Love For Him
Found her

Devan seemed silent for a moment then he opened his voice. "Two days ago Friska tried to kill herself again."

The words that Devan said successfully for Rendi were very surprised, Rendi had not yet responded to Devan's words, the man in front of her resumed his speech.

"I'll take him to Singapore. Maybe it's good he calmed down there. I don't want to leave him here alone. I'm afraid he'll ruin your house and Amel's."

"Why is he trying to kill himself again?" Rendi still can't understand, why Friska always tries to kill herself.

"The reason is still the same as before. He can't accept that you belong to Amel."

The joint retraced in a deep breath. "Then how is he?"

"For the time being his condition has improved. Before, she always cried and cried hysterically when she remembered you. It seems like she's very depressed about losing you. His feelings are very vulnerable at the moment. I think it's better if you give him some understanding. Don't stay away from him, it will only hurt him and make him more depressed. Give her Ren's understanding in a gentle way. I'm afraid he'll try to kill himself again. I just feel sorry for him" Devan said with a look of pity.

"All right, I'll talk to him. Where is he?" Rendi also felt that Devan's words had a point during this time she continued to avoid Friska.

"That room. Come inside." Devan pointed to the room occupied by Friska.

Rendi stood up while nodding. "You can talk to my wife for a minute while I'm meeting Friska, but remember, don't even think about taking her away from me." Rendi just wanted to make everything clear. He still has to be wary of Devan.

Devan did not respond to Rendi's remarks. He then walked towards the living room to meet Kenan and Amel, after seeing that Rendy had already entered into the room occupied by Friska.

Rendi looked silently at Friska who was sitting on a chair while looking at the scenery outside the window. "Ellen." call Rendi in a soft voice.

Friska immediately turned her head when she heard the voice she had longed for so long. "Why are you here?" asked Friska with teary eyes.

Admittedly Frsika, she deeply missed the figure of the man who was standing staring sadly at her. He was eager to hug the much loved man.

"Devan told me you were going to Singapore this afternoon. Therefore, I'd like to talk to you for a while before you leave."

Rendi slowly walked over to Friska, then sat down next to Friska. "How are you? Are you all right? Why do you look so skinny? Didn't you eat right?" asked Rendi with a trembling voice. He felt sad when he saw Friska's state that looked very alarming.

Very thin body, thin face, sunken eyes and puffy, there are dark circles under his eyes, hair just decomposed and pale lips. The look in his eyes described a very deep wound.

Friska immediately shed tears as Rendi asked her condition. "I'm fine Ren. I. i.. i...." Friska was not to continue her words. Her tears had already been shed without being prevented again.

Seeing Friska begin to cry, Rendi clasped the frail body into her arms. Her heart was as if it was sliced to see Friska looking so fragile.

“I'm sorry for making you like this, Ellen. I shouldn't have ignored you and been cold to you. Seeing your life fall apart like this makes my heart hurt,” said Rendi in a soft voice. Friska felt Rendi's body tremble, like she was holding her tears out.

“Ren...” Friska spoke in a very soft voice while releasing her embrace.

Rendi then clasped Friska's hand. “I'm sorry. Sorry Ellen for ruining your life. Seeing you keep trying to end your life feels so painful to me.” Tears of Rendi had already dripped down her cheeks without her being able to prevent it.

Friska looked surprised to see Rendi crying. Just this time, she saw Rendi shed her tears again, other than when she learned of Kila's death and after parting ways with Amel.

“Ren...” Friska's tears grew louder hearing Rendi's words.

“I think by moving away from you, it can make you think to stop loving me and be able to let go of me by yourself. I never thought that my attitude, which always ignored you, made you lose your mind. It's because of my cold attitude that you become like this. You can't tell which is wrong and which is right. You don't know when it's time for you to stop and let go. I shouldn't have ignored you. I should have been more patient in dealing with your attitude until you didn't expect my love anymore.” Rendi clasped Friska's hand tightly with a guilty face.

