
"Y. yang pen. ting, you're still hi. alive" he whispered.
I can't stand seeing my dad like that anymore. I approached her and hugged her. She slowly returned my embrace and I started crying. How strange. It felt as if I had known him for so long. I hugged her tighter and I heard her crying too. It makes me feel really bad, but also happy. They .. maybe they are, my family cares about me a lot ..
A few minutes later, we let go of our hands and just looked at each other.
"I ... I don't . don't know what to say" she whispered. I smile.
"I am also .. Do you want me to tell you about myself?" I asked him, not knowing why. There's not much to tell about me. He nodded happily and I smiled.
"Well .I don't have a happy story or anything like that. To .. My family never cared about me. That .. That's why I can't really trust someone .." I said, wiping away the tears that were dripping down. I sat down next to him and he grabbed my hand.
"They never did anything good to me, except for one thing" I said, staring at Vian. He half-smiled before closing his eyes for me to continue.
"They forced me into marriage. A marriage that I thought would only bring me worse, but it didn't. Over time, Vian and I started to get along. And very beautiful things started to happen. I thank God for sending it for me" I said, staring at Vian. His eyes widened a little and he smiled.
"But now, I can lose him. Because .. The past will never leave us, right? Even if we want it, the past will never be lost ... And that's why I can lose him anytime .." I said with my head down, not staring at Vian. I fear. Afraid of what he might think. I turned my eyes to the man in front of me and I saw him crying.
"Ma .. forgive me," he said. I shook my head. It's not my mom or dad's fault, they don't know what happened to me.
***
Kenzo came up to me and then wrapped his arm around my shoulder. He calmed me. We stayed like that for hours. Didn't say anything. Just sitting there with our eyes closed, enjoying a feeling we couldn't feel for nineteen years.
"Thank you, Kenzo," I said, after he returned to take me home. I got out of his car. Now, I'm standing in front of my house. Kenzo came and hugged me.
"I'm always there for you, no matter what. You, i.. We are one, Khanza and Kenzo. Never forget that. Your pain is mine, your happiness is my happiness? So .. I want to know everything about you. I'd like to spend more time with you to get to know you .." he said. I've never had this kind of feeling with Husam. This was the affection of an actual brother.
"I love you, my twin" I whispered. She then hugged me tighter and a while later, we said goodbye.
***
I put my feet into the house. I don't know where Vian is. I don't even know when he left the hospital.
I heard a voice from my phone, indicating that a new message was coming in. I took it out of my pocket. There was a message from Vian.
'Don't worry about me. I'm with my friend.'
A fella? I'm pretty sure Vian must be with Liza. I took a deep breath, then walked into the living room and my eyes caught something in the corner of the room.
Back then, when I was in school, my art teacher taught me how to play guitar, because I had to perform for an event at school. I don't sing, I just play. Feels fun. Art is the only thing I love in school. I'm not very good at academics, but I'm quite good at art.
But, now I will do anything to get back to learning and set a good future for myself.
I sat on the floor and started strumming the strings of the guitar. My fingers hurt a little but I don't care. When I got a good chord, I started playing a song I used to learn.
"If we part. Don't you forget the beautiful memories, our story. If you weren't created for me to have."
"Make this the sweetest, most beautiful parting of your life ... All the time, "That's the song I sang at my high school breakup. I still write some of the lyrics.
I started singing, hearing nothing more. Not hearing the door open or someone coming inside. I felt tears welling up as I listened to the words I was singing.
I smiled slightly when I thought of Vian's bright brown eyes. When he laughed, his eyes narrowed a little like Chinese
My smile faded as I thought about all the pain I had experienced.
"You showed me something I couldn't see. You opened my eyes and you made me believe."
I just hummed after the last sentence and after a few seconds I ended the song. I felt my tears flowing and I wiped them away. When I opened my eyes, I was surprised to see Vian in front of me.
He looked very shocked and his eyes sparkled. It was strange, it seemed like he had heard everything. Looks like she likes it. However, that thought faded when I saw the girl behind him ..
I looked at Vian, then at the girl. What the hell is he doing here? Is he .. Is Vian really going to leave me?
"Sadiya .." said Vian. I stood up and put the guitar to the side. I approached them, but avoided eye contact with the girl.
"Liza will stay here tonight" he said. I raised an eyebrow. Whahuh? I turned towards Liza, and she smiled cynically. His eyes looked wet, it seemed like he had just cried, or was he pretending to cry?
"Can I ask, why?" I asked while looking back at Vian. Vian rolled his eyes lazily. How dare he do that? Bring this girl to spend the night at my house?!
"Because he has no place to live" he replied. I put both my hands on my waist.
"Well, he's been able to go back to where he came from for the past two years. Where did he live these last two years?" I said as I looked at Liza cynically. Suddenly Liza took a step towards me.
"Heh, shut up!" he said as he stepped towards me and pointed his index finger at my face.