Obsessive Love Disorder
Let the feeling exist

I walked straight trying not to care. But I saw Danu get off her seat and chase after me before I turned the hallway. He pulled my hand.

“What the hell nu!” I annoyed her by staring at her cynically.

He didn't answer just staring at me coldly.

“Please my hand” ask me by staring at my hand that is still in his hold.

“I just want to talk, don't go”

I shook my head in annoyance at seeing her stubbornness.

“When you just a moment, I am still busy preparing lunch for my husband” said I offended Aditya, hoping to make his heart uncomfortable.

He then let go of his grasp and put both hands in his pants pocket.

“How was your holiday?” Danu's question made me stare at her confusedly.

“Holiday? Honeymoon did you mean?” Ledek me by confirming his question.

“Everything went well, even I was so happy there with Aditya. I even hope to stay there so I can feel calm” said I stared at her cynically. I hope I managed to insinuate her.

Danu doesn't seem distracted by my words, he just looks ordinary.

“It's a shame that I can't catch up with you there, even though I would love to see you there watching my loved ones happy” his words made the look on my face turn very upset.

“No one expected your presence there Danu. Because you will only disturb my peace with Aditya, even if you are at a distance of 1 Kilo meter with us”, I said very seriously.

“Why do you hate me so much Dheb?” Danu asked me to make my eyes clear.

“What have I done until you hate me so much?” The real question is also hard for me to answer.

“Because I fell in love with you? You think I want to keep this feeling for you? I don't want Dheb either. I also want to slowly dispose of this feeling so that he doesn't get too hurt. But all of the process workers” His speech that again makes me upset because he was so brave to express his feelings continuously.

“If you give Aditya understanding about the feelings I have, I am sure Aditya will not be angry,she can think of me as just an admirer of you just like any other woman who puts her heart on Aditya whom she considers only as a fan. But because your hatred is not clear the reason, making Aditya became angry. Even though until now I no longer force your feelings to repay my love. I know enough myself not to ruin your happiness married to Aditya” Danu said to make me full.

I do have a sense of hatred for Danu because he forced my heart and always disturbed my life. He used to be an admirer who was obsessed with getting my attention in his mysterious way. But Danu was right, after that night on the rooftop and up until now, she's not bothering me anymore. She was only present on my happy day and also sent flowers just for a birthday gift.

I looked into Danu's sad eyes with an erratic look. My mouth suddenly locked, I don't know what to say to Danu. Then he stepped away past me who was still standing thinking about his words.

He just loves me, that's his fault. And I hated her so much, when she never wanted that feeling to arise. What he feels is the same as Andre even until now Andre still always says if he still holds feelings for me but I let him because we are now friends. And even Aditya does not mind the feelings that Andre has, because he himself once said the feelings of others can not be forced to grow or be eliminated,the important thing is that he didn't try to disrupt our household.

A few hours passed I had prepared a meal for Aditya's return from his work. The sound of the main room door reads a sign someone will enter with access to his key, and Aditya looks into the apartment by hanging a suit on his arm and an office bag in his other hand.

“Hay” greet me cheerfully looking at her.

“Hay” his mouth.

She approached me hugging and kissed my lips gently.

“Mandi first then eat” command me see his face that already looks tired and dull because of sweat.

“Oke” answer her. Then he went into the room and took a quick shower.

Not long after she came out again wearing her t-shirt and pants.

“Currently, there will be several more projects starting next month”

“O yes?”

“Yes. Papa really fucked me. He did not mess around when he said I would be a big boss in the grandfather's company it turns out that the job Papa gave is also so big” Aditya said tiredly.

I laughed at his babble.

“People say after a husband is tired of working all day and he feels tired, he feels tired,all his tiredness and fatigue will disappear when he comes home and sees his beloved wife” said I with a shy smile considering the writing in the social media quotes.

Aditya looks at me with his thin smile then he holds my hand.

“Because for the husband to go home is the most comfortable place for him to relieve stress and the wife is the most appropriate person to make us calm even though just looking at her” said Aditya who increasingly makes me embarrassed and haru.

“Really?” I asked him, pretending to doubt his words.

“What I remember as long as I worked was you”

“Already in, you make me too flattered” said I looked at him so deeply.

Then we started eating before the food got cold.

“O yes. You have contact Andre?” Aditya's question made me flinch in shock. I'm afraid he's asking about our conversation about Danu.

“I need to be with her, and I haven't had time to ask her. Is he going home?” Tanya Aditya continued his remarks and made me breathe a little relieved.

“There. Yesterday I stopped commenting on her status when she met the fans in Malaysia”

Aditya looked at me for a while with a casual look and went back to eating his food.

“Then?” Ask her.

“Yes I haven't asked when he's coming home”

Aditya just nodded his head.

“You know Andre still likes me?”say me carefully.

“Ya” answers her coldly.

“You don't feel jealous if I'm still in touch with her?” My question intentionally contained him jealous with my ignorant face staring at Aditya.

“I told you. There's no reason for me to be jealous of Andre as long as you don't respond to his feelings. Let Andre feel that way, I do not force Andre's feelings to not like you because it is not his fault” Aditya's speech is exactly the same as what Danu said this morning.

“And now I've got you as whole. You've become my wife, and there's no fear that I'll lose you,because we have been tied up in one very sacred promise that is marriage” said Aditya reminded how important the commitment of a marriage

“So you won't get angry if someone else puts feelings for me?” Ask me to remember Danu.

“As long as you don't reply to that feeling, and he doesn't try to disturb or touch you I can't force their feelings. I also have fans, even a lot of fanatical fans who have loved me for a long time, but they don't bother me even touching me,because it's their feelings that I can't manage or I lose” said her shoulder twitching as if their feelings were not important to her.

Aditya's right. I love Danu just because she loves me. I felt bad for Danu because I was always being rude to her.