Rajasa
Tempests
In the end, life is a choice. Edelweis could not stand what he found. Decided to divorce.
Closing his ears and heart tightly. Listen to Rajasa's explanation that everything has passed.
He also did not want to bestow his anger and heartache on Nurmala.
It's not that you're not hurt, disappointed or angry. But what's the point? The household is destroyed. Not that Nurmala and Ryan also have to experience it.
For Ryan it may be part of Nurmala's past. Happened before they got married. And for him? The incident happened in the middle of her marriage to Rajasa who was walking.
Nurmala is just a scapegoat. Rajasa can do it with anyone. For him it is not with whom Rajasa betrays. Because it makes no difference. But why did Rajasa betray?
His relationship with Nurmala was certainly affected. Not to crash or bully Nurmala. Not that they can relate well like before.
Sad, disappointed and angry mixed into one. Trust is a very fragile thing. Injuring especially to the point of destroying will result in many things.
Rajasa could not persuade much less change Edelweis' decision.
Edelweis insisted on her divorce.
“If you love two people then choose the last one.” Said Edelweis.
“Do not childish. We build families. Don't think let alone decide as hard as ari. Don't destroy what we've built.”
“You destroyed not me.”
“Yeah! Me! I admit to being wrong. Don't take decisions rashly.”
“I don't want to be in an unhealthy marriage. You just need to sign the file I prepared for you.”
“I want you to go on vacation. Calm yourself.”
“It's no use! What I need out of this hell. Don't try to persuade me.”
“I just want you to calm your emotions. Thinking in a calm state. Decide in a conscious state and a clear mind. Not overpowered by emotions.”
“You hurt me!”
“I know! But it's all over. Nurmala is also Ryan's wife. If Ryan can take Nurmala. Why can't you accept me?”
“You betrayed me in the middle of our marriage. While Ryan can accept Nurmala because it's his wife's past. Nurmala did not betray Ryan in their marriage.”
“What's the difference?”
“Of course it's different. New bond begins after marriage.”
“I married Nurmala in series. That time. Not adultery.”
“What do you want to say? You have the right to polygamy without my knowledge?”
“Intactly so.”
“But why?”
“You ignored my inner needs. Not paying attention and serving me well. You're just busy taking care of Malika.”
“Sounds like a reason.”
“Not a reason but reality.”
“What do you want?”
“I divorced her. Nurmala is also married to Ryan. Specially? You're just making new trouble. While the real problem is done.”
Edelweis. His heart became worried. Malika and the baby in her birth overshadowed her thoughts.
“You don't make rhetoric!” Edelweis was upset.
“I'm not rhetoric. I have a right to polygamy. You know it.”
“But I can't accept your polygamy.”
“I know. I don't want to hurt your heart either. So I divorced Nurmala. He also married Ryan. Then what else?”
“I regard your polygamy as treason and infidelity.”
“You don't recognize my right to polygamy?”
“Not so. But to me, your polygamy is betrayal and infidelity. Unless I approve it.”
“Indeed can you approve me polygamy?”
“No.”
“You mean, you negate my right to polygamy. Because you won't approve.”
“You don't have rhetoric.”
“What do you want?”
“Don't mind something that's done. Don't create new problems.”
Edelweis poured all his feelings and grief on Ryan.
“Do not focus on the explanation. If it were true. What is more convenient for you?”
“I want a divorce.”
“Rajasa can exercise its rights. You also have the right to define your happiness. All have consequences.”
“She wants me not to fuss over things she's done.”
“If you think alike. You better cancel your divorce. Because you also feel like it's done. But if you just feel like it's all just starting?”
“I argue. If he really loves me. He will be faithful. Thinking about my feelings. Trying to make me happy in the way I want. Not by the definition he forced on me. How?”
“Good closing argument”
Kontan both laughed.
“I'm not making a closing sentence. Or impress something.”
“Yeah! I-i know. Everyone has their own limits. You know your limits.”
“I don't want to always suspect him. Trust issue's. For me, love has a whole sense and a word. Love is not only faithful. But also a matter of taste. The true feeling. Cannot be replaced even if you try to replace. Faithful forced by taste. Love is commitment. Love without commitment and faithfulness is a lie.”
“I will support whatever your decision is. You know how you can be happy and hurt.”
“Yeah!”
“He seeks satisfaction other than me. While I struggle so that everything can run according to the limitations that I have. Talking rights. While I was trying to fulfill my duties as a mother. I may have neglected my duties as a wife. But do I deserve what he's done to me?”
“If reversed. He will be equally hurt. Probably more hurt. He should have supported and helped you. Make you. Not looking for satisfaction elsewhere. Even if he deserves that. There's nothing wrong. But if you weigh your feelings. He won't have the heart to do it.”
Weeping Edelweis broke, “You are very understanding. You also always try to support and help you.”
“Love is when you try to give the best you can. Make happy. Without compulsion. Engraving smiles, laughter and color. Not incised a wound or disappointed.” Ryan stared into the eyes of Edelweis who pierced through the recesses of his soul.
“I don't want to force love. Why is it forced if all is just falsehood? If only the body is married. The soul will remain thirsty. Looking for satisfaction everywhere. Rightfully, nothing is wrong. But in the meaning of love? Who can take it for real?"
“You don't need to explain anything. Don't feel guilty. You also deserve to fight for your own happiness. Defining your own happiness. There's nothing wrong with that.”
“You don't know how much your support means. My mind and heart are at war with each other. Oppose each other. Whatever I decide is like simalakama. But I tried to choose the one that best fit my heart. Most representative of my own definition of happiness.”
“Yeah!”
“I hope, Malika doesn't blame me. I don't think I'm selfish. Not wanting to maintain family integrity. Selfish. Soul's hurt. My heart's sliced. My happiness paused.”
“Although you failed to be a wife. But you'll still be a good mother. Divorce does not mean Malika lost her father and mother.”
“Yeah! I hope Rajasa and I can be good parents. Although our husband and wife relationship is both over.”
“If your priority is Malika. You guys will be able to do it. But if your priorities, each ego. You will not be able to make your divorce for introspection. Especially correcting the mistakes. Matured you both.”