Hope and Wish
C&W55. Quarrelling

"Dad take care of your dirty clothes first huh, Dek? I'll be here again with clean clothes." Dad kissed my forehead. 

"Thank you, Dad." I smile for my father. 

"Dad's cover, no need to thank you, Deck." Dad rubbed my head and left my room without leaving me at the workshop. 

"Yes…. You should hear Brother's story." Bang Workshop occupied the seat that my father had mastered since I was with me in this simple hospital room. 

"No need, keep it to yourself." I don't want to hurt myself, I don't want to pry about him like yesterday. 

Let the truth show me for yourself. 

"Don't do that, Adek will not believe. Dengerin first, let's know how it happened. Why the hell don't you want to know? Zee doesn't matter to Adek?"

When Farah had a seizure, she said that I was not worried about Farah. Now it's Zee's turn, he says Zee doesn't matter to me. 

"If I want to take care of it, bring it to me. Don't do a lot of drama like this, my dad doesn't like it. Don't worry no, it's important not. May I ask your priority? In the afterlife, you will be asked about your responsibility to me, Faraj and Galen. It's not Zee who's not brother's son." I patted his chest. 

Even more pain, I have to be provoked by emotions like this. 

"Why do you always say that? Zee Avang's biological son. Brother does not want to hear about different Zee nasab, he will understand later hurt by Adek's speech. Zee, Farah or Galen make no difference. They're all brothers' children, Yang."

Father who is indiscriminate about his son, does he deserve a cloud-high flattery? 

"Whatever! Go home, rest tired." I'm turning her back. 

"Ra, appreciate my presence. I'm here for you!" He flipped my position to face the ceiling back quite roughly.

I flinched with her snaps. I don't hurt my dad, but being yelled at by my husband feels so tight. Moreover, in my condition that is sick like this. 

"Cancel our reception." Reception's still about three weeks away. If cancelled from now, the loss of material is not so great. 

"Why should I snack? I'm stressed, Yang. I'm stressed, there's a sick kid, here's a sick wife. I'm coming, you don't want to be taken care of. In-law nyudutin aja, do not understand my condition. How should I try?!"

I looked towards him. I don't understand why he's raging. 

"Worthy your wife die soon! Good are you acting like that to me?! At the beginning of your effort was good, Bang. You're soft, you're mature, you seem responsible. Go home to your father! Don't want me to live long with your cake man!" My lips were shaking, my breath was heavy and my eyes were watering. 

I can't be this harsh with the people I love, but I can't just be quiet if a dear person is this outrageous. 

He's pulling his head back. His eyes widened, then he rubbed his chest. 

"See! I NGERTI! But my mind was clear, able to think of everyone around me, even remember that some of the house lights had not been turned off. You are given understanding, still need understanding. I don't want to talk sad, about me not being taken care of by my husband. I'm lucky, I'm lucky to have dad's cake, even though my husband's cake is yours! You can't be firm, I'll be firm. I'm no longer threatening you, but I don't like it when you don't make a decision. I let me be an intermediary so you're close to Zee, doesn't mean you're as bad as me. If you still want to be with me, take Zee or take Zee off with her mother." My voice trembled, my emotions spilled with my crybaby. 

I don't want to cry in front of him. 

But he's a bastard, he hugged me and made my tears break in his arms. I have feelings, I have a heart and I have love. I want to be loved and cherished by my husband, I don't want my husband to underestimate me and waste me.

I know it's about the kid, I have kids and I know what it's like to worry about the kid. But if my husband is sick, I can share the attention of my son to my husband. At the very least, I'll make sure of her condition from the people who are nearby. Not just shut up like he did to me. 

"I can't choose, Yang. You try, just be patient for a minute."

If I had been patient in the room waiting for him to come home to see my condition, I might have died of dehydration by now. I vomited a day over and over, not to mention the sweat that kept coming out. Now, he asks me to be patient again.

"Yes, Brother went home to Brother's father. Don't teach me to be patient, I've eaten a lot of patience." I tried to get myself off of him. 

Maybe all the underrated wives want to talk a lot like me, but I'm sure they're depressed by the circumstances or indeed afraid of being left behind. 

"Don't, Yang. We're all together, Yang. Sorry brother, I promise not to repeat this mistake again." His voice was raucous, but my heart was untouchable because of it. 

"Recognize another mistake, huh?" I looked at his face, in order to understand the expression he showed. 

He shook. "Abang will fix himself brother again, Yang. Don't ask you to come home to me, we're together, Yang." He tried to call me back. 

Bunga, you were so great that my husband forgot his wife. Surely he smiled satisfied now, especially if he knew that me and bang Workshop had a big fight. He must have felt victorious, if he saw me and the workshop was not one house anymore. 

As Kaf said, it turned out that the problem of the child was this complex until someone brought it to trial. 

There is no disturbance with the past, nor is there any indication of cheating. But, his hands were light. But he was jealous once. Bang Workshop who was clearly not jealous, he even seemed not to love me, he even underestimated me. 

Am I really a less accepting wife? Or is it the man who cannot treat his wife properly? 

Am I being too arrogant and rude? Or is he the one who must be given threats and warnings? 

What confused me more, he knew how my character was. Then why is he yelling at me, when my condition is not healthy like this? Coupled with his mistake, I felt like he was brainwashed by Flowers. Last night, he was very different from the reason his son was sick. 

"Yang, with the story of Brother first so that Adek does not misunderstand. Let Adek's mind calm down, let's not expect this brother continues. Dengerin, Brother please listen. Brother wants to share the same story with his life partner. Not Brother looking for a defense, but Brother does not want Adek to misunderstand to Abang continues. Brother does not want because of this incident, in the future Adek even less trust with his own husband." He took my hand and then rubbed my face. 

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