Rajasa
Fates

Edelweis came a bit late for helping his mother and sister Amarilis help their mother take food orders.

Ever since Edelweis stopped working, the sole breadwinner returned their mother.

His mother understood the state of Edelweis who was not excited and heartbroken also charcoal.

"You want to see Roy?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Yes but don't come home too late."

"But if you still want to talk how?"

"Just talk at home, right?"

"Alright, mom...."

Edelweis was so grateful that his mother did not take issue with her decision to refuse her job as a journalist and her student duties.

Although her mother often nagged and scolded her but when she needed support and understanding, she was the best in the world.

"Mom, I'll go first...." Edelweis kisses his mother.

"Sister, bring martabak dong!" amaryllis's Message.

"Any martabak?"

"Yes. What cheese is chocolate?"

"Cock!"

"All right."

Roy picked up right at 7.

"We went to Jakarta City, yuk...."

"Non distance?"

"No, I want to have a casual conversation and I don't want to rush home!"

"Ijin used to be with mom! Because you're not going home last night."

"All right!" Roy gets out of the car and looks for Edelweis' mother.

"Tante, good night."

"Night, Roy! Don't come home tonight, Roy?"

"That's exactly aunt... Want to ask permission to take Edelweis out until night because we want to go to Bandar Jakarta."

"Away, Roy! There is a lot of sea food. The one in the tent is delicious, cheap, not expensive. Is that expensive, Roy? Far away...."

"It's okay, aunt...Refreshing. The place is good for chatting especially if you take a spot on the edge of the beach deck."

"Yes it's up to you. But auntie has you take good care of Edelweis huh? Keep the boundaries."

"Yes aunty, God willing."

"Yes, it is important to know the boundaries of association according to religious rules. Don't break aunt's trust. If you really like Edelweis, yes married but if not, take care of the association."

"Yes aunty, I also know only Edelweisnya would not want aunty and choose a friend alone."

"She's kind of heartbroken with Aksa."

"It looks so."

"She also does not want to date first let alone get married. Go after the goal first. Fun aunt and her sisters."

"Yes aunty, I understand too. That's why I can't force it if the Edelweiss is not married."

"In his mind it was just education and career. He's as ambitious as his late father."

"Yes aunty."

"What time do you leave?"

"Now aunty."

"alright. Careful, huh?"

"Yes aunty, saying goodbye first...."

Car's sliding down the highway. Edelweis's favorite 'At my worst' song.

"You know I love the song."

"I like it too. No need for ge er. The song is so much to like because it's so good." Roy chuckles.

Edelweis looked at his cd cover and saw a collection of his favorite songs.

"It's good all the songs...."

"I bought it. I bought one for you too."

"Where?"

"Open the dashboard drawer."

Edelweis opened the dashboard drawer and took out a beautifully wrapped rectangular parcel with old pink gift paper and broken white tape.

"It's cd isn't it?"

"Yes, the same CD I bought."

"Repots are so shaved up like this."

"The one that wraps up isn't me." Roy chuckles.

"What do I mean to do wrapped like this?"

"It's okay. But you like it, right?"

"Yes, it's just you being bothered."

"Son, I don't bother."

"Whatever!"

"How's Angela?"

"I'm not interested in finding out about him."

"You're heartbroken?"

Arriving at the Jakarta City. They choose a place close to the beach view.

"Why did you choose this place? Far and expensive." asked Edelweis.

"I want to casually chat and enjoy the atmosphere."

Roy ordered rice, grilled fish, fried shrimp krispi flour, crab saos padang and sauteed kale saos oyster. Two young coconuts.

"How are you doing?" ask Roy.

"Good."

"I don't see it that way. You're losing your spirit."

"After what I've been through, what can I do? The recovery does not necessarily make the names of the three of us clean again. I was unprepared for someone else's predijuce and afraid it would happen again. I'm going crazy!" edelweis's tears fell.

In front of Roy he can bring out all his emotions and feelings.

"You're that sensitive! How do you fight for all your dreams? No one pityes you. Life must go on!"

"I'm not asking for mercy!"

"You didn't ask for it, but your attitude harms you and benefits those who hate you. They will use you for their benefit and no matter what the consequences are for you!"

"I don't want to hear anymore!" Edelweis cried half a scream.

"We're going to the beach! Waiting for the food to arrive."

"For what?"

"Follow me! It's orders!"

"I don't work for you anymore."

"You're against me?"

Edelweis obeyed Roy's wishes.

They moved from their seats to the beach.

The breeze and the moon peek behind the clouds.

"What do you want?"

"Not me but you? Yell out! Get all your emotions out! Cry as hard as you can!"

"Aaaghhhhh...Aaaghhhhh......Aaaagghhh...." Edelweis shouted with all his might. Wreak all his anger, disappointment, sadness and frustration.

Edelweiss cried and cried. His crying voice was swallowed by the darkness of the night.

Sad, disappointed and angry all mixed into one.

He puked the sand until scattered.

Her tears were pouring out very hard.

He screams and screams. Crying and crying. Crying helplessly and harboring sadness, anger and disappointment.

After the emotion and feeling drained. His chest felt relieved.

Slowly the crying disappeared.

Her tears are drying.

Roy thrusting seplastik tissue .

Edelweis used it to suck out his snot and wipe away his tears.

"Required?"

Edelweis nodded his head.

"Thank you, yeah...You brought me all the way here so I could vent my emotions and feelings. Don't be too nice to me. What if I can't return your feelings?" edelweiss' tears are back.

"I'm male. Don't you think about such a thing. Rejection will not make me desperate. A soul mate cannot be forced but let me fight for my feelings until I know, whether I can or not."

"I don't want to think about love."

"I know. Your mind is too complicated not to mention that the situation itself does not support and increasingly adds to all the complexity of your mind. Not yet the problem that befell the three of us."

"Do you know why I got that job and scholarship?"

"Don't you pass all the criteria?"

"I thought so at first. There's a canned letter terrorizing me. Even though we're recovering but still in reality they assume I did the deed."

"You mean?"

Edelweiss is crying.

"If I could hug and comfort you I would, but you would be angry and think I'm harassing you."

"We're not muhrim and you know the rules. You also promised my mother to obey the company."

"I can't bear to see how you are but what can I do?"

"You can understand how I feel and how I feel."

"Did Angela have anything to do with this?"roy's face suddenly clouded.

"Why are you suspecting Angela?" Edelweis again sucked his snot.

"After what he did and gave way to Clara and the fictitious company to the company. Defaming the three of us. You still believe he has a healthy heart and sense? He betrayed me from the beginning and acted like a faithful wife. What do you want me to do?"

"Proof Angela did this. You're assuming."

"The angel is a snake. You can't trust snakes. He also has a grudge like a mouse. I don't have any proof at the moment but my feeling is that he wants to destroy you."

Edelweiss is crying.

"I think my life has been over since that case hit us and it can never be restored again. Rajasa leaves the company for the same reason."

"Me and Rajasa man. That kind of thing won't affect us both. He could not stand all the memories. I know him. He's waiting for you to join Ryan to fight for your dreams back."

"What can I hide from you?" Edelweis toyed with his feet among the sand mixed with the shells scattered here and there."

"Do you love a lot of people?"

Edelweis looked towards Roy with a questionable look.

"Your mind is complicated."