I'm Not Ready
I wasn't ready

"Hey, don't expect it! Don't expect me to marry you. And I wasn't ready for that. I'm not ready" added the God who tried to brush off, dodge or anything related to the bond of marriage with the woman before him now.

"So I think I'm ready. I'm not ready either" said Mega who repeated the same word that is not ready. A word that both voice to translate if both are completely unprepared. "I, even soon my body is fat and my stomach is enlarged. Does your sister understand that? Can you imagine my feelings?" the tone that was initially slow along with the rest of the biting turned into a question of repression that suddenly made the God finally bowed.

With small head movements shaking repeatedly, the God seemed to pull over and immediately wanted to run from reality. The shadow marries a woman he does not love. Of course it will hurt the feelings of his lover, Arumi. The woman who since college never changed her status. The woman who has always been and reigns in her heart since the past and present.

A flash of Arumi's name is engraved real, when Mega asked for his rights. Of course, with only being able to marry and be recognized by the state, then his name will clearly be listed on the birth certificate of the child in his womb. "I'm not ready to answer." The god turned his back and was about to leave, but was held back by Mega by grabbing God's wrist. Fuck the word don't know. Fuck the word scared him who's Mega who. Because after all, there was a seed in her womb. The man in front of her was the father of the seed.

"When can you answer it?"

The god took off the wrist plan that was reached by Mega. "Give me some time."

"When?"

"Don't push me. Once I said I wasn't ready, I wasn't ready." The deity then continued the steps along with the five words he took out as he left in the presence of Mega. "I'll call you back."

Mega is still in the same position. Not moving on and still looking at the back of the sinless man who now vanished behind his car.

After that, he continued the cry that had been silent since. Closing his face with both palms and perhaps only Mega could feel how deeply his grief was.

Mega has been in the city park for quite a while. His mind was afraid not to know what to do? Talk to who? Her brother, no way. Her friend, shy. There can only save his sorrow well.

Mega then moved away from the city park. Willing to cross the road but because his mind is chaotic, he almost stuck or can even be hit by a car.

Fortunately, the driver of the car was Zahrin. Zahrin was quite panicked and automatically got out of the car.

"Mega," surprised Zahrin when he found out that the woman he almost hit was his ex-sister-in-law.

"Sister Zahrin."

"You're not going to be careful, Mega, fortunately you're driving." Zahrin's face was certainly panicked and brought his former sister-in-law in the car. "What are you doing? You're crying?" asked Zahrin who saw the face following Mega's eyes that looked as if the person finished crying.

Mega only smiled faintly which she tried to force with a glance towards Zahrin. "Can't you drive the car now?" ask her slowly to distract her ex-sister-in-law.

Mega nodded with pleasure. Mega's length asks about Arsyad and Arsyla. From who takes care of the baby twins her ex-sister-in-law. The length of the Zahrin also chimed in on what was questioned by Mega. Zahrin forgot what he asked his ex-sister-in-law.

Sitting both in the car, Mega felt a lot of changes to her former brother-in-law. Moreover, her kebawel grew especially when busy receiving calls from her husband. From reminiscent of lunch, dhuhur prayers and bla bla bla mercifully long beat the train tracks. And Mega could only smile at Zahrin.

"Why?" ask Zahrin to Mega when closing the phone.

"No. I see, sister, if you already have children."

The car has entered the Mall parking area. And Zahrin concentrated on parking his car first. "Yes, you will also feel later if you have children. Your carelessness for your husband will increase. The interests and ripples of the coachman debate from A to Z color your daily life, especially when it comes to children's affairs."

Glug

Mega fell silent, painstakingly swallowing her saliva.

They both got out of the car and went into the mall. Don't know why? The initial entry in the baby supply store is on the final list, after shopping for home needs following diapers, baby food and baby milk and anything related to babies. The baby owl and baby bunny are nicknamed by their extended family Regi.

Yeah, Arsyad's son is nicknamed the baby Owl because of the look in his eyes while staring at everyone as scary as the eyes of an owl child. While Arsyla nicknamed baby bunny which means her son from a rabbit because it looks like a rabbit whose fur is smooth and adorable when jumping up and down.

"Haha..." Mega laughs when Zahrin tells the story of Arsyad who is nicknamed baby owl and baby bunny by the family of her husband. While Zahrin has no power, rather not willing actually, if the handsome and sweet son and daughter are given the nickname. "We're going in here, brother?" asked Mega why she said Zahrin would shop for necessities that run out of Arsyad and Arsyla suddenly changed direction when Zahrin saw the clothes are funny and adorable.

"This is the last list of real brother Mega. But it's okay. We came here first yes," said Zahrin who enthusiastically entered the baby supply store.

While Mega. Mega still pegged on the doorway wide glass that had opened earlier. His gaze circulated like his whipping. Screaming loudly that he will fight for the rights of the child who is now in his womb. At a minimum, his father's name looks real when his son questions who his father is.

"Mega... Enter," Zahrin codes to his former sister-in-law who is still between sculpting and half daydreaming.

Mega slowly entered. Seeing baby trinkets that are true said his former sister-in-law if everything related to babies is really interesting. Mega involuntarily spoke softly and touched her flat stomach. "Mother will fight for you dear, no matter what your father will behave like later," said Mega very clearly heard by Zahrin.

"Mother, baby, dad. "Why Mega? You...?" Zahrin can really translate everything. Mega's palm touched her stomach. Mega's eyeballs are drawn something that Zahrin can capture very closely what it means.

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