I'm Not Ready
There's no hope

One night passed.

"I want to buy equipment for Rania first yes dear," said Dewa to Mega who can walk as usual because giving birth normally.

"Yes, brother" replied Mega.

"When will you call me with that call?" the Lord's protest moreover their son was born. "You know, if Rania's a little big, she's very easy to mimic what you're saying. Do you want to? he also called me brother later."

Mega blushed in shame. Before her, she had been warned by Zahrin to call her husband a romantic. But he doesn't bother. As a result, today she is as required to be more friendly to her husband. "What should I call you?" ask Mega with a hue on both cheeks.

The god is getting closer, knowing that his wife is being put to shame. Grabbing the beard of the woman who still looks beautiful even without any makeup on her face. The god then attaches his aunt to his wife's aunt for a while but is full of meaning. And thereafter. "Call it like I called you. Honey," she shrieked right near Mega's ears that gave her goosebumps.

The god then leaves but not on his thumb which is still petting small and repeated on his wife's right cheek. Not yet the gaze of the Gods after Mega after giving birth. Want to immediately master his wife and enjoy her with different situations.

If the beginning of making Rania, his brain is dominated by alcoholic beverages and of course there is no love, that is desire alone. Unlike the second union which is fairly slow and slow due to Mega pregnant young. And after counting, he only did it four times. There has not been a word of heat, death, tempest and smoldering when the two play together.

The god then left his wife. It didn't take long for him to arrive at the store selling baby supplies. The gods go around and choose everything that Rania needs her daughter. Of all, the red-orange color makes the eyes of God stunned and always enter anything if it is related to the color. Remember, the baby is a girl.

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And elsewhere.

Arumi and her mom are preparing for a health check at the hospital after the accident. Thirty minutes drive to the hospital and take him to the doctor's office who has made an appointment first.

The doctor also explained that Arumi's overall health had been good and that day was his last control.

"Thank you doc" said Clarisa's mother, glad to hear. Her daughter no longer takes drugs from the hospital every morning, day and night anymore.

"Sama-sama Ma'am," replied the friendly doctor.

Arumi and Clarisa's mother were about to go home, but suddenly Arumi wanted to urinate instead of having to hold her home and would cause her stomach to hurt. "Ma, I'm going to the toilet for a second, Mom, wait in the car." Arumi and her mama are already in the parking area and have her mama get in the car and wait for her inside.

Time has made him lose the love of the man. Time also makes them can not be as comfortable as before when he first called the name of the man with his name. Wanting to shout the God whom he usually called dear, his lips were faint. Arumi hesitates and chooses to stalk the man where he is going .

But after that he was able to walk through parts of the hospital without the knowledge of his former lover. Arumi was stunned to see the writing on the board located above the wooden door. Maternity Room.

"Mega has given birth," she softly cried and sounded bitter. Not long his eyeballs glazed over and half lowered his head. Arumi kept sneaking into the room. And true to her guess, Mega gave birth.

He saw Mega was cradling the baby with a stomach that already looks flat. The gods also look very happy. The big smiles of the two emanated if they desperately wanted to be together with their newborns to the world.

Tears are powerless for Arumi. Many of the clear circles fall alternately wetting both sides of the cheeks. Seeing them both happy, it hurt a lot. His feet were like he was falling and walking on the coals of fire. Heat and of course burning until the skin feels peeled off. "You won the Mega. You and your son, have already obtained the love of the Gods completely. You managed to snatch him away from me." Arumi who did not stop from the tears she had shed. The little bobbing of the head repeated over and over, as if to brush off everything that was seen before the eyes was a mere dream. But damn, everything was a fact and for his next life, there was no name of the God enthroned anymore in his heart. I don't know, it doesn't feel ready. Must lose all the love of God that used to be just his. Semantical.

Arumi left, rubbing the rough tears that were scattering with her palms. Accidentally, his feet hit the single chair lined up in front of the room to make the Gods turn to the source of the sound. But after the Gods saw him come out, there was no one. And he chose to close the door.

Although Arumi. Get in the toilet and cry big in there. Two words, not ready, to move on with her next life without the man. The first man who had already taken control of his entire heart. His love he carved in and he put it in the most special place. But alas, destiny goes on and is not on his side. Arumi then washed her face, realizing that she had left her mother in the car for too long.

Arriving in the car. Not yet Clarisa's mother complained if her daughter was long, Arumi had already hugged her tightly and voiced her cries. Clarisa's mother is confused about what happened to her daughter.

"What's the matter, baby?" tanya subtly Clarisa's mother by rubbing her covered back with Arumi's long hair.

"I saw God and his wife who had given birth, they were in the delivery room," replied Arumi who was fairly uneventful because Isak was reluctant from his crying.

Clarisa's mother took off her daughter's embrace and removed the wet trail that had gone wrong. "You are patient, yes" he said with eyes no less teary. Mother's feelings, no doubt feel hurt when seeing her daughter played by a man.

"Arumi is not willing to ma," he softly cried out in a deep sigh.

Clarisa's mother wiped her own tears with a piece of tissue. Throwing out his breath that had made his chest feel tight. Resuscitated her daughter's head to lean on her right shoulder. "Mama is sure you can get better than God."

Arumi shook her head between unwilling and unlikely that she could forget the Gods in such a quick time.

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