this cake to become a recurring habit. Indeed sick children who want to, surely no one expects sick children. But if my husband continues to fuss over a child who was in his past, without being able to give any decisions, I must be hurt here." I still want to continue with my decision. I don't care that Bunga will smile happily over the stretch of our household, but I obviously don't want any drama bang The restless Workshop thinks of Zee constantly. 

"You don't think you're accepting Brother's son, do you?" He smiled wryly. 

Loh, don't accept the word? 

"It's not unaccepting, it's called firm. The fall to our household, Bang. I told you, take Zee to me, let's take care of it. Or detamin Zee, let her mother take care of her family. Farah's problem? Do I have to talk to brother not to bring Farah? I'm no longer talking about Farah's son inborn brother, but later you keep thinking that Farah is in me. Presumably I choose love to Farah, suspecting me to be a cruel stepmother, then later Brother often come to me for child reasons. I'm happy, I don't want to be too dramatic. I told you, I want to make a quick decision. After all Zee in Bunga too, Brother must still be able to look, must still be asked for his needs." So this is what it's like to be a stepmom, huh? Anything about the child, I would have guessed I didn't accept the child. 

He rubbed his face, then took a deep breath and leaned his back against the back of the chair. He daydreamed for a moment, then looked back at my face. 

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