Hope and Wish
A&W36. Enlightenment

"Are you in Cirebon, right, Dek?" 

Biyung just confused me. 

"Well, why, Biyung?" If it wasn't my mother, I'd just like to raise my voice. 

"Bunga was in Bekasi yesterday? Obviously different, Cirebon is the same Bekasi," explained Biyung who made me immediately sigh. 

My word is not in that direction. 

"Kanda…. What's the reason you've been deceived?" Pakwa diverted the conversation. 

"Nobody takes care, nobody cares. Every morning from the SD era, wake up already there is a money range of fifteen thousand on the dining table. In my day, it's big money. Breakfast rice, a thousand still can. So from waking up, to bathing, to leaving school is taking care of itself. Go buy your own breakfast. Sometimes eat at school, leave early, Bang. From third grade SD, to sixth grade so on. So even large, confused a lot of money for what. Pas has a husband hit by an economic crisis, usually hold more money continuously, impromptu hold money must be economical, shocked there. Well, that's fifteen thousand for a day. In that house, my aunt only cooked rice. I bought my own side dish from that fifteen thousand, Bang. Lunch, dinner, I have to think side dishes. I'm a snack of that money, too, Bang. Sometimes even kepengen like kek kemen, eat first son, shower first son. I met the family just in the morning, the same night they came home from the farm. I wasn't told to mop up the house, but I joined and I fucked up every day. What lonely people, Bang? Play continues, in the house of his own roll. So I am happy not in the boarding house, if Lebaran even sad. Even after the age of High School, I chose Lebaran in the cottage area. Get together at Kyai's house, eat big there. In the dormitory alone, sometimes one or two people from outside the island." Biyung told me without a sad expression. 

How can you stay away from the family but not sad? 

When I just entered the boarding school, every sleep I cried because of my father's decision. Until forty days, you can look at me, you open everything if he is worried that I do not have knowledge as a guide for my life. As I grew older, I understood my father's good intentions. Moreover, I feel the luckiest because my father was never late to visit me, or send me monthly necessities. 

"Indeed in the pesantren get attention? Straightest?" Hand of the Flower is held by the Pakwa, perhaps so that the Flower listens to the ravings of the biyung. 

Zee ya is in the lap of Pakwa, the girl the henchman snickered in the arms of his grandfather. 

"There is attention dong, sick ya asked by the ministers, asked the same charismatic diploma, it's the one who woke up santri if Fajr. Not a bathe bathed too, but it will be kicked-brake keep telling this it. Every day never menggerasain it all, then finally someone told this. Eh a mess, be told until now." Biyung chuckled small. 

"You're the same Ra?" Pakwa turned her attention to me. 

"I'm a modern boarding school, there's a bell every waking hour. If the right down the room number is not appropriate, ustadzah immediately check and see the state of the santri who is still sleeping. If the fasting month uses a tight trumpet, we santri usually call trumpet trumpet." I also tell stories. 

"But good at pesantren?" Pakwa looked at me and took turns. 

"His son, live regularly. Do not think of any burden, snacks stay snack, eat stay eat. It's natural memorization, can't not go to jail either." Biyung patted my arm and laughed crisply. 

Bring the prison all. 

"In modern pesantren, there is exculpation as well. Taught martial arts, or other extracurriculars," I added later. 

"That's for public school, Dek. Pas biyung already in college, there is no excul. But it's good in pesantren, rather than off pesantren tuh. Where there's another drunken drama of men." Biyung laughed at himself. 

"I'm not so." I'm laughing too. 

"But his drunkenness was already a widow" said Biyung like that. 

"But the price, Ra?" The little chuckling flower. 

"Not really, got a Civic Turbo anyway." Let him be hot-hearted. 

Limited edition like me is equated with a best seller like it. I'm not being such a proud demon myself, but this human being shouldn't make fun of me. 

"Glorified yes, son? Biyung the seneng, daughter dowry high." Biyung pinched my cheek, then he laughed crisply. 

Pakwa until giggled amusedly with biyung behavior, he was like an anxiety with a small child. 

"If he's in charge, it's not possible for Zee until I bring him home. Biyung was looking at the dowry, not taking responsibility. The shuhada is irresponsible, right? Even if he gives high dowry."

It is indeed taking this gelut women. 

"Makanya Syuhada I depak, Bunga. Later if pregnant, I will admit her child, let her continue to be responsible. Try to admit, the person you're doing is late. Galen who is not his son, we have discussed the cost of education." I spoke softly and developed my smile. 

"Looks in charge, Deck. Zee is guaranteed from formula milk, clothing, foodstuffs. Every month his grandfather delivered, Hannya because it is often in Jakarta anyway." Pakwa doesn't seem to realize that her son is hurting me.

Flower directly kicep, he did not continue to chirp anymore. 

"Why is the pesantren, Bang? Do you want to enter the pesantren?" Biyung broke this unpleasant atmosphere. 

"Flower, Deck. What do you think? He won't, while Givan maksa. I think there's a point, too." 

Ah, mending if the mind is open. 

"Well good, in a new environment a lot of unexpected, usually giving everything you expect from the old environment. Where knows, can mate in pesantren as well. Many kok who are old are still in pesantren as well, usually ngabdi in kyai."

Why ask for enlightenment on biyung huh? Sometimes being wise is not. 

"Why is that good? I was kept away from the modern world, I was restricted from the outside environment, I was forbidden to see children, I was not allowed to gather with family." Flowers show her protest. 

"Get together a family if anyone dies."

Pat eel, my biyaku a lot of not connecting. I suspect biyung rarely eat nutritious food, must be small he ate buy side dishes tofu directly from the fifteen thousand money. 

"Hey, Biyung." I elbowed biyung's arm. 

"Hmm?" Biyung looked at me. 

He was not aware apparently. 

"The big day can go home, kek Eidan and school holidays," explained so that the atmosphere does not increase absurd. 

"Kanda, we're serious. Try to give enlightenment to Flowers, give advice. Don't make your eyes twitch." I felt tired when I said that. 

My bio knows the least about sikon. 

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