Love For Him
The Desire to Stay Alive

Amel could no longer hold his body weight while inside the elevator, after exiting the treatment room Rendi. With a blank look his body sat on the floor. His entire body trembled, cold sweat drenching his body.

With the rest of his strength he had, he tried to stand up, but his efforts were in vain. He fell down again, his body limp as if it had no more energy. Fortunately, the elevator was empty, and there was no one but Amel in the elevator.

He was trying to stay strong at this moment. It was never imagined in his mind, that Rendi would hide the bitter truth that made his heart break into pieces.

Amel tried his hardest to step out of the elevator. He walked towards the hospital exit with a broken cry. Every now and then he was seen bumping into someone who was walking towards him, all he thought at the moment was to go as far away from the hospital as possible.

He did not want to see Randy again. Amel then stopped a taxi, when he was outside the hospital. Along the way, he remained silent with tears flowing down his cheeks. He tried to cover his mouth with both hands, so that his sobs would not be heard by the taxi driver.

Arriving at his boarding house, Amel immediately entered. He sat weakly behind the door of his room. Amel just silently stared straight ahead.His cheeks were still wet with tears. He started sobbing again as he remembered all Friska's words.

She still could not accept the fact that Rendi was engaged, even until now she could not forget her fiance.

All this time Amel thought that the man would never betray him. Amel thought that the excessive jealousy and possessiveness of Rendi all this time was because Rendi loved him very much, but reality said otherwise. In Rendi's heart there are other women who can not be replaced by anyone, including himself.

After crying, Amel walked to the bed. He tried to lay down his tired body, a notification sound came in on his phone. A little reluctantly, Amel grabbed the phone in his pocket. When he opened his phone screen.

Her cry broke again when she saw the wallpaper of her phone.Rendi's peaceful face clearly plastered with her eyes closed on the screen of her phone. It was a photo that Amel took secretly while Amel Rendi was asleep. A picture of the man she loved so much. The man who became his first love. The man he had never been able to eliminate for these 2 years from his mind.

Suddenly, all the memories of being with Rendi flashed through his mind. Amel tried to close his eyes with a moving hand erasing the tears coming out of the corner of his eye. He tried to forget the pain given by Rendi. It didn't take long for Amel to fall asleep.

*****

“You're aware?” asked Doctor Jhon when he saw Rendi open her eyes.

“How are you feeling now?” timpal doctor Bianca was quick when he saw Rendi look silent.

Rendi looked at Doctor Jhon and doctor Bianca who were standing by his side in turn. “Kak, I have to go to explain to Amel this misunderstanding,” said Rendi calmly when she saw the anxious face of doctor Bianca.

Doctor Bianca advanced towards Rendi. “Yes, but we have to talk first. It's about your pain,” said doctor Bianca looked seriously at Rendi.

Rendi looked up at Doctor Bianca for a moment. “Say what's up?” Rendi wakes up from her sleep and restores her sitting position assisted by doctor Bianca.

Doctor Jhon put both of his hands in the pocket of his doctor's suit. “We must go to America immediately. Tomorrow all the documents of your move will be taken care of soon, including your school as well. once all is done, we will go directly to America.”

“I don't want..!! there was still something I had to take care of at sinim” Rendi turned her gaze to the side while doctor Jhon was staring intently at her.

Bianca held onto Rendi's shoulder with her left hand. “We must immediately overcome the brain injury you experienced Ren. Otherwise it will be fatal for you,” said Bianca reminded.

Randy looked calm. “Am I going to die soon?” ask Rendi flat.

Doctor Bianca nodded. “Yes, if you keep insisting on no treatment and surgery. Didn't I ever remind you not to fight and do things that can trigger your disease again,” exclaimed doctor Bianca a little high in his last sentence.

Doctor Bianca looked at Rendi again with a serious face when she saw that Rendi was silent. “Conditions are getting worse Ren. Suffered brain injury, can not be silenced. You shouldn't hide from us that before your fight, there was a rebound in your brain, let alone add to your recent fights and the powerful shocks you're riding on those extreme rides, triggering bruising and bleeding again your brain,” explained doctor Bianca who saw Rendi looking straight ahead like she was thinking about something.

the terrible accident that Rendi experienced at that time was very severe. The violent collision during the accident, made heavy bleeding in the head and in Rendi's brain. He almost died if he was late for surgery. Rendi was the only survivor of the accident.

His heart stopped beating at that moment. The doctor and his family thought that Rendi would never wake up again. On the way to the hospital, Rendi stopped breathing. The brain injury experienced by Rendi was very severe, even Rendi lost a lot of blood at that time. Rendi did not even know that she had been in a coma for 3 months.

It took a long time for him to be able to perform normal activities again after waking up from a coma.

The doctor pulled out a chair and sat down next to Friska and faced Rendi.

“I heard from Amel, if you have shown a change in behavior in terms of emotional. You also often complain of headaches, your ears also often ringing, your vision starts to blur, you are also easily tired and you have trouble sleeping, it means your condition is getting worse Ren.”

“Then what should I do?” asked Rendi without looking.

“We must immediately seek treatment and perform the operation as soon as possible,” explained Bianca.

“What this time, I can get away with like I used to? Can I live after the operation? What is the percent success rate of this operation?” cecar Rendi's. Rendi asked a lot of questions and looked at Doctor Jhon with a calm face.

“We will try our best for the success of the operation this time,” said doctor Jhon assured Rendi.

Rendi who was not satisfied with the answer doctor Jhon again asked the question again. “Can you guarantee I'll be safe this time?” asked Rendi with raised eyebrows. “If you are not sure..So, I do not want to be operated on,” continued Rendi again when she saw doctor Jhon seemed silent and could not give a definite answer to him.

Doctor Bianca adjusted her breathing for a moment. He tried to suppress his emotions. “Do you plan to just die Ren.!!” bianca's doctor asked a little loudly when he saw Rendi's stubbornness.

Rendi turned to look at the doctor Bianca who was seen staring at him. “Kak.. I also want to live, even I really want to live, especially after meeting Amel. Sometimes I think, Is this my punishment for what happened back then? Am I not worthy of living happily like everyone else?" said Rendi with a frustrated face.

"My request is not much. I just want to live my life, even though I know that my pain is getting worse.I always try to survive because I want to stay alive. I am also actually tired of pretending to look okay in front of you guys,” said Rendi Lirih.

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