Rajasa
The Divorced
Edelweis made his heart go to divorce. He was broken to pieces. Like a broken mirror fragment broke a thousand.
When the tempest hits. It is impossible to speak love. Because it only adds to the wound.
What is the point of talking about love? Make her steps restrained in doubt? Are you obviously hurt and lied to?
Often love is used as a tool to manipulate and intimidate. Is there true love? Because that often happens love as a tool to manipulate and intimidate. To control.
“You can't make Malika a tool to intimidate. Refining Malika.”
“Will our relationship be better after divorce? “
“I don't care!” The Edelweiss are angry. His anger penetrated the crown.
“Do not be selfish. If we can't keep a good relationship. Then it will have an impact on Malika.”
“Good. I'll try to maintain a good relationship for Malika. There is no reason to refuse the divorce. You have to take responsibility for the consequences of your own choices. Every decision you make. There are consequences.”
“But you also have a share in it.”
“What do you mean? You want to put all the blame on me?”
“Of course not. There's both of us wrong. We should have compromised instead.”
“You betrayed and you asked for a compromise. Do I have to give you rewards and compliments?”
“You're emotional. Not being able to speak let alone thinking clearly in an emotional state. Don't decide anything in an emotional state.”
“You want me how? Smiling happily? Thank you for your betrayal?”
“Not so I mean. I'm just asking you to calm down. Thinking about everything in peace. Considering the bad decisions you've made. Because we will all live the consequences without exception.”
“If I did it. What are you gonna do? Are you going to breastfeed and forgive me?”
“If indeed I have to endure for Malika. I'll do it.”
“Really? You're gonna be that good?”
“Having a child is a responsibility. At least wait Malika mature and have her own life.”
“Not all divorces are always bad.”
“But more divorces that have a bad impact. I don't want that to happen to my son. If we marry someone else. Have a family again. Malika can be happier and vice versa. But if we survive, we can work together as parents. I have no intention of intimidating or manipulating. I'm offering you a compromise. So that we can complete our duties as parents. Maybe our relationship has changed. But it all depends on our efforts to improve as well. If you are still interested in repairing. But if it doesn't. At least wait for adult Malika. Don't just think about ourselves. How?”
“I want to continue my life. Don't want to get stuck on a toxic and unhealthy marriage. I can't trust you. You can hurt me anytime. And I just have to take it. For Malika? Too expensive a price I have to pay. My own mental health.”
“If you and Ryan already have a plan for both of you. There is no point in discussing compromise. You want to start a new life. I believe Ryan will be a better father to Malika.”
“Yeah! I want a new life. Have a healthy marriage. No need to force yourself to compromise.”
“You have loved it for a long time. My betrayal set you free. Pushing you running towards him.”
“I never meant to hurt our marriage. There is no intention to betray you. Although I know, we often experience lack of communication. You're not as patient and understanding as Ryan. I didn't mean to compare. Especially taking a chance. Malika and I and my baby deserve to be happy. You are also free to seek your own happiness. I don't need to feel hurt or betrayed.”
Rajasa looked at Edelweis face deeply, “You know? Sometimes I think who really benefited from the betrayal I committed?”
“What do you mean?”
Rajasa held both of Edelweis's shoulders and grabbed him.
“Sick!” Shouted Edelweis.
“You just want to have a way to be with Ryan! Is that really what happened?”
Edelweis released Rajasa's grip. Pushing Rajasa away.
“Don't playing victim!”
“At least you should know why I betrayed you!”
“Why did you betray me?”
“You didn't meet my needs. Focus with yourself and Malika.”
“You mean, I have to deal with everything myself?”
“I mean, our relationship is out of balance. You should be more trying how everything can feel more balanced.”
“I don't mean to compare. With Ryan I don't have to do anything. He helped me balance everything.”
“That's what I said. I betrayed you because of circumstances while you took advantage of my mistakes. You feel entitled to be with Ryan because I betrayed you. In fact, I do it recklessly while you play pretty!”
“I don't have to listen to this! Especially accepting. You're trying to brainwash me. Playing victim!”
“If there were no Ryan. Will you survive or leave me?”
“I keep asking for divorce. There is or is no Ryan.”
Edelweis.
“To be honest, I never thought of running to Ryan. You made me think that. Of course, I won't disturb the household. Stop this nonsense! Not much of a reason. Just sign the file I prepared for you!”
Rajasa realizes that Edelweis is unaware of Ryan's marriage. Not knowing that Ryan will divorce Nurmala after giving birth. He doesn't know anything. After the divorce. Ryan will take it from me. He already said that he would take Edelweis away from me. If I can't make her happy. Hurt his heart with the betrayal I committed.
Edelweis spilled all his sadness, disappointment and anger on Ryan.
“She said I didn't meet her needs. We have to compromise for Malika and the kid I'm dealing with. He also accused me of marrying you. I swear I won't disturb your household.” Edelweiss with emotion.
“Content yourself. He doesn't want to divorce you. You just ignore all the words. If you feel disturbed. Do what makes you comfortable.”
“He doesn't want to divorce but betray me? What kind of logic?”
“Not all men who betray want to divorce their wives.”
“You defended him?”
“I'm not defending him. It could be that your husband is betraying because he is saturated or just for fun. There was also being in love again. If he doesn't want to divorce you. Because he thinks of you and your children.”
“ Not love but responsibility.”
“I think Rajasa loves you but he can't resist temptation.”
“I can't understand how to think. Why can't he be as serious as you? If love is faithful.”
“Love the feeling. Faithful is commitment. Trust is integrity.”
“You mean someone could be loyal and trustworthy but not in love? A person may love but be unfaithful and trustworthy. Can you also be love, loyal and trustworthy?”
“Yeah!”
“What should I do?”
“What makes you comfortable?”
“I'm so angry!”
“I know.”
“Sickness and disappointment.”
“For sure!”
“I filed for divorce. I don't want heartache anymore.”
“Divorce or survive the same. Which one makes you comfortable.”
“Thank you, Ryan. You are very kind and understanding.”
“That what friends are for.”
“How is your wife? When to give birth?”
“Not until one more month.”
“You're going to be a father. You're gonna be a really good dad.”
Ryan only smiled broadly in response to Edelweis' words.
“I still don't believe, Rajasa would betray me. My household ends.”
“Quiet! Every decision has consequences. As long as you decide for the comfort of your feelings and your heart. You've decided right. You know the definition of happiness. Survive or separate. What makes you happy. Then that's what you should choose.”
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