Hope and Wish
H&W71'S CHAT. Self-esteem is scratched
"Such love is the same father, so hard to reveal the love Adek for Brother?" He looked me deeply into my eyes, then turned his eyes to the second cigarette.
It looks like a biyung. He looks handsome and decisive, but the real stress me every day. There was no sign of her ferocity when talking about feelings, her heart was extremely fragile.
"Different, Bang. Different love to the same parents love to the couple. Love to dad, kiss him and there's courtesy." I kissed his neck at a glance. "This can't be with dad, with a partner."
He turned his head slowly, with a stupid look and a gawking mouth. A moment later, his shy smile was instantly etched. It's like a new grandpa puberty who just felt kissed by his unclean girlfriend.
"By love, we can't hit all the objects. Because many feelings are very excessive, continue to be called love. Too dear to the child, impressed love to the child. Being too devoted to parents is sometimes called love for parents. Too sincere to the couple, he usually called that stupid, Bang." I put on a serious face.
He giggled amusedly and immediately grabbed me and kissed a peek, my neck firmly flanked by him as he repeatedly kissed my cheek.
"Quiet, Bang. My father is not too conservative about the happiness of his son, his son-in-law cheated on him and the father must be quiet to his son. But don't expect me to just be quiet, because if you've been found out your life is definitely not calm. Even my case yesterday, I'm the one who wants to divorce. Dad asked to sue the marriage agreement letter only, so he was sanctioned or fined. But let me say complete, all sued the marriage agreement and sued for divorce, so the process is not long. Ehh, I don't know if he's worse with his DDRT. Yes weapons eat sir, I'm also sanctioned. Would you mind tending to me a little bit? Would you try to be patient a little? So keen to sat setnya, to not think of the risk that turned to myself. Maybe because my father has a lot of experience, so understand the steps he must take. Well me? My ego is still big, I want to die for his father Galen when the incident happened to KDRT." Because I did not obey my father, I felt the cold cells without bedding and blankets.
In the cell there is no blanket allowed, because the blanket can be used as a suicide intermediary. There was once a case of a glove for a blanket, instead made to hang his own neck. It's in a prison where I had my footprints there, whether the rules were different in another prison.
"So that story? So you want to go back to Dad?"
Why does his tone seem to corner me?
"Some, where are there any parents who plunge their children? What's wrong with massage? People are just signs of a contract. Brother if you disagree, yes say fit in the room dad earlier tuh." His frustration has not subsided.
Mental crackers are indeed himself.
"But already know will be unemployed like this, abis reception until we have a child in Jakarta anyway? Shy at home, don't feel cool and don't feel great. Yes okay today can work at home, find money using HP. But the brother who used to work, Yang. Fear of being abused, fear of being asked 'is there at home, Han?'. What should I answer try? Am I unemployed then? Or, am I the big boss? Pretts…. Not much effort is called boss. Ok after the children are small like this, the money is so much. But the child enters Kindergarten, our spending is different. Not to mention that Farah has a sister again. Galen, Zee same Farah was entering his school together arguably. Okay, Farah's a year apart. But look at the moon, it's only a few months different." He straightened his legs on the steps of the terrace, then massaged his own knees like grandparents.
"Any still offended?" I feel like domestic conflicts are changing constantly.
When do we live a happy and fit life?
"Abang has self-esteem, with Abang helping the business held by Adek, impressed Abang subordinate Adek. The brother of the head of the family, in all conflicts, women always win. But for the breadwinner, do you have to give up too? Adek beautiful, can make his own money, later thought he did not need a man who can only stay at home to eat channa fish. If you have to be patient like this, when? Four efforts to be a subsidiary of the father, Brother did not think long, because the focus takes care of Farah. Now Farah has a guard, even use a nanny, brother why dong? Sure we want to feel good in bed? What is common is that we become human, the time of his work continues? There are many other activities, life goes on. Good adek, keep cooking, keep grinding clothes. What brother? Do I need to dry my clothes every day? Do I have to go around Galen every day? Brother understands, Brother is his parents and must contribute in the lives of his children. But I'm ashamed at home, Yang. Later Galen already TK, asked his friend 'what father do you work for?'. Answer what are we trying our child? My father is unemployed. Is that?" He looked at me and looked at me for a long time.
I was confused, how would I want it?
"Dad still want father's cooperation? I'm talking about ya?" I conclude this, from all the sequences he said.
"No, he said he couldn't believe it. Anyway we are in Jakarta, Abang open a new branch. Later on the branch Abang hold his own, let there be work for Abang. Adek still want to go to his parents is okay, can work from home. But my brother wants to leave in the morning, come home in the afternoon. Giving a real living, Brother work, self-esteem Abang safe, Galen and his sisters will not answer his father unemployed. Brother no longer ngancem, can be friendly to parents. But don't want to stay here for long, you're embarrassed. Bang Chandra whose turnover is already hundreds of millions, he remains a work hassle. At three o'clock in the morning has taken care of demolition, later continue this work. Dzuhur comes home, Ashar he's busy on the laptop. Bang Fa'ad, stay calm. His profession is not lost, even though his wife is heir to a large factory. Bang Zio was no longer, ngabdi to the parents as well, his efforts remained in control. Well, what brother? Mending busy working under the car, rather than having a day at home even though the end of the month the results of business enter the account. Even if Ghava's uncle is in his office near home, but he's consistent every day at work, not at home. These things, do not need to be driven to father. It's an internal problem, which we can solve on our own. Abang's will is not grandiose, Abang wants Abang's self-esteem back. Men's work equals self-esteem. Hence the man is called the backbone, the breadwinner, therefore his self-esteem and his obligations. Adek income for Adek itself, Brother will not admit Adek payment from the results of the father's subsidiary. Brother's money, yes for the needs of all of us. Abang hand over, this is the living from Abang, the work of your backbone. I'm not going to be sad, Brother Yang. Even happy, happy because Adek still use money for our mutual needs and impressed Adek waiting for income Abang. With Abang working and fulfilling our needs together, the sign is that Abang is able and feels proud of himself. Tiredness pays off, self-esteem doesn't go away, our relationships remain like normal humans." His hands move, his expression plays, his emotions get.
Did my father hurt his pride, until he was offended in such a way?
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