LET ME BE HAPPY
chapter 21

Adinda POV

The clockwork on the nightstand adorns the silence of my night. A clockwork scroll that points to the number eleven. I exhaled a long breath to expel the shabbiness that now began to sharpen.

It's been over a week since Devin came home late. I never even greeted him. His attitude had turned cold since the incident the other day. I am still trying to fulfill my duties as a wife.

I got off my bed. Step slowly towards the door that connects this room with the balcony. I pulled the curtains and turned the key to open the door. A gust of wind immediately hit my body.

I looked up at the sky. Both of my hands rest on the iron. I looked up at the clear night sky and was studded with a million stars that spoiled the net. A star with a calming light. I smile at the beauty God has created in the universe.

"Mother, Adin misses. Do you know, that this Mother's favorite daughter even though she is an adult, but still often cries like a child." I inhaled the air and exhaled it slowly.

"Mother, Adin thanked Adin for giving Adin the opportunity to marry the man she loved. However, Adin was not able to take the Bun. Adin hope Mother there is not disappointed in Adin. Adin doesn't know anymore, where this relationship is going." I blinked these eyes. I have tears that start to come down my cheeks.

The wind felt like it was piercing my body. The sky was now covered in dark clouds. It might be raining soon. I decided to go back into the room. I lock the door and close the curtain back. Then step onto the bed to rest yourself.

Duuua aarrr.....

"Astagfirullahaladzim." I was blown away in shock when the thunderous sound of lightning caught my trunk.

Lightning flashes appear from the door with curtains that are not tightly closed. I tried to dare to close it. I see it's raining out there. I spring back to the bed after making sure all the curtains are covered perfectly.

"Where's Devin? Why haven't you come home?" ask me to myself.

I saw the clock on the nightstand almost twelve in the evening, but there was no sign of any other occupants in this apartment, other than myself.

Aaaakkhh....

I screamed loudly with both palms covering my ears. I close these eyes. The sound of lightning still sounded earthy. And now plus the lights off. Complete is my suffering. I'm phobic of darkness and thunderclaps simultaneously.

Shortly thereafter, something caught me. I wish it was mom, but mommy's gone. The masculine scent filled my sense of smell. Who holds me so tightly like this?

I can't think clearly for now, all I need now is a supply of oxygen because my chest feels tight, until that familiar voice is heard and forces me to open my eyes.

"Din, relax. Everything's gonna be okay." Now I know who is on my side. Yes, he is my husband, Devin.

One hand of Devin stroked my back and the other held the phone with a flashlight on. I wrapped these two hands around the figure that was always there when I was scared like this.

"I'm afraid of Dev" I said.

"Calm down! There I am" said Devin. His words were like an oasis in the middle of a barren desert.

I leaned this head against my husband's chest. I inhaled a masculine scent that felt soothing. Slowly my fear disappeared. Although I still heard the sound of lightning echoing and there was only a speck of light in the middle of the darkness.

"Hows it? It's better," asked Devin as his hand still faithfully stroked my back.

I don't know why this heart that once felt so crowded, now even like jumping up and down. I'm trying to neutralize this heartbeat. My face met red when I realized the position of the two of us who were very close like this.

"Sleep," Devin's instructions.

"Dev!" myrag. I clasped Devin's hand that was about to stand up.

"Sleep here" I asked. It's not that I want to take a chance in a narrowness, but I'm really scared to be alone in a situation like this.

"All right," said Devin.

I'm breaking myself down. So did Devin who was now lying next to me. I tilted my body and faced Devin. I sucked my head in the chest of the field that made me comfortable. I put my hands together to embrace my husband. I slowly breathed in the masculine scent that made me opiate.

Soon I fell asleep and began exploring the dreamland. I woke up when I heard the sound of adhan shubuh reverberating and the first thing I saw when I opened my eyes was a handsome face that looked so peaceful.

I smiled watching God's creation before me. I raised my hand and slowly stroked my husband's stern jaw. When can I feel a moment like this.

"If only I could see this scene every day when I woke up from my sleep, I might feel like a lucky woman who has you" I said.

I smiled as I brought my face closer to Devin. Devin's warm breath hit my face. It caused a strange taste sensation that tickled my stomach.

"Handsome," I said.

"I know I'm handsome" Devin said, opening his eyes. Suddenly it made me keep this face away from Devin who was only a few cents away.

I tried to escape from Devin's embrace, but Devin just tightened his embrace. Makes me want to not stay in the original position.

"Let it be like this for a minute, Din" said Devin.

"But this is already Dev shubuh. Later we are late," I said remind Devin that the shubuh adhan has been reverberating since.

Devin unraveled his embrace like he was unwilling. Then he went to the bathroom. His feet stomped the floor like a child.

I put on a wry smile looking at Devin's behavior. I stared at that sturdy back which then disappeared behind the bathroom door.

I stepped towards the bathroom after Devin finished and headed for the closet. Cold water hit my body, but I warmed up. May I wish not just last night that I slept in bed with Devin, my halal lover. Remembering what happened last night made me blush. I'd be willing if I had to be faced with lightning and darkness again, as long as I could continue with him.

I finished my bathing ritual so that the dawn time is not missed. I came out of the bathroom and found that Devin was waiting for me to perform a prayer together.

After I finished praying, I headed to the kitchen. I hummed along as I prepared breakfast for us. I'm so happy that Devin is no longer indifferent to me.

"Oh my God, don't let this happiness pass" my heart.