Obsessive Love Disorder
Drastic change of attitude

I quickly walked outside the building, hiding my face. I don't care about the people around me, now all I want is to get away from the crowd and be alone.

I got to the outside of the building and continued walking quickly towards the outside of the gate. The distance from the tv studio to the gate is quite far through the park and several other buildings are also parking. I don't care about the clothes I'm wearing right now, which will probably be public when I get out of this building, I don't care anymore.

Someone pulled my hand quickly from behind, making me surprised and drawn into his arms.

Adityas. He kept clutching my hand tightly and looked at me coldly.

“Please me!” Pinta me cynically looked at her.

“Where are you going?” Ask her trying to calm down.

“Where only origin do not see you like this”

“I'm sorry”

“Ngga ! After I Aditya, I want to go” I keep trying to escape from the clutches of his hands.

“I'm sorry” Aditya keeps holding my hand and doesn't let me to go.

“Dhebi please!” Aditya held onto both of my shoulders and made me quiet with his tone of speech starting to rise.

“I'm sorry, we go home now, we can talk about this at home” Aditya said.

I looked at him sharply and shook my head.

“I want to go in. Until you can accept the presence of this child, then I will go home”, I said cynically.

Then I threw both his hands and went back to leave Aditya. Just a few steps I went Aditya suddenly carried me quickly and made me unable to twitch, reflexes wrapped around his neck for fear of falling.

Aditya carried me by looking at me coldly.

“I won't let you wander out there by yourself” said sharply and took me to the parking lot where the car was.

With feelings still falling apart and with a heart still upset for him I was forced to come home with him.

Aditya drove his car back to the apartment. Arriving at our apartment still in the cold war, no one spoke. Even when we sleep we turn our backs on each other, there is no greeting of good sleep or kiss good night. He really changed in an instant. I cried in my sleep thinking about Aditya like this. I remember what happened back in the tv studio. She could have come back screaming and scolding me for conceiving her own child. He said he would obey my wishes, he himself said that would make all my dreams come true. Then why is my wish to have a child with her not fulfilled?

That word hurt so much in my mind. I kept crying in my dark and silent night. I don't know if Aditya's sleeping or hearing my sobs. I don't care anymore.

In the morning I woke up in the morning blind, and I could not sleep well because I was too stressed to think about everything,and as usual in the morning I prepared clothes for Aditya to work and immediately cut out breakfast for him.

Aditya had already taken a shower and he was already preparing to leave while I was cooking. I just stared at her for a while and then looked back at my cooking.

“I'm late I have to go” immediately his words made me stumped for a moment and concluded what he meant. He won't have breakfast yet, even after seeing me cook like this, he already doesn't care about it.

I didn't respond and continued cooking the fried rice I still made for her.

“Bi” call her again which I still do not gubris.

“Good. I'll be home late don't wait for me” she said then she just left and went back to closing the apartment door.

My tears are unstoppable. I cried so much, and turned off the stove and let my cooking lie on top of it.

I sat down under the table and hugged my feet in tears as I was so hurt by Aditya's unusual treatment. I buried my head in my arms and cried letting go of my sadness.

Even the night came. I was still daydreaming in front of the window and staring at the city lights below. The frenetic lights of the vehicle and the bustling city that night made me envy my loneliness here.

I remember my happy times with Aditya a while back. He always took care of me, always made me feel special and always said if he loved me so much, it made me so happy. Especially when she wanted me to be her wife, those were the moments I was most proud of during my life. I can't even believe that I can take on the role of Aditya's wife whom I know as being so possessive and overprotective. This was the beginning of my problems with Aditya after marriage, but why should something like this be a problem? And for all married couples this is the thing they are most looking forward to and they want. Why is all this different from my home ?

Day has changed to night. It turned out that Aditya was indeed late to come home and he did not inform me at all. Is that how much he's mad at me, that he's avoiding me?

I lost my fatigue for a walk around the apartment. And until I was in the skygarden where other people to relax or just sit and look at the scenery. I put on my pink sweater and wore long cotton pants that night. I put on my sweater and let my hair fall out on both shoulders.

I sat on one of the park benches and stared straight ahead. Holding back my cries for not coming out and trying to calm my mind. I closed my eyes and hoped that after I opened my eyes everything would improve.

“What has Aditya done to make you sad like this?” Said a man who had been standing next to me wearing a black hoodie and brown shorts.

I know exactly that sound. Then I looked at him so sharply.

Danus.