I'm Not Ready
Blue lake, trembesi tree to witness

"Where are you going Mega?" Rahma's mother asked Mega because her daughter-in-law was busy in the kitchen.

"I want to go to her workplace, sister Dewa ma. May ma, want an ante lunch that I deliberately cooked."

"Gee... So romantic for you. Mama is so sad."

Mega smiled shyly.

"Returning from Bali, there is a significant change yes, related to the affairs of your heart," said Rahma's mother.

"Mama can do it."

"Yes, you've gone there, you'll be hunting God for lunch."

"Yes ma.

"Oh yeah, you didn't call first? Let him wait for you and not have lunch outside."

"Em, don't go ma. Mega just set out, deliberately all making a surprise for the brother of God."

"Yes, be careful."

"Yes ma, Assalamualaikum."

"Wa aleikum salam."

In contrast to the God who was forced by Arumi, entered in one of the hotel rooms not far from his work space.

"What the hell is this? You're crazy Arumi. What do you want to do?" ask the God who did not act as usual.

"Why? Are me and Mega the same? This isn't? The way you're treating Mega now." Arumi who walks closer leads to her lover.

"Arumi," the God shrieked with his unstable breath.

Their bodies had eroded the distance, both of his hands trying to remove the field's busty male buttons. Looking up, staring into the eyeballs of the man she loved so much.

"I beg you to stop Arumi, please" God said as he stopped Arumi's two hands.

"Why? You said yourself, you'd treat me and Mega the same. Anyway I'm sure, with you changing like this, you must be in Bali already..."

"Stop! I can't do it."

"Why?" look at Arumi inside and hurt her more.

"Your mind is full of that woman's face?"

"Enough Arumi!" firmly the God who he himself was also very confused with his life now. "If I could choose, there's no Mega and the baby between us. What do I have to convince you of over and over again? If my love is so great for you. But you don't seem to believe. And keep pushing me. Everyone is urging me. Especially Mega's sister. You know what, don't you?" The gods are no less sad when they say so.

Arumi hugged her lover. Trying to understand the state of the distressed God.

"I'm sorry, honey. I'm just afraid of losing you. I promise I will try not to sue you again. But I beg you not to break the promise to divorce her after Mega's son is born."

The god nodded small as they hugged.

Along with the heavy crying from Mega who caught the two of them. Capture their conversation from the beginning. Mega can conclude, if all that God says is mere bullshit. It's all bullshit. Mega went away from the two who were still blustering. Still carrying a lunch bushel for her husband boarded his booked online taxi.

Inside the online taxi Mega cried great. Remembering everything they had just said and done for the past few days. God's plea for him to stay and not leave. It was hard to believe, if her husband turned out to be good at playing with words. And now say the same thing to her lover. It was as if the ground suddenly fell. Force him to breathe, even though his lungs are zero without o two.

The online taxi driver who had been tormented by his ears. Heard Mega's heartbreaking cry and she wasn't strong enough to see it. "Where are we going, ma'am?"

"We're going to the blue lake, sir."

"Yes, ma'am."

Mega's memory of the honeymoon vacation in Bali wriggled to the surface of his head. He told her to remember everything about her husband. What he had been hard to guess, so quickly the Gods could change words.

Mega is so excited about her husband. In her tears she was not aware of************** her shirt was wearing. Until we reached the blue lake. Mega still lowered her tears.

"Oh, thank you sir." Mega paid her and left immediately.

But the driver is aware if there is something left in the passenger seat. "Sir, the challenge.."

"Make a father," cried Mega who continued to look for a long wooden chair near the lake, under the trembesi tree.

It was very calm to breathe cold air near the lake. Even though it was noon, still the cold was felt because of its place not far from the mountain. The wind was constantly greeting and did not stop dropping fragile branches from the top of the tree. Of course with light leaves flying. Reconcile a cloudy heart with problems about feelings.

Mega sat down and lamented her regrets. "I shouldn't believe it. I should have realized, sis, if your heart belongs to Arumi and not to mine," followed by the melted tears that had been wet on both cheeks. Mega who still can't believe what her husband is doing.

Mega who had just made his heart soar into space by a God. Today, it seems to be isolated far away at the north pole. Cold and torturous. It slowly freezes and cannot feel anything like any other living thing.

Holidays in Bali, as if reluctant to stop torturing her. One by one to be discussed by logic. Eating together with a friendly for the first time, bobbing together without feeling awkward God who Mega who. Oh... It was all too painful to end up in an uncoercive union between the two that asked to be discussed by his head.

"I'm sorry mommy, son, if you continue to torture you with your cries. Okay... Mother will be strong for you, baby. And the promise will be fine. Mother will be a strong and not fragile mother for the mother's child. "Mega who stroked his stomach. Get the baby to talk and live the household life."

Until the sun almost sinks Mega is in a blue lake. A messy heart since. Looking for plausible reasons for not meeting her husband this afternoon.

While at home. Rahma's mother was surprised by the God who went home alone. "Where's Mega?"

"Why, did you ask God? God has just returned. Not Mega at home," by kissing the back of her mother's hand and kissing Rahma's mother's cheek.

Rahma's mother looked confused. "Say, your wife was going to the lunch anter's office."

God stupefied. Where in those hours he and Arumi are together. Discussing their relationship that has been fine as ever.

"Assalamualaik."

"Wa alaikum salam. Mega, where are you from?" asked Rahma's mother who was being kissed on the back of her hand by her daughter-in-law.

"Oh, sorry, brother. I planned to bring lunch to my sister's workplace. But suddenly my friend was sick, so I looked at him and forgot. Because long time no see we talk until the afternoon. Sorry, sister, ma," Mega lied to both of them.

Gods relieved. Apparently the prejudice is wrong. And Mega knew that if God felt any relief if he didn't see her and Arumi. But what happened the opposite.

"Yes Allah... I'm worried, where are you going?"

"Yes ma, next time Mega tell me.

"Yes, you're in the shower, and you're down. We'll have dinner together. Because papa's out of town."

"Yes ma."

After that they were over dinner. The gods are still concerned with making a glass of milk pregnant women vanilla favorite Mega. "Pregnant mother drinks milk first yes," by giving one glass of vanilla milk to Mega and help Mega drink into her mouth.

"I can be alone brother," said Mega did not want to drift too deep with the sweet word cradle from her husband.

Mega turns to the dressing table and avoids the gaze of the God who can drown her at any time.

"Why are you?" asked the God to approach his strange wife.

"Why what?"

"Yes, that's weird."

Mega switched places again up to the bed. "There's nothing, brother, just the feeling of a brother." Mega pulled the blanket. Turn off the lights near his bed and lay down his body.

God thinks what's wrong with his wife. Go on the same bed. Clutching his wife's body from behind and trying to be changed position by God to face each other.

Mega agreed, without any rejection. The fear of the Gods was suspicious even though the crystal clear circles dripped one by one reminiscent of the events earlier this afternoon.

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