The Grief of the Two Red Lines
Nada Curse

The days just pass by. Zaira chose silence not to ask about what made her heart scream.

A week passed. He had never met Revi at the Soul Poli. Their schedules always collide. Zaira also busied herself by adding to her work schedule on holidays.

Brian is still the same, not changed. He remained gentle and attentive as always. Even now it was Brian who felt that Zaira was reluctant to be touched. To kiss her forehead alone, she looked reluctant. This made Brian nervous. Zaira reasoned just to say she was too busy.

This morning, Zaira as usual, cooked for Brian. Brian hugged her from behind.

"Go, why not just do sports?" Zaira reasoned while releasing Brian's embrace. He was busy here and there picking up materials that were not really needed.

Brian was just standing behind him.

"Why?" Zaira asked again when she saw Brian just staring at her from behind.

He slowly grabbed his wife's hand. Make Zaira stop the activity.

"You're avoiding me." His speech that was only bowed looked at the fingers of Zaira in his hand.

"I'm not excited every day". Then he looked at his wife. "I don't know what makes you this way. Please forgive me for whatever it is." Hearing that, Zaira faintly. This man was never selfish. He always put his wife first, giving in and apologizing even though he himself did not know what his mistake was.

"The mistake I made, forgive me." He said, holding Zaira's hand tightly.

"What was your mistake?" Zaira wondered if Brian would admit it?

Brian shook his head. "No, I don't know. So whatever makes you this way, forgive me".

'yeah! Not admit.' Gerrutu Zaira was upset in her heart.

"If you don't feel wrong, why apologize?" Zaira asked annoyed. Reversing her body and stirring the boiling soup.

"Zaira, I beg you, let's say if something takes hold of your heart."

'Fucking brian. Do you think that kiss was not a mistake?' The meaning in the heart.

"There's no fault of yours, Mom. I'm tired."

Nah! Zaira turned off the stove. "I'll get ready for work, you get ready, Mom."

Brian pulled his hand. "Not having breakfast together?"

"No, I'm late". Zaira passed away. Brian was still in his place.

******

Zaira just sat at her desk. He glanced at his vibrating phone. See a new number appear on the screen.

"Hello, did I speak to doctor Zaira?" The voice across sounded cheerful.

"Yes, I'm alone. Sorry, who am I talking to?" Ask Zaira politely.

"Doctor? Don't you know my voice?"

"No, sorry, who is this?" Zaira leaned her body on her chair.

"I'm Tone, doctor. Do you still remember? The doctor let me into your room, will you?" His request to Zaira.

"May, go ahead." Speak lazily.

Ccr!

Zaira's door is open. A wave-haired woman was standing there with a cell phone she was holding in her ear. His nails look red. The skirt is short in pink with a white blazer. Very graceful, inner Zaira.

"Hi, doctor". The woman waved her phone indicating she was the one who called earlier.

Zaira shut the phone. "Sit down". He said as he walked and let Nada sit on the sofa.

"Well, the doctor's room is like no other, smaller". He said while looking around.

"It's me who doesn't like wide spaces." Zaira took two bottles of the drink from inside the mini-fridge in the corner of the room.

The woman has not sat down. He walked around looking at every corner. He stopped in front of the photos of Zaira on the table. Take a photo and show it to Zaira. "Who is the doctor's husband?"

Zaira saw the photo. Photos of her honeymoon with Brian on one of the beautiful beaches. Brian kissed the friendly cheek of Zaira who was laughing wide.

"Doctors know that my girlfriend is worried. When I arrived without news, his face looked surprised. But I can feel the corner of his heart being happy." He rambled at Zaira.

The doctor in front of him drank. Seem reluctant to listen.

"really?" Ask Zaira.

"He'em". Nod him while opening the bottle cap. "He's getting handsome every time I see him. I'm getting crazy. His cold attitude towards other women, considerate and meek. I miss him so much." The girl said softly. His eyes implied a warm longing.

"My words, he never changed. How he looked at me first, like that he's looking at me now. Doesn't that mean he still loves me, doctor?" Ask again, convincing what he felt all along.

"true." Reply doctor Zaira briefly who makes Nada happy.

"really, right? I always knew my gut." He said smiling while stroking his hair.

*****

Brian was pensive in the usual room he used to rest for a while. Mind floated. He leaned back on the chair while folding his hands. His eyes were fixed on the hot tea before him whose puff of smoke was still clearly visible.

The door sounds open. Andre came in with a file and a coffee bottle in both hands. He glanced at Brian. Not budging one bit. He didn't even know what his friend was thinking.

Andre sat in front of him. Didn't want to ask because Brian was later reluctant to tell him again.

"Busy, Ndre?" Ask Brian suddenly.

Andre sipped his coffee. "No".

Brian stared at the files that Andre was stacking on the table. I wonder if he should tell a story or not. Since he knew, surely Andre would not support him if it came to Rina.

Andre really hopes Brian tells the details of the problems he faces. He wants his best friend's household to be without problems.

"Zaira once asked me to be with another woman just so I could have a child and come back to her. But I refuse outright because..."

"Because you haven't met Rinnada and now you want to re-emphasize Zaira's request so you can be with Rinnada again. Right?"

Telak, Andre saw a surprised reaction from Brian's face.

"Sad. That bastard!". Andre murmured slowly but still heard by Brian.

Brian stayed there. Let Andre scold him. Because according to him, he deserves to be maki.

"When you went to college, you made a decision that I myself might not even be able to do. I salute you."

Yes, Andre remembers when he asked Brian to leave Rinnada who had a mental disorder. But Brian instead paid more attention to the girl, and tried to make her happy.

"Can you imagine, if it turns out Zairalah who met his first love and it turns out you are the one who was declared unable to have children? Is he going to ask the man to impregnate her? Do you approve?". Andre tried to get Brian to reflect, reverse the facts so that this man could think.

But it seems that the presence of Rinnada makes it difficult to think.

"He must have been here, right, a few weeks ago, when Zaira wanted to see you?"

Brian saw Andre. His look was like he didn't know. "really?"

"You're pretending you don't know?" Andre looked away. It makes no sense, he thought.

"I've guessed it". Brian drank tea in front of him. "That morning, we met again. He took my phone. I forgot to ask him again. I didn't know that Zaira sent me a message. When Zaira came, I saw that my phone was on my desk." Brian gave an explanation.

"How dare he." Andre put his hand on the table. "You.. Don't you think that Rinnada wouldn't do this?"

Brian took his breath.

"I'm sure Rinnada is dead." He told Brian firmly.

Brian turned his face away. Like knowing something that used to happen.

Seriate.....

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