The Curse of Love
The Part 78 Ngidam
"Why.why is the path so rushed? it's mah, it's called brisk walking not taking it easy."
"Snap, bun..dad has not been able to stand it!!!"
"What do you want? Wanna boker?"
"Not bun, I'm going to vomit from now on."
"Daddy's stomach is so nauseous, this time dad's catching a cold."
"Faraway, if you go home.there are ah..."
Miko ran into the gutter and hung out there again. "Huek..huek...uh...has all come out again that you ate earlier, bun!!"
Massage the nape and back of his neck to reduce his pain and nausea. I smeared the same eucalyptus oil I always carried in my pocket.
Miko's face was deathly pale, a grain of cold sweat splashed on her forehead.
"Had you? Or still want to vomit again?"
"It's bun, later in the house pijitin dad yes, bun."
"Such lemes his body father, bun.sasa paternity energy as drained away."
We walked home. Even in my heart, "as I was pregnant first.mas Sofwan also experienced symptoms like the one Miko is experiencing now."
In my heart grew anxious, I was afraid that the child in my womb was not only Miko's son, but there was Sofwan's son as well.
"Dad why bun? Lt hurts? The feeling this morning was very eager to walk casually." Dina who was watering the flowers in the courtyard, greeted us.
"Yes, I'm sick again.dad want to rest first yes.say the same Juned and Syifa so that if you play do not be noisy, son!!" Miko said as she stroked Dina's hair.
"Yes, yeah.later Dina told me to chuck."
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"Jeek..huek...."
"Why, pah? Don't catch a cold coming home last night, yeah!!!"
"Aduh.papah also do not know, mah.pas wake up earlier it feels papah head dizzy and papah stomach nausea really."
"Is this like somebody else cravings, huh?"
"Huh? Ngevert?" I'm deep in heart.
"Aggita's pregnant again? Aisyah is only two months old?"
"But when Anggita was pregnant, I was safe not to experience any symptoms."
"Just...." Suddenly I was stunned!! Symptoms like this I experience every time Nia is pregnant."
"I felt his cravings, while he was fine."
Suddenly my neck felt weak, my heart became numb. "Is it possible that Nia is pregnant? Was it possible that when we had sex that night, I had planted my seed again in her womb?"
"But we only get in touch once? But did not rule out the possibility also at that time, Nia was in a state of fertile period?"
"It's mamah make warm tea, papah drink first, yes..."
"Thank you, mah! Maybe papah got sick from last night's rain." I reasoned.
I lay back next to Aisyah, my daughter with Anggita. My mind drifted back to a month ago. It didn't feel like a month I'd never see Nia again.
A miss? Don't ask me again, I miss him so much. Even crazier, I always imagined the hot night I had spent with my ex-wife.
Surely now he's happy, living with Miko, while I? I always live in the shadows of memories while still with him and it is very difficult to forget even though I have lived together with Anggita.
I looked at the cute face of Aisyah who was sleeping soundly. Then the faces of my three children came back when they were babies.
Tears do not drip from my eyelids. The children that I have now wasted even now I have never seen them again.
"Oh..my stomach is still nauseous, huh? lest it be true Anggita said that I was cravings.
I tried to go to the kitchen to find something that tasted sour to reduce the nausea.
"Did Nia know she was pregnant, huh? Well, it could be bad this way, how about tomorrow I go to the office, huh? Where my head is also dizzy again..."
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I sat in the back garden alone. The children in the room were playing a game and Miko was resting in the room.
"Am I trying to buy a test pack yes, I'm actually also curious..Is it true that I am pregnant now?"
"If I'm pregnant, then whose child is this? If this is Sofwan's son, I feel more sinful to my husband Miko."
"But if it's Sofwan's son, why is it that dad's cravings?"
"So remember Sofwan again, why is it so hard for me to forget him? He is now happy with his new family."
"If there were no problems that befell our households, if your family could accept my presence in their midst, we would still be together today."
"We used to dream of aging together, of seeing children grow up and mature until they got married, of holding our grandchildren."
But it turns out all dreams run aground. Man has a plan, but God determines it.
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Flashbacks
"Why is every one of you pregnant, always a mas who suffers anyway, deck? Nausea, vomiting. headache, no good eating, complete suffering that mas natural."
"While you? Not too nauseous, eating is also delicious, why be a mas that overflows of suffering?"
"Yes, how do I know!!! Maybe it's the baby's...."
"Bring the baby three-thirds compact, want to make his father miserable."
I just laughed when I heard Sofwan. Later after eating something sour, just subsided nausea and vomiting.
Actually pity also mas Sofwan, his job so neglected all because he was drunk because of cravings.
"Bun..why smile yourself? Something funny isn't laughing at you anymore, is it?"
"Eh...kok is up well? Already howdy? Already lost dizziness and nausea?"
"It's been a bit quiet, bun!! Not like this morning."
Miko sat next to me, her face still a bit pale.
"Daddy kepengen eat a wry, bun!! We go to the supermarket and buy fruits, yuk..."
"It's like it makes a good sound, huh, bun? Miko seemed to swallow her saliva many times.
I just shake my head while smiling at his behavior.
"Bun, he said he wanted a pussy!!!"
"Lho, the father himself had come straight to sleep..how did the mother want to mijetin?"
"Now yes, bun...all of you..all of you, well? It's obvious to say!!!"
"Two dips...." Miko said while grinning.
"Dyed two dyes what, yeah? Tea in the dips."
"I mean dip the other bun, dip into it you know, bun..." Miko pointed down.
"Ih.joroknya this father..not yet the sun rises above the head, have thought to it..aja!"
"Come, bun...Miko pulled my hand..."
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