Hope and Wish
H&W78'S CHAT. Calms Ra

"Why, Deck?" Biyung chased me home. 

My cry was so loose, after entering the house. I couldn't talk, I could just sit on the floor and hug myself. Until finally he sat on the sofa, then made his lap as a spill of tears. 

"Why else are you? Who would dare to call you? I'm your strongest self, Ra." Biyung rubbed my head. 

I cannot speak, the actions of the Workshop bang made a huge scratch on my heart. Yesterday I asked him to leave, he stayed. Now that he asked her to come home, she decided to no longer accompany me to sleep. 

"Hadeh, it's still a little time cake. If it's crying, the power is taken out all." Biyung pressed my head very hard. 

"Hallo, Mommy. This is Ra crying, dizzy I was horrified by his crying. From small to large, the cry is still loose." 

Biyung immediately complained to her husband. 

"Yes, Mum." 

Afterwards, I felt a slow rubbing in my head. He didn't say anything, he didn't give me any tranquilizing words either. 

Shouldn't have reported to Dad. Because the father can be provoked by emotions, if he knows his daughter to cry like this. 

"Ra, Ra…." I heard biyung's breath. 

"The present time of the household many of his plays are right. Not a big problem, too, shared on social media. Biyung used to want to also ngeshare, but was afraid of being caught in-laws. Tau-in-law fierce, so diem-only until messy as well. Ehh, but because there's no quota either."

I don't know, the rambling made me think hard. 

"But the heart problem, Dek? Tired anyway, so mending Biyung with your father just."

Huaaaa….

"Biyung yummy with dad, who am I???" My voice was like a monster emerging from within the deep ocean. 

"Who are you usually the same?" Biyung laughed off by pointing at my face. 

"Bi-jung!!!" I hit the biyung lap slowly. 

"Dad is coming." Biyung pointed towards the door of the house that opened slowly. 

"Why, Deck?" Dad's panic was evident on his face. 

I shook my head, I still chose to be in the biyung's lap. If it moves on to him, I'm afraid this mouth is complaining. Later, I grew up with my husband and interfered in my husband's business. 

"For a long time never cry, why now cry again? What makes it sick? Which side is sick?" Dad's been squabbling in Biyung's lap. 

"From behind him, Mommy. Maybe pick Han up at Jasmine's house, because this afternoon Han invited Farah and her nanny to go to Jasmine's house."

Secretly, I noticed. 

"Let me ask." Dad stood up straight. 

I held dad's leg. "No need, Dad." 

"Dad's son cried like this, and you kept saying no?!" Dad looked down at me. 

"Let's leave one to three daily, Mas. Let's just be quiet first, we pretend we don't know. A little new time, we're negur. At the end of it they're better, we're ashamed of it." Biyung still rubbed my head. 

Dad's like rethinking Biyung's words. "What's the problem, Ra?" I chose to sit next to Biyung. 

"A divorce? Household just a month, how much is the problem," continued the father later. 

"No, Dad. I still want to have her husband." It's a confession that actually lowers my self-esteem, but I really don't want to break up with him. 

"Why did you get so cry? Three days at the hotel, I thought you were enjoying your time without kids."

Dad's estimate is wrong. Three days there, it felt tight not playing because my husband spoke as necessary. I made a very big mistake to save our household, it scared me. 

"The shopkeeper's at Jasmine's house," I'm afraid. 

"Why is he nginep? Yesterday tell me to go, you guys are together again. This is abis nginep at the hotel, instead of coming home to his parents."

I shook my head, I chose not to tell Dad the real reason. Again, I still hope he stays my husband. 

"Perhaps Ghifar's cake, Mas. Try to leave one to three days, because usually Ghifar will return himself to his wife after his anger is dim, "biyung added later. 

"Relatedly? And if all that time, our child is reckless, how? My mind's fucked up, Canda. Think of this, that, plus the matter of this labile son-in-law." Looks like dad was upset, I know I'm just bothering you. 

"I'm waiting for Ra." Biyung looked up at my face, then wiped my tears. 

Unfortunately, my tears did not stop. Keep and keep seeping. 

"You're a sleepy jock, Canda." Dad's holding my head. "Back with Dad? Don't be home alone, right? Daddy's with." The sad look in my eyes was visible. 

I can't see my father that sad. Now my tears are more separated than ever, because I see the look in the eyes of a sad and tired father. 

Geck, tock, tock….

I hope that knocking on the door is my husband, I hope he comes home because the sound of my crying penetrates into the back house. Although it may not sound possible, but I hope his mind feels sadness because of my cry. 

"Bec…. What's the matter, heh?" The door knocking is still heard. 

I got up and opened my door. My father, son, bang Chandra, sister Nahda and my husband know the pins on my door handles. 

"Why are you crying?" Mama Aca immediately calmed down and hugged me. 

"Why are you here?" ask me to sit back in his place. 

"Pink car insurance claim, Ghifar needs your signature. Here I take the form, please keep loving it to your sister." My brother-in-law gave orders to my father. 

"Gee! Again this is the case, everyone's asking for autographs." I took a letter from Mama Aca. 

"Why are you, beautiful? Last time you were in SD, you never cried again." Mama Aca gave a soft rub on my back. 

"Udah nih." I gave him back the letter. 

"Told to Ghifar! Forgive me, this young cousin never obeyed his older cousin!" Mama Aca's tone immediately went up. 

Mama Aca is the daughter of her grandmother Dinda. On one hand, father is the younger brother of Mama Aca. But on the other hand, Mama Aca is her sister-in-law. 

"Godd!!!" Dad left with that letter. 

Mama Aca was silent, she just returned to talk after the door closed tightly back. 

"Why the hell, Dek? Try telling Mama." Mama Aca wiped my tears like a biyung. 

I looked into his eyes, then glanced towards Biyung's lap. I hope Mama Aca understands, that I cannot reveal my problems in front of the biyung, because the biyung will leak to father. 

Mama Aca blinked tightly. "Yes, let's go to your house. Maybe you're the boss of the household atmosphere, maybe you want to enjoy the atmosphere of Mama's house that frenzied if there is Kal the same Kaf. He is more than his little brother." Mama Aca shook her head and rolled her eyes, as if she was dizzy with the two children. 

"Say first to his father, Ma," said Biyung later. 

"Yes, Givan was there too. Come, Deck. Don't be home alone, it's Kliwon Friday night." Mama Aca whispered, as if telling a scary thing. 

"Lah, come along anyway. My husband is there." The stock starts here. 

Mama Aca even pat the eel, before finally we both headed to the house of Mama Aca. Including the biyung who held my hand tightly, while Mama Aca walked behind us. 

The intention was that Mama Aca wanted to trick the young man, to allow me to stay at the house of Mama Aca, so that I would not be alone at home. Uh, it turns out that even Biyung was scared and sneaked into the house of Mama Aca. 

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