Love Bersemi In Turkey
The Decision to Be With You

"That night .. That night I .. when I'm gonna take her to my parents' house .. Suddenly ... Kevin arrived. And then, Liza .. her body fell down and lay there, in my arms .. Blood .. Blood is everywhere .. I immediately called an ambulance. The ambulance came .. then took her .. Without me .. I feel so weak, I don't know what to do ... Until I heard the news that he was gone .." he said sobbing. I put my arms on his shoulders.

"It's okay . everything will be fine, which passes let it pass" I told him. I don't know why, but it feels so. I closed my eyes.

'You should always be there for him. Only you can make him believe in his Lord again. Use this opportunity, until finally you will be happy ... Be happy.' I heard that voice and smiled.

Lately the voice had very rarely appeared, but when I needed it the most, it came back. Ah, but I don't think I always need it. I think I can handle myself. I let go of my hand and looked into his eyes.

"Look at me .." I told him to force him to look at me. He looked at me and I smiled.

"We've been together all this time. You are always there for me, and I will always be there for you too. Vian, we've been through a lot. And look now? We're still here, together. Though not together in the real sense, at least we are still together. I'm here, I'll help you. And I will respect the decision that you will make .. "my whisper in the last part. If he wanted to leave, he could have. I'm not gonna get in the way. If leaving would make her happy, I would let her go ..

"I've made my decision Sadiya .. I'll be with you .. It's just, I just need some time to think .. I mean, he just popped out of nowhere, then told me the opposite of what I believed for two years. But don't worry, I won't leave you . "he said. My eyes widened and I looked at him to see if he was joking. I smiled and she smiled back.

"Why? " I asked him. I really wanted to know why he wouldn't leave me when he had found the love of his long lost life. He looked at me with a confused look.

"I've closed that page in my life. I'm ending the book about Maryam. Maybe I still feel something towards him, but not like I feel for you" he said with a smile. I didn't realize what he was saying because I was too fascinated by his smile.

"Don't smile in public" I said, kissing her nose. He raised an eyebrow.

"Why?" tanyanya and I rolled my eyes.

"Well, I'll smile more in public. You know, to make the girls fascinated" he said, then I patted him on the arm.

"Why?" tanyanya and I rolled my eyes again. That's what I do when I've been around her a lot lately.

"But really, Vian, I don't want you to feel like you're being forced with me. I'll understand if you want to leave" I said gently, giving him another chance to retreat. He looked at me confused and then he grabbed my hand.

"When I saw her for the first time in two years, I didn't touch her. If it was a year before, maybe I would have hugged her. But when I saw him walking closer, I couldn't do it. It would be like treason if I did. I don't want to betray you. Even though she appeared out of nowhere, you were on my mind the whole time I looked into her eyes," he said, making a drop of tears fall down my cheek. I was just about to answer, and suddenly my phone rang.

"Hello, Kenzo" I said with a smile. I've missed him.

"Hello twin, I just want to ask if you can come here now? I want to meet you. I can pick you up if you want" he said, and I thought for a moment. I ignored the strange feeling I felt when she said 'mom'.

"Ehm no. Uh, I mean, you don't have to pick me up. I'll come with Vian" I said, avoiding Vian's strange gaze. We ended the call and I looked towards Vian.

"Are you angry? If you don't want to take me away, I can tell him to pick me up .." I said, then suddenly Vian interrupted, no wonder.

"Come on, let's go" he said as he grabbed my hand. I smiled all the time as we walked to the car.