The Curse of Love
Part 47 Explain to Me
All the way home I was silent. I just hugged Miko tightly from behind.
Crying out? Tears? Of course I can't do it anymore. Free I tried to cry, her tears were dry. All that remains is an elongated scar that cannot be seen but can be felt.
Like knowing what I was feeling, Miko who was usually chatty and talked a lot if she was with me, suddenly shut up and silenced a thousand languages.
"We go home, baby, we'll discuss this matter at home."
He held my fingers that were tightly hugging his waist. I leaned my head against Miko's shoulder, feeling the cold gust of night wind suddenly turn into like thousands of needles piercing my body.
"We have arrived at home.get down..."
With a giant step I entered followed by Miko. My heart breaks back to seeing the three of them. Don't you remember his father with these three little angels?
"Would you like me to make some tea, baby? I see your face is pale."
"You just lie down first.I make tea for a while..."
"Can you, Ko? Wait a minute!!!"
He served two cups of warm tea. "Drink so that your heart does not freeze again."
I drank it.Service, my body no longer shiver like before.
"Now you tell me..explain to me as clearly as possible..Who was that man?"
"Or is he your ex-husband? Because I saw her face look a lot like Dina."
"Yes.he is the father of children, Ko..."
"Now it is right for you to tell me why you are separated."
"In my sight, he did not look at you at all, even when we passed him, his facial expression was like that of someone who did not know you, but he was looking and smiling at us."
"He lost his sanity, Ko..."
"you mean? She crazy? But there was no sign that he had a mental disorder!!!"
"She had a mental disorder for about 3 weeks, then she was picked up by her family home, and since then me and the children can no longer communicate with her family, even if only to ask the news."
"After 5 months passed.they came to take Sofwan mas.but not to return him to us his family, but instead brought divorce papers for me to handle."
"How do you know that Sofwan isn't crazy anymore?"
"From the way he's behaving, it shows that he's cured."
"But strangely enough, she can't remember me even her three children at all."
"He looked at me like a stranger, and he even shook my hand when he was about to touch her."
"Then, why would you want to sign the divorce papers, brother Nia.you should refuse.Since that name is only one-sided, you have to support the children yourself, suddenly come and bring divorce papers, do not have a brain also the family..Where is their conscience?"
"I'm confused don't know what to do, Ko? Moreover, Mas Sofwan I heard just healed, but he lost all memory of his past."
"That happened how many months ago?"
"It was 5 months ago.I remember..."
"He also does not give birth and batinkan? I nodded."
"Setauku...kamu it can be remarried...kamu also held your divorce deed right? I just nodded languidly."
"Keep..pa cause Sofwan could lose his sanity?"
"I'm not quite sure what the real cause is, Ko."
"That's all I remember when I was pregnant with Juned..."
Flashback*****
"Dina..don't run, son.will fall..."
"Please let Dina sit for a while.I'll go to the toilet for a minute."
My gestational age entering 9 months, makes me always want to go to the toilet alone."
I just got to my seat...Dina's already run out of the amusement park. Mas..please chase Dina mas.fear no motor..."
"Mas Sofwan ran after Dina...Brukkkk.A passing motor hit Sofwan mas trying to protect Dina..."
In a panic I and the motorcyclist tried to help Sofwan.
"Mas.gimana this..blood that flows a lot.luckily there are other park visitors help my husband."
Head of Sofwan mas in bandages. "Mas...can you bring a motor home?"
" Slowly, you can deck."
Arriving home I re-treated the wounds on his hands, elbows and feet.
"The head of the mas dizzy deck.mas Sofwan stomped his forehead."
"Mas.according to the doctor at the puskesmas who sewed the wound on your head earlier, a torn wound just now, is above the wound which is also a stitch on your head."
"It looks like an old wound..that's what kind of scar?"
"Mas don't really remember the deck..that's what scars!!!"
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A week later the wound on Sofwan's head began to dry up. Since then, Sofwan has often been temperamental. A little mistake I made could make him very angry.
Mas Sofwan is now very different from the previous Sofwan. Sometimes the nature and attitude change like a chameleon.
I try to understand all the changes. In addition, since the birth of Syifa, our economy has become more difficult.
Mas Sofwan often comes home late at night with his side work. And in the morning, he had to go to work.
Perhaps due to exhaustion, the excessive burden of thought triggers him to get even more stressed. If he was angry just a little, then I was the one who became the outlet of his anger, sometimes my hair was grabbed, I also had slapped him.
The worst was when I scolded Dina for stealing mangoes with her friends. Apparently he did not accept me scolding Dina, his anger at me also peaked until I was again grabbed and strangled.
After his anger subsided he worshipped apologizing for his extremely harsh treatment of me.
I don't care anymore, I'm tired of everything.
He also now daydreams, sometimes talking to himself. The point is that he came home from work. Since then, he no longer knows his wife and children.
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Miko was pensive to hear my story. "If she recovered from her amnesia, would you return to her, sister Nia?"
I was also speechless thinking about Miko's words just now.
"If you want to go back to her, I'm sincerely brother.as long as it can make your happiness return."
I looked at Miko's face. There was a sincere smile on his lips even though the eyes were misty, but he tried hard to cover them.
"Are you sure of all your words, Ko?"
"I'm sure that I most ask to be mutated to another city or I return to Singapore."
"Because the original purpose of my arrival was only to find you, sis."
"Now I have met and have discovered the fact that you are no longer alone."
:I do not blame you, here we do not speak who is wrong and who is right, here destiny speaks. We humans have millions of plans and desires but in the end God will decide all."
" Well, maybe we were reunited, but not to be united. Maybe you're meant to be a complement to my life, but not to my soul mate."
"That means we're going to split up again, Ko?" My voice started to crackle.
"Sister Nia.I am only a man Brother.I am not a Prophet who has extraordinary patience."
"I also have a heart.I have a sense.I will not be able to lose it a second time, but if it can restore your happiness, whatever I will do."
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