Hope and Wish
H&W80 RESEARCH. Keep attitude

"Ma, I'm going home first, okay? Bang Workshop WA I." This morning I rushed to the kitchen, where Mama Aca was busy. 

"OK, Honey. Tell me, ten o'clock wants to go out with Mama." Mama Aca commented a smile and raised her thumb. 

"Okay, Ma." I rushed out of the house of Mama Aca. 

However, when I got home I saw him taking out a suitcase. 

"Abang went to Jakarta first?" He hugged me at the door of the house. 

"Now?" I let go of his embrace and looked at his face. 

"Yes, Yang. Healthy huh? Let's get Brother to the airport." He hugged me back. "May you come home, the atmosphere is not like this anymore."

I felt sad because he suddenly wanted to go home to Jakarta alone. I know he said it, but I didn't think it had to be this fast. 

"Yes, Bang. I'll take something first." I intend to take my wallet. 

"Yes, Yang. Brother said to father first, all nitipins Adek same Galen." 

"Yes, Bang." I'm nodding. 

If you think about it, why carry a suitcase? He has a lot of clothes in his house in Jakarta, right? Why doesn't he just bring a backpack for his electronics that he needs? 

"Yes…. Come on." 

Before long, I heard his call. I got out of the house, changed my clothes and took my wallet. 

"What did dad say?" I approached him. 

"Yes can. Borrowed the car." Bang the workshop pulled his suitcase and put it in my father's car. 

He apparently dared to ask permission from father, even though last night he did not go home. Maybe he was brave, because he did not know if he made this father's daughter cry. 

"Which, the reception remains so huh? Later three days before the reception, Brother has come home, Brother has told father to be very nice." He opened the car door for me. 

That badly damaged car is not here. 

"What do they say?" I was curious when he made such a statement to them. 

"Just yes, Yang. Why is that?" He closed the car door again, after I sat down next to him. 

It's seven o'clock, I'll take you to the airport. Means ten o'clock, chances are I'm still on my way home. I'll tell Mama Aca, to cancel plans by ten. 

[Ma, I ran the workshop to the airport. The cake I can not go to coffee at ten.] I canceled first, before telling the workshop bang. 

The car has been running, has gone to the street alley that fit one car only. 

"Abang brought Adek and Galen's clothes," he said suddenly. 

"For what?" I looked at him. 

"Perhaps kangen." He smiled at the smile. 

I was just a beard, I guess he would say that he would later pick me up. 

[It's okay, Dek. I usually say when.] A message from Mama Aca comes in from my phone notification bar. 

[Ready, Ma.] I reply quickly, from the notification bar. 

"Dek, just shut up? Why?" He rubbed my thighs. 

I'm confused, I'm afraid of getting the wrong word out to her and making the problem even bigger. It's not really a problem, but I feel like I have some distance from him. 

"What time's the flight?" tanyaku later. 

"Hour two, Yang," he answered by raising his hand from my lap. 

Well, loh? 

"Why leave now?" I'm sure he'll be bored waiting at the airport. 

"Go ahead, Yang." He stepped on the brake pedal, because it would cross up the highway. 

"Where do you want to go? I want to buy jewelry."

Can I ask her and her heart? 

"Whatever." I gave her my sweet smile. 

Not because I flower will be given jewelry by him, but because of his intention that he said he wanted to give me jewelry. 

"Why not usually? Why, Yang?"

Does he want me to start arguing again? 

"It's okay, Bang." I feel like he's taking this vehicle very slowly. 

"Night Brother looked at the same flower father," he said which made me swallow. 

I understand he's trying to open up, but I can't relax when it comes to all things about Flowers. 

"Continue?" I squinted my eyes. 

"Bone fractures of two legs. There is an effect on the stomach, due to repeated collisions and pressure, he said. Actually there is no big problem in the stomach, maybe the chest is still inflamed times huh?" In her eyes like a smell. 

I find it hard to apologize for my actions yesterday. I wouldn't have, if the Flower hadn't touched my husband. If he realizes his mistake, maybe I can think also of my error. 

"What do you say to flowers?" I hope his mouth represents my apology. 

"The chips heal." His eyebrows raised next to. "Why is that?" continue then. 

Oh, why would I want to submit my apology? The best hope, do not hope in humans. 

"Nothing." I carved my smile back. 

"You're a real freak, Yang. Why the hell is it like it's necessary?"

I keep my words, my attitude towards him. I don't want it anymore because of my words and my attitude, he doesn't trust me more. What is, later I was forbidden to meet his children. 

"It's okay, Bang. Nothing and no problem." He thinks I'm changing, but I feel like that. 

"Because last night you didn't come home? You know that you're at Hamdan's father's place, not wandering around. Just look at the flowers, it's also because all of you said that Zee was in Brother." His explanation was like forcing if he was not wrong because of his actions. 

Whatever, I don't blame his actions either. He looked at Bunga with his father had already happened and was already passed, although it is good to see him accompanied by me. But he thought, maybe it's good that he came with his father because he thought I was taking Bunga hostile. 

"I get it, Bang." I don't want to discuss how whiny I was last night, I'm ashamed to admit it. 

I was afraid to be underestimated by him, if he knew he was the man I had cried for. He'll grow a big head, then take care of our household. 

"Hmmm…. I guess we're not all right. Adek kangen Brother?" 

What question is that? 

"According to Brother?" I glanced at. 

He put his shoulder out. "The reason is ordinary, we meet every day." He chuckles like it's a joke. 

I'm not menstruating and it's been four days that he hasn't touched me, it's never been like that before, and then he's taken it for granted? Yeah okay, I'll get used to it without him. 

"It looks like it is. Adek if it's badmood, long time not issued. We're looking for a deserted land"

I looked quickly, hearing the next words. Not yet I understand, he has turned towards the road that divides the coffee land. But this is a vehicle access to the papa Ghifar factory, one or two worker cars must pass through here every day. 

"Why stop here?" Actually I know what he wants to do. 

But, is it enough in the car? 

"Shttt, shttt, shttt…." Her smile was broken, but her smile no longer pleased my heart. 

This time, the hot radiance he spilled to the seat of his car. My heart raged, for some reason I didn't expect to get pregnant with my husband's child after all these problems. 

I was afraid of leaving him with a daughter I raised, I was worried that it would become a snatch. Then he made it difficult for the guardianship of marriage, if the daughter grew up in my hands. I'm an evil wife, because really fearing bad things about my household complicates my offspring. 

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