Rajasa
The Heart that is Broken

Women's hearts if likened to a book or novel is a story that is very difficult to understand especially if the reading is not able to understand the sentence or purpose or draw conclusions from the book he reads.

Edelweis delivered Rajasa and Ryan's departure while Roy was busy taking care of his screen printing t-shirt business and could not delegate it to anyone because he had not found an employee who could replace his current job.

"I'll get us some coffee." Ryan walked ahead of them.

"We'd better go look for it" suggested Edelweis.

"no need. There's something I need to find, too. For the eye sign there and I forgot to buy it because so much preparation has to be done."

"As far as you go."

"Why don't you come with me and Ryan? You used to make me and Roy steak to persuade us to give you extra time off. Are you happy to go against the rules? Or lie about your dream job or fear a tiger?" Rajasa asked after Ryan passed from before them.

Edelweis.

Rajasa glared furiously, "I have no intention of being funny. Hold you accountable."

"Imresponsible? Did I impregnate you and indeed you can get pregnant?" Edelweis is getting worse.

Rajasa was silent.

"Have you been satisfied with your laughter?"

"Funny right?"

Rajasa just fell silent.

"You why the hell?"

"What are you doing?"

"Do you want to know why?"

Rajasa nodded his head and focused his attention.

"You love chasing beautiful women. So I'm not disturbed I'm not coming. How's it?"

"What kind of reason is that? You know exactly that I'm after them I must really need your help." said smiling cynically and disappointedly, "I can't accept your absurd and far-fetched excuses. The fact is I lost someone I could enslave and exploit!"

Turn Rajasa laughed seeing Edelweis suddenly jutek.

"That's the reason! I don't want to be enslaved and exploited!" his face was bent into a thousand folds.

"Copy paint and sneaky, plowing excuses that I made careless."

"It's not arbitrary but the truth value is very accurate!"

"Hell up!"

"I can't leave my mother and my sisters. No signal in the forest for long. They'll have trouble contacting me. I don't want to trouble my mother's mind."

"If your brothers would be happy if you didn't exist!" Rajasa.

"Sokay know!"

"Why did you refuse a scholarship and a job as a journalist? You proposed and wanted it. Once you get it, you just let it go? Is that how you want something based on ego and obsession? Just proof that you can get it? Don't tell me there's no signal in a country like that?"

"I'm still traumatized and I don't know if I'm ready for everything because everything happens at about the same time? What if it repeats? I can go crazy and get smashed to pieces. Not to mention.."the voice of Edelweis hanging cut off Rajasa's speech.

"I, you and Roy. You're the only one who gave up and let go?"

"I.."the eyes of Edelweis heat up.

"Hey! We have to check in!" call Ryan.

"I'm sorry, we'll call again, okay? If you change your mind you already know who to call? Ryan and I are waiting for you to join us. Anytime!"

Edelweis nodded his head.

"Please be good! Don't flirt!"

Kontan Edelweis laughed.

"Hmm, hump! It says don't be the exact opposite of what you did!"

"You're always suspicious! That flirtatious you're not me!"

"Eitherway! I don't want you to be glimpsed by other men especially if you're with Roy, watch out!"

"Why indeed?"

"I will never forgive you both!"

"Who would apologize to you? Who feels guilty? When is love wrong?"

Rajasa stopped his steps.

Look straight at Edelweis.

"You love Roy?"

"What am I talking about?"

"You don't love me?"

"You why the hell?"

"Who the hell do you love?"

"Do you really want to know?"

Rajasa nodded his head.

Edelweis smiled broadly.

"SECRETTY!!!"

"Review you!!!"

Edelweis.

"You said yourself that you and Roy would wait for me to grow up and let me vote without any coercion."

"I'm sorry I said it. Can I correct?"

"Could certainly."

"Well, I'm not waiting for you to grow up and I don't care if you choose me by force."

"Well, it'll be another century."

"One more century?"

"You can correct it in a century. You still have to give me time."

"ah! Nevermind! Could mess up my brain against you. Ryan and I go first. Take care of yourself."

