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Just Dreams

I stuck my body against the wall, looking at them. I don't know what this feeling is, but I feel bad. I've never had a relationship like this with anyone. I hope someone will teach me to get used to this feeling. Someone who will laugh with me, even if I make a mistake.

...***...

"Where's Kevin?" I asked Husna.

Husna turned her gaze towards me for a moment. After that, he returned to the dough. He looks nervous, just like me. All of this just happened, beyond our wishes, I understand what he felt.

"He visited his father" replied Husna, widening my eyes.

Fathering... Of course, I have a father too. No, I don't want to hear it. I'm not ready to know the truth for the sake of the new reality about myself. I turned around and left the room. I ran away from that house.

I want to feel free. I want Vian to be with me, I want to be around him, spilling all my heart out and crying all my might in his arms.

...***...

When I got home, I saw the house was empty. Maybe, Masara came out, I thought. I immediately went into my room and picked up my cell phone. I want to hear Vian's voice, really.

"Hello?" vian said across the street. My tears started to flow again. I can't help it.

"Dear, don't cry." Vian pleaded. His voice makes me want him here more and more.

"Vian .." I said softly on the sidelines of Isak.

"Did they do something to you? Tell me, I'll kill Kev-"

"No, they didn't do anything. It's just .. I haven't been able to accept any of this" I said. I could hear Vian breathing.

"I'll be home soon" said Vian. I shook my head, even though I knew he didn't see it.

I feel sleepy. But Vian didn't disconnect his phone call, so I could hear his breath. Her breath sounded like my bedtime melody, making me feel at ease until I fell asleep.

...***...

I'm still asleep. But suddenly I gasped at the sound of a commotion. I ran to see where the sound came from.

As I opened the door, I turned to my left and saw Husam with his parents beside him. They grinned at me. I took a few steps back as they stepped forward. I felt tears running down my face. Nah! No, please don't do anything!

I turned and saw my grandmother. He nodded his head the whole time. I tried to run towards him but my legs couldn't move. They all started to approach me. I saw Husam's face and it felt like I wanted to vomit.

"Vian!" I screamed, trying to find him. I can't see it.

I heard other voices, and then I turned toward them. Him, Kenzo and his family. They're getting away from me. Meanwhile, the fake family is getting closer. I pulled my own hair out of fear. I screamed for my real family, but they were getting away.

Suddenly Husam grabbed my arm.

I saw his father coming to me with a lighter. Nah! I screamed in my heart. Not again! Please don't do that! Please don't burn me, I can't take it! I screamed in my heart. I tried to scream but suddenly my voice was gone. I tried so hard that my throat hurt. He approached and approached and placed my clothes on the fire-

"No!" I screamed while sitting.

I looked around and it turned out that I was in Vian's bed. I set my messy breath. I can't hold my tears anymore.

"Calm down, it's just a dream" I told myself many times.

I don't know what's going on, but I don't feel like I can control my own body. Suddenly I felt someone holding me and putting my head on his chest. I heard Masara reading the Qur'an.

I still sob and scream. I wanted to stop, but it didn't work. It's all still there. My past is still with me. They won't leave me. I tried to focus on listening to Masara's voice, maybe it could calm me down.

"Sadiya, wake..."

I felt someone rub my hair. I looked up and saw Masara looking at me. I groaned as I got up to sit down. I don't think I'm sleeping at all. And that's when it all came back. I feel my eyes glaze over. That .. it was very painful. It felt like I was in a dead end and couldn't go anywhere. It felt like I was left in the dark and there was no light pulling me out. I saw Masara staring at me with a strange expression.

"Say, what's wrong?" tanyanya slow. I nodded weakly.

He sat next to me on the bed. I took a deep breath.

"I was just a nightmare... They, they want to burn me again. The man was carrying a match while approaching me. They've done that before. Which is why, I have a burn scar on my back. No one has ever seen this scar, not even Vian," I said softly.

I covered my face with both palms of my hands, holding back tears. I felt Masara flicking the back end of my clothes to look at my back.

"Oh God! How could they do this?! Are they not human?!" he cried with his hands shutting his mouth.

"You have to report them to the police! They should be behind bars!" he said it was loud, but I immediately shook my head.

If I did something like that, they would never leave me. I wiped away my stupid tears that never left me alone and Masara sighed.

"Sadiya, look at me" he said and I did as he said.

"You need to be strong, okay? You will show them that you are more valuable. You will show them how you become an independent woman. You'll show them that they've been stupid, by letting you marry Vian. Let them see how happy you are now without them. And most importantly, you'll let them see that they can't bring you down again" he said.

"What?" I ask him confused. I really don't understand what he means.

"If I were to experience what you're going through, maybe I'd kill myself right now. But you're not, you're strong. You can do whatever you want no matter what others say.

You're married to Vian, and he let you stay with him. He is also always there for you, it means you are a valuable person for him. No one can bring you down again, and you have to show them!" said seriously.

I looked at him with wide eyes. Does he really think I can do that?