“I keep thinking about it. Maybe if I hadn't ignored you in the past and patiently given you some understanding and didn't stay away from you, maybe you could have let me go willingly and we could all live happily. Maybe you won't end up like this. Maybe we can be like before, not hate and hurt each other. Forgive my selfish attitude all this time Ellen. Forgive me for ignoring you and not trying to understand how you feel. I should have treated you well instead of staying away from you.”

Friska became even more sick when she saw Rendi agitate because of it. He hugged Rendi with guilt as well. “You're not wrong Ren. I was wrong. I shouldn't have kept forcing you to be with me. I shouldn't have been so stubborn that it made you and Amel feel the pain of my selfishness. Because my haughty thoughts are also what make us all hurt.”

Rendi let go of Friska's embrace. “If I don't ignore you anymore, can you go back to being the old Ellen? As long as it is not love, I can give it all to you and obey all your desires. I'll be the warm Rendi I used to be, but can you live well in the future? Can you let go of all your feelings for me?” look at Rendi with a sad face.

Friska. “I need time, Ren. It's not easy for me to just take you off. I've liked you for a long time. I've been thinking about it over and over again these few days. We may not be destined to live together. No matter how hard I've been trying to keep you by my side if we're not a match. You still won't be mine.”

During his stay with Devan, Friska pondered a lot and was alone. Fortunately, there was Devan who patiently faced him.

“I think when you took me to Bali back then, you really let me go. I never thought it was a good-bye from you because you wanted to end your life again. Ignoring you all this time was hard on me, Ellen. I had to do it because I thought it was the best way for us so you wouldn't expect my love again. Turns out I was wrong. It is precisely my indifference that makes you uncontrollable. I'm really sorry Ellen for turning you into this.”

Rendi wiped off Friska's tears. “Why go to Singapore, can you calm your mind?”

“I don't know either. I just want to find a new atmosphere, Ren. I have to heal my heart wounds first, before starting a new sheet.”

Rendi nodded. “Alright if that is your decision. I hope you can quickly get the wound healer I inflicted on you.”

“Thank you, Ren.” Friska looked at Rendi. “Can I hug you one last time? I miss you so much, Ren. Let's just say that this is a farewell hug to let go of all my feelings for you.”

Rendi immediately hugged Friska. “I'm sorry Ellen for not being able to reciprocate your feelings of love. Thank you for loving me all this time.”

Friska nodded. He returned his tears. “I never regret having loved you, Ren.” Friska let go of her embrace. He then wiped his tears.

“Have you eaten?”

Friska nodded. “Hhmmm.”

“Did you have any trouble during your stay here?”

“No.”

“Did Devan treat you well?”

“Iyaaa.”

“Did he ever hurt you?”

Friska shakes. “No. She was very nice to me.”

Rendi nodded in relief. “Good. What time are you leaving for Singapore?”

“I don't know. Devan takes care of everything.”

After agreeing to Devan's invitation. Friska never asked about their departure. Devan just said they were leaving in the afternoon. He asked Friska to prepare the item she wanted to bring.

“Do I need to take you to Singapore?”

Friska shakes. “No need, Ren. Dawdling with you only makes me more and more unable to let go of you.”

“Good. Did your parents know you were going to Singapore?”

“Already. Devan called papa last night.”

Devan kept his promise to ask permission from his parents. Somehow Devan convinced his father. Friska was a little surprised that her father allowed Devan to take her to Singapore.

“Why is your phone inactive?” Rendi tried several times to contact Friska when she heard from Kenan that Friska was trying to kill herself again.

“My phone went missing on the beach when I tried to kill myself. Devan just bought me a cell phone. I'll send you a message with my new number later.”

Actually Friska tried not to contact Rendi until she could let go of Rendi. She was just afraid that if she was still in contact with Rendi, she would not be able to shake off her feelings of love.

Rendi nodded in understanding. “Come. There's Kenan outside. I came here with Kenan and Amel. Kenan is very worried about you. Talk to him before you go.”

Friska's face looked a little surprised. “Good.” Friska standing. “Did Amel know you were here with me?”

“I asked him for permission earlier.”

“Good.” Friska walked out ahead of Rendi.

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