Love Bersemi In Turkey
I'm Sick

When he was busy with other work, I got bored so I turned on the TV, then watched it. I thought the show was good, so I decided to watch it.

As I watched, a scene passed. It scares me .. I feel all my past is back. I can feel that. A father beat his son. The boy was crying, blood was everywhere. He won't even be able to recognize her face anymore.

I can't move. My eyes were fixed on the TV. I felt a pair of arms curled up in my body. For some reason, my mind seemed to go back to the times where my family tortured me. I have to take it off. Maybe, if I run, he'll catch me, as it always does, they'll always catch me again. I tried to escape many times, but they could always catch me.

I grabbed that arm and let go. My body feels hot, like it's burning. It feels so hot. I stood up and took my foot to the only place that could possibly make me feel better. I went into the room, closed the door and locked it. If I don't do it, he they'll come in.

I took off my outer clothes, then went into the bathroom. Walking on cold water, I need it so I don't feel too hot. I opened the tap and sat down, letting the cold water run through my body. I looked up my face, letting the water drip down on my face.

I think of all the people who hurt me.

I put my head between my knees. Maybe those screaming voices that haunt me will stop. Maybe their voices will disappear.

I felt two warm arms wrapped around my waist and then lifted my body up. I opened my eyes in shock and took a deep breath. I couldn't breathe very well, so I was trying to capture every oxygen I could. I felt myself being pulled into my lap, then someone stroked my hair. And it feels very comfortable.

"Csh .. Breathe .." I heard her soft voice. A very beautiful voice was heard to make me calm. I try to concentrate on my breathing. Warm tears washed my cold face.

"Everything will be fine. I'm right here. No one can hurt you" he said, and I closed my eyes, putting my head on his chest. I'mtired. I'm tired of all that. I am tired of those memories. Why don't they just leave?

'Hey. Don't surrender. If you give up, it means that you are really losing. God is still here. Why do you always forget Him? Pray and everything will be fine." I heard that voice again.

I nodded a little at the sound of that voice. I feel my body lifted up. Then, I felt something soft around me, I felt I was lying on the bed.

I don't care where he found me. I don't care, maybe she took off my wet clothes and put me on warm clothes. The smell is all around me. I think I'm wearing the sweater.

I want to open my eyes to see it, but I can't. My eyes won't open. I still can't think straight, my head feels dizzy. I chose to keep my eyes closed, and I fell asleep.

"Dad .. She's sick. I can't come today. He needs me ... Okay, bye dad."

I heard a voice beside me. I want to open my eyes, but still my eyes can't open. My head feels dizzy and my body sweats, but I feel cold.

I felt a pair of hands flicking the disheveled hair that covered my face. I forced my eyes to open.

I slowly opened my eyes, but it was glare until I closed my eyes again. I sighed softly and opened my eyes as much as I could.

I stared at the beautiful light brown netra. Those eyes are staring at my eyes. I got closer, stuck my forehead to his forehead.

"You scared me .." he said. I closed my eyes, embarrassed.

"You're not alone, okay? I'm right here. Always," he said and I nodded, too tired to think of an answer. We stayed like that for hours. I feel a little better, but it still hurts a little.

"Do you feel better?" he said as he got up from his seat. I nodded while frowning, I did not want him to leave. He just laughed and looked at me, and left.

I forced myself to stand up. My head still hurts and I feel a little shaky. I let myself fall on that bed again, I couldn't get up. I took a deep breath while staring at the ceiling, thinking about it. Maybe, he's gone.

"I thought you were gone .." I whispered, my throat still hurts.

"I told you I'm here. I'm not going anywhere when you're in this state. Here, tea for you, drink it" he said, offering me a cup of tea. I sipped the tea until it was gone, realizing how thirsty I was.

"I want to take you out today. If you're better, but. I know, maybe you're tired of just staying in this house every day" Vian said.

Aneel said and I was confused. He doesn't look any different. I mean, I'm trying to figure out if he's taken anything.

“So, how?.” ask while waiting for an answer.

“OK,” I said with a slight smile. I got ready, while he waited in the living room.

***

“Sadiya! Why do I always have to wait so long for you?!"

I heard Vian yell and roll my eyes. I finished my braid while going to the living room. My head still hurts, but I feel good enough to get out. I knew that the cool air would make me better. I was getting tired in the house.

"I'm still a girl, you know?" my spoken.

He rolled his eyes lazily. I giggled to see his face. We walked out together, headed to his car and got in. Enjoy today, I told myself.

During the trip, we did not talk to each other. I'm starting to feel uncomfortable. I looked at his face for a moment, he was so handsome.

During the trip, we did not talk to each other. I'm starting to feel uncomfortable. I looked at his face for a moment, he was so handsome. And he didn't realize it, making him look even more handsome. I smiled and my hands touched her hair. I played with his curly hair. He didn't see it but I saw him smile a little. After about fifteen minutes Vian parked his car and I looked around. I couldn't see much, then I looked at Vian in confusion.

"Wait a minute" he said nervously.

We got out of the car and he stretched out his hand for me. I stared at him for a moment and grabbed him, ignoring the strange feeling I was feeling.

We walked and I stopped when I saw the sea ... Whoa! .. I've never seen this before and it's really beautiful.