"You too?"

"You didn't tell me I wasn't working there? Borneo there are many beautiful women."

"Can I just ban it?"

"Not really...."

Edelweis laughed, "the bottom of the basket! Be careful with you and Ryan."

"Ok, you too!"

"Edelweis, we go first huh?" farewell Ryan.

"Yes, you're careful."

"You too. If you change your mind, you know who to call?" Ryan reminded.

"Yes, thank you. Take good care of yourself...."

They waved to each other and Edelweis returned home alone intending to call a taxi when there was a familiar voice.

"Am I late?" Roy came in a hurry.

"They just came in."

"I'm just done and straight here as fast as lightning."

" I'm calling Rajasa?"

"Let me just."

Roy called Rajasa.

"Hello bro! Where are you? I just arrived. As soon as it's done, direct cuzz here."

Rajasa's voice answered from across the phone.

"Lo mah mode."

Both chuckle.

"Take care of yourself and Ryan is fine ...."

"Gue also titip Edelweis yes...."

"Not to worry, bro. She is in the right hand."

"It's not just that I don't have a choice."

They're back laughing.

"Would you meet Ryan last minute?"

"No, we checked in and are now waiting to get on the plane."

"Ok then...."

"Ok, see you."

"See you's...."

Roy turned off the gadget. Look at Edelweis.

"Temenin eat yuk...."

"However, ask me to eat."

"Have you eaten?"

"So Ryan bought coffee with donuts."

"That's snacking on his name. Come on, let me eat."

Roy chose the traditional food court.

Ordering her favorite mixed rice, two cups of ice dawet for her and Edelweis. Edelweis himself ordered rice pecel and lontong.

"Here you want?" Edelweis offered the doughnuts Ryan had bought.

"Don't be full. Bring it home later if it fits you lager or you love who the cake is....I'm full."

Edelweis continued to eat.

"You why the hell? Lately I've been crying a lot?"

"What cooking?"

"If you don't want to tell a story it's okay."

"Can you be trusted?"

"What did I ever leak?"

"No way. But promise you don't tell anyone."

Roy choked and nearly burst into laughter.

"Why are you?"

"Kayak anak sd. Don't tell anyone."

They both laughed.

"My best friend is missing."

"You sad?"

"Well, I'm the same she's been friends for a long time since she and until she disappeared."

"You're not in love with her, are you?"

"I don't know. I'm sad that he disappeared. I don't want our friendship to turn into love. I don't want him to leave his girlfriend, either."

"Ribet very!"

They're back laughing.

"Book?"

"Yes. If you use aladin lamps, dizzy deh jinnya menuhin your request and frustrated he will say, hey! can't you ask for a mediocre house kayak gedong, thick tapestry, good food?"

They're back laughing.

"He doesn't like it when I turn into the not me he knows and likes."

"Would you be a chameleon, change?"

"No, I'm a power ranger."

They're back laughing.

"When I was secretary. He doesn't like to see me dancing, he's busy changing numbers to focus more on my work. My dressing style. Everything."

"He is not for you then."

"But I can understand his attitude."

"You're sad because he can't love your whole being. There's something he likes and not about you. You alone cannot avoid all of this. Your job demands."

"That's why I don't want everything to change. Make friends without interfering in each other's lives."

"That's if the title song love is hurt, love is ain't enough same fierce bojo!"

kontan they both laughed.

Suddenly Edelweis could not hold back his emotions. His shoulders shook and his tears fell down profusely.

"Cry if you want to cry."

Edelweiss could not hold back his tears. All his emotions just came out. He sucked his snot and took a tissue to wipe away his tears that kept coming out and would not stop.

After being satisfied crying. He wiped the rest of his tears.

"I'm sorry!"

"What are you doing to apologize? You're not wrong."

"I'm disturbing your eating. I don't know why I can't hold back my tears."

"Lajar you're sad. Everyone in your position is the same. Love is ain't enough."

"I'm glad you can understand. Sometimes our common sense has understood but our feelings are not willing to compromise."