Rajasa
Betrayals

When a man betrays a woman. It was like when a woman could not master her emotions when they pms.

They are controlled by hormones. Something that controls. Outside of themselves.

They cannot think clearly.

Rajasa's affair with Nurmala was not planned. It all just happened. He saw Nurmala just as a thirsty man in the desert saw an oasis.

Did he not love Edelweis when he decided to betray him?

To be honest, she did not want her marriage to end. He could understand the limitations of his wife let alone all for the sake of their daughter.

But he was helpless against his own limitations. He did not love Nurmala. That's for sure. Their relationship is not as romantic as a couple. 

Nor did he have the sense of caring as was the case with Edelweis and their daughter. But he needs Nurmala.

His mind was often confused and bored before marrying him. After his needs are met properly. He can think better.

Maybe that explains. Why can men never love a woman who is the outlet of her sexual desire even though they need it?

They also often insult and humiliate him. Because in the end, love matters commitment, loyalty, protection and sacrifice.

Passion is need and desire. Something hard to shake. Because it is directly related to the fulfillment of their biological needs.

He could not have been frank with Edelweis about his betrayal.

Until at any time, Edelweis would never be able to understand why he betrayed her?

Edelweis will feel that she is a very good mother. Do your best for their daughter. Sacrificing for him. Do everything for their home.

It is the fact that it is. But he is also an ordinary man who has needs that must be met in order to face all the pressures in his life.

Almost all men are forced to lie to the woman they love in order to survive with them. 

If he doesn't want to stay with Edelweis. He would choose to divorce her. He is free to marry whoever he wants. But she wants to keep her marriage. Edelweis. It is always in his mind and heart.

Indeed, as a man he has the right to polygamy but from the wife's side it is very difficult to understand that it is a husband's need and is a solution to problems that can not be overcome because there are things in it.

Facing change in their marriage is a new pressure besides their job.

Feelingly, what he does will hurt his wife. But logically, he has no better way than this. Married Nurmala effectively overcame the problem of biological fulfillment that could not be fulfilled by his wife. Because of the presence of their child who seized all the attention and energy of his wife. Nurmala is also a self-knowing woman. Realizing that Rajasa married her not out of love but to complete his wife's shortcomings at this time.

They themselves need each other. As the saying goes, you sell, I buy. Their relationships make conscious use of each other.

Rajasa requires biological distribution while Nurmala himself needs material and inner living.

Nurmala is grateful that Ara and her mother, her neighbors who help her look after her children and take care of her rented house. He rewards them both three million a month. 

They are both like their own families. His son, Amelia, was bathed and fed by Ara.

His house is also clean. Cleansed by her mother Ara. Putting Amelia and her home in both makes her more calm to work. Especially now that he has an additional job serving Rajasa.

There is no love and romance in his relationship with Rajasa. They just use each other for their own benefit.

The clock shows at half-six in the afternoon. Nurmala is preparing to go home. He plans to perform his Maghrib prayers at home.

She felt lucky because Amelia was not fussy. Want to be entrusted with anyone so that he can concentrate on working.

Her ex-husband was an irresponsible and unfaithful man. Typical of most men.

Love blinded his eyes. Her dream of becoming a wife and mother perished seeing her husband's treatment of her.

Her heart was very sick as well as traumatized given her ex-husband's treatment of her.

Women are easily touched and seduced with a sweet mouth, seduction and male crush.

Without having to be Rajasa's wife. With his income as a secretary enough to live his life with his daughter. But as a normal woman. He also needs an inner living as well as material.

Rajasa's hand-drawn car was placed in his apartment. Used to take a walk with Ara and her daughter. He also invited his mother Ara who refused more often. Choose to bring food instead of joining a walk with them.

"The mother's son is already fragrant." Her mouth kissed Amelia softly.

Amelia is not two years old. Amelia does not like breast-feeding and it makes it easier for her to take care of her daily life.

Amelia also ate whatever was given to her at the age of four months.

Milk porridge and homemade porridge. He even started eating soft rice at the age of eighteen months.

His stomach is hungry. Amelia accompanied him to eat. The morning before leaving for work. He took time to cook. 

Ahead of Ishaa, Ara, whose house lives near her, came back to her. Waiting for her to take a shower and finish praying, I handed Amelia to him. 

The life he lived was not anyone's dream but he had to be grateful in the midst of the trials of life that he experienced. He can do it as best as possible.

Her life is for Amelia. He had prepared savings, education insurance and health for his daughter.

Even the apartment and car that Rajasa gave her were rebranded in her daughter's name. 

"Did you miss your mother?" Nurmala kissed her daughter who was asleep on their bed. Looks sleepy while finishing the bottle.

The milk bottle was taken to the sink so as not to invite ants in their room.

Their cool and cool air conditioner made them both sleep until morning.

Nurmala woke up at four in the morning. Cooking her food and Amelia. Prepare for shower and dawn prayers. Waiting for the arrival of Ara who will take Nurmala to be taken to her house.

He gives Ara the keys to his house so that he can freely go in and out of his house when needed.

Many women make material as a husband because it is more reliable and he is one of them.

He doesn't care about people's views of him. Try the best he can. Everyone can see themselves as good or bad. Very relative. In the end, everyone is responsible for their lives.

In the midst of his humiliation. It was not thought to take Rajasa from his wife's side. Because he did not want to return home.

The wounds and traumas her ex-husband inflicted, made her lose faith in love and trust. Moreover, he himself is the perpetrator of love betrayal. He inflicted wounds on Rajasa's wife.

He had no grudge against Edelweis. Not feeling hurt or envious. What happened between him and Rajasa due to the pressure of conditions that neither of them could resist.

She also does not want to conceive Rajasa's child. To him, Amelia's only child. Just as Rajasa also sufficed from the child born to his wife.