The Grief of the Two Red Lines
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Brian was sitting on a long bench in the middle of town. He looked up at the sky that was almost covered in leaves from shady trees.

Brian smoked his cigarette, exhaling a wisp of smoke that came out of his mouth slowly. Looking at that wisp of smoke that was slowly disappearing above his head.

"Damn it! You're getting older, getting broken".

Brian didn't look, he knew the voice.

"You're smoking now, huh?"

Brian stared at the cigarette in his hand, "once." he replied briefly.

"What's wrong? You bother me, you know, last night was my first night". His grunts at Brian who told him to get up early.

Brian snuffed out his cigarette with his feet, he looked at Andre seriously.

"I almost kissed Zaira last night".

Andre rounded his eyes. "Seriously?"

Brian shook his head, "I was drunk, so I did it unconsciously."

"You know, in these three years it's not easy for him. Although it looks much better, behind it he has gone through the most tormenting thing in his mind".

Brian looked down, he knew very well what he had done, It's just that sometimes he couldn't really accept Zaira's decision. Because he didn't even touch Dinnara.

"I want to apologize to him. But I don't have an address or number".

"I can't tell you. You know, right. I promised him".

Brian was breathing out violently. "Then what should I do?"

"Forget it, Zaira also definitely did not care. You're coming home tonight?"

"I don't know yet."

Brian leaned his back, he had indeed bought a plane ticket for departure Tonight. But when he was with Zaira last night, he made her wish that his ex-wife would forgive him. These few years have really tormented him.

At papa Brian's funeral, Zaira does not refuse Brian's embrace. The woman even rubbed her back, Brian thought, she was forgiven and Zaira dropped the lawsuit. But alas, Zaira actually left without looking back, even saying the thing that made Brian's hope disappear.

"I beg you, stay here.." Brian hugged her tightly, as the people had already left the funeral by then.

Zaira let go of her embrace, her eyes reddened from crying all the way on the plane.

"I'm alone now, Ra. I'm totally ruined". Brian clasped Zaira's hand, hoping that in front of his father's grave, Zaira would change her mind.

"I'm alone, ma'am." He looked at me without looking at Brian. He looked down at Brian's hand.

"Then from that, Ra, we should be together. I'll change, I promise. These past few months have been very torturing for me".

"I can't anymore".

Brian knelt down, he looked up at Zaira. "I'll be whatever you want me to be, Ra. I'm tormented without you. I realize how much I love you, I really love you even more than I felt for Rinnada." Brian shed tears, his heart was very empty and great hopes arose there.

"Stand up, listen to me."

Brian said, he stood up.

"Look at me, I'll say this just once." Zaira took a slow breath. "What happened last hurt my feelings." Zaira said her sentence slowly so that Brian really understood what she was feeling.

"You know how loyal I am to you, and I don't even want to talk to other men about insignificant things. I protected you, I put my high hopes on you, mas. But what.." Zaira held back her sentence, she started to claustrophobic while tears continued to flow..

"But what you did, you tortured me with your choices and words. You said a sentence that hurt my feelings, I fought with my mind to keep forgiving you that long. The thing that makes me sick the most is my hope. Such a great hope for you. But since you didn't guard my heart, you hurt me, that hope was shattered. You destroyed it.."

"So, I beg you, I beg you, don't come back, don't come to me again. Please, don't show up in front of me".

Zaira wiped away her tears, she left Brian speechless with her tears. For Zaira, what Brian did, he had to accept his reward even if it hurt him too.

He just wants to heal his feelings without Brian. Because it's free, Brian returned, the ex-lover that Brian had done to him will continue to remember, until anytime. Because Zaira herself has not even been completely sincere about what is currently happening to her.

****

"Non, this time Mbok's not coming, huh?" Mbok Inah stood facing his employer who was preparing to go for a walk with Yara.

"Lho, why, Mbok?"

Zaira saw the face of Mbok Inah who was a bit pale. "Yes Mbok, there's a cure for dizziness, right?"

Mbok Inah nodded.

"Don't work, just rest. We go first, yeah". Zaira held Yara's hand.

"Bone, Mbok". Yara waved her hand at Mbok Inah.

"Wear the seatbelt, baby." Zaira helps Yara wear her seatbelt.

"Ma, where are we going?"

"Hmm, where are you going?"

Yara seemed to think. "She wants to eat eskim, ma.."

"That's all? Okay, we're going to the park, how?"

"Yee.." Yara's cheers in the car made Zaira even more excited.

They set off, heading for a location they often visit in the middle of the city.

Zaira stops her car, takes Yara down and plays in a small park.

The little girl had already made friends, she was playing while waving her hands at Zaira who was standing watching her.

"Zaira Bastany?" A man greeted him.

Zaira turned her head, furrowing her brows as her memory did not recognize the figure in front of her but instead knew her long name.

"justified? You, Zaira? Oh my God, the more beautiful it is. How are you?" She said to Zaira who looked dazed.

"Sorry, you..."

"I'm Gio. Oh, my God, you might forget!"

"Oh?" Zaira rounded her eyes. Maybe he forgot the face of his ex-girlfriend before he married Brian. "Gio?"

"Yes, I'm Gio. You're this, I'm offended that you forgot me". He said a little disappointed.

How not to know? If Gio has changed even his posture is also very good.

If in the past when dating Zaira, Gio was a little fat and his stomach was bulging, his face was clean without fur. As for now, he is athletic and there are fine hairs around his face.

"I'm sorry, Gio. I'm really not a sign, you changed once."

"really? Your face hasn't changed, Ra. You're even prettier as if you're not older". Gio said then chuckled.

"Thank you, you know. Oh yeah, who's here?"

Gio pointed to a boy who was playing a game.

"Your son?"

"Two times, Zaira. First, you don't know me. Second, you don't know I'm not married?"

Zaira shut her mouth. "I'm sorry.." He said and then laughed.

"That's my nephew. Since it was a holiday, he whined to ask me to accompany him here. That you?"

Zaira pointed at her little girl. "My son" he said with a smile.

"It's pretty, like her mother". Praise Gio and Zaira for just laughing.

"Oh yeah, didn't you move out of town?" Ask Zaira.

"Yes, I just moved in a month ago." The answer.

Gio and Zaira meet while undergoing a koas at the same hospital. Gio is a heart specialist, while Zaira is a thoracic surgeon. That's what makes them meet often.

Gio is a funny and fun figure in Zaira's eyes. He was also loving, so Zaira accepted. They dated for a long time, up to 2 years. Then because of a long-distance relationship, they both decided to separate and for 10 years did not meet. Even Gio did not come when Zaira invited him to her wedding with Brian.