Obsessive Love Disorder
Trying to accept Andre

Andre and I tried to establish a relationship that had never been realized, a friendship relationship. Until now I still consider Andre as a friend of one frequency. We started traveling together, playing to his villa in Bali on the beach even we had tried to climb the mountain together to try to get to know nature up there.

Andre can make me happy but not yet make me fall in love. It wasn't because I couldn't move on from Aditya, but because Andre was too comfortable for me to think of as a friend. I learned from my experience and Aditya, our relationship was too rushed to not get to know each other's nature. Let my relationship and Andre be like this until I can believe that Andre I have trusted to make a life partner.

“You why the hell anti like to meet the artist?” Andre asked on the phone while I was busy cleaning up my work on the laptop.

“Nothing Ndre , I am indeed anti-meetings with artist”

I still haven't been honest with Andre about my story and Aditya's. I think that story will only bring trouble for me and Andre.

“Ya we will meet where ?”

“We met at Cafe just plain ya”

“OK”

“Yes bye Ndre”

“Bye Dhebi”

Then I hung up the phone and quickly finished my work on the laptop, went to take a shower and got ready to meet Andre at a cafe.

I was in a hurry to leave until I forgot to lock my apartment. I just realized it when I was on the street, and I asked my trusted apartment neighbor to check my room and ask for help to lock it.

After arriving at the cafe I immediately went inside and waited for Andre who turned out to be late compared to me.

“Pesen what mbak?” Ask the waiter when I'm comfortable sitting in my chair.

“Cappuccino one first aja mbak”

“Oke mbak in wait ya”

Then the customer left with a note of my order.

I waited patiently for Andre. I tried to contact Andre by calling him but my phone was not picked up even though it was connected.

Where the hell is Andre? I murmured in my heart.

It's been 2 hours since Andre didn't come or tell me. It's been too long, I can't wait for him here anymore.

I was already getting annoyed with Andre but I tried to temper my frustration and comfort him by playing my phone. I try to think positively about Andre, maybe Andre is on the road, or Andre still has an appointment with the other team and did not have time to tell me.

I opened Instagram on my phone I saw some Insta Story of my friends to comfort my saturation. And I accidentally saw Insta Story one of my friends who was in a mall in Bandung, he was attending a Meet and Great event some artists.

But after I saw his other Insta Story again, then I saw the artists who were guest stars at the Bandung Short Film Festival in the mall. I was shocked when I saw Andre's face in my friend's Insta Story. Andre was one of the guest stars at Meet and Great which was held at the Bandung mall along with several other famous artists.

I was so upset when I saw Andre was there and didn't tell me at all. I got up from my seat and walked in an annoyed manner out of the Cafe.

Andre outrageous. Maybe she asked me to wait for her at the cafe while she went somewhere else. It's not that I don't allow him to work, it's just that Andre shouldn't have made an appointment to me if he can't.

I drove my car to the mall where Andre was, I didn't have to warn him so he knew I didn't like being kept waiting that long.

I parked my car in the basement and immediately found Andre in a lobby mall. I walked quickly and with annoyance, couldn't wait to see Andre.

From a distance I have seen a crowd of reporters interviewing Andre and one of the female artists who played in his film also standing next to Andre. It seemed like their show was over because the other artist was no longer on stage, and there was only Andre and the other woman beside him being in the interview.

Andre looked so happy and happy, he glanced at the woman beside him with a sweet smile. I don't know what they're talking about there, but it's very clear if they have closeness. I saw Andre begin to embrace the woman with a laugh.

My memories go back to that horrible night at a club, I remember Aditya kissing Lucy in front of me. This incident is no different from the incident at the Club, they are equally unwilling to admit if they have closeness with others.

Andre was surprised to find that I had already noticed him from afar. His lips moved to say my name. Exactly like Aditya used to be shocked to see me caught his betrayal.

I turned my body over and got out of there. I immediately pressed the elevator button and got inside. Andre tried to chase me but the elevator door didn't give him a chance to get in. The elevator opens when it gets to the basement floor. I walked so fast and with annoyance.

“Dhebi” Andre managed to catch up with me and pull my hand.

I tried to let go of his grasp.

“Bentar Dheb I can clearin”

“Ngga ndre it's okay please just do all you want” said I was trying to leave her.

“Dheb. Sorry I Dheb didn't mean me to lie”

“Iya I'm sorry Dheb” I didn't ignore her keep walking towards my car.

“Dheb please wait”

Andre closed the door of my car and blocked me from entering.

“I know I'm wrong, I didn't tell you on purpose if I had another show because I know you don't want me if you know I have a job like this. And what you saw was not what you thought Dheb was, it was all just.”

“Only setting” cut me who already know exactly the game of the artists.

“I know it's Ndre, I know your relationship with that woman just for the sake of rising your movie ratings. Everything you do is for your film, right? I know clearly with the promotion of your film that must be like this even though you do not like it, but all this is due to coercion from your Agency right?”

I offended a little knowledge I knew from Aditya.

“Iya, and from where do you know?” Asked her in surprise and frowned both of her eyebrows.

I realized what I had to suspect because I had come so far to know such a thing.

I panicked not knowing what to answer. I got into my car and quickly avoided Andre's question. Andre was seen circling my car and coming into my car in the driver's side seat without my permission.

“Out Ndre, out!”

“Ngga I gamau”

“Andre out!”

We kept fighting in the car with me who kept pushing Andre's body to force him out.

Andre held both of my hands tightly.

“I won't be out before you clear everything”

“Why do you hate the artist profession so much, why are you so happy with their job, and why do you know such a thing ?”

I'm speechless. Andre looked at me sharply and seriously. I began to calm myself down, by taking my breath in peace.

My eyes are getting wet. Andre started to slowly release my hand.

I started to look calm and took my breath in deep. Maybe it's time for me to tell Andre everything. I already trusted him so much.

“I've been in a relationship with an artist for quite a long time” my first sentence will definitely make Andre stunned for a moment, but he did not wipe my words.

“He always told stories about the lives of the artists behind the camera, even he also explained about how his relationship runs called setting. I see him often with other women in all the media, even I often see him making out with other women in all the channels of television, and he asks me to be able to understand all that for the sake of his career. At first I could have accepted everything, but in the end, he had broken my trust. The relationship setting they did was just a cover for me. Maybe at the beginning of their goal is indeed a setting, but after the passage of time they can feel a feeling that grows just like that inside them. And the relationship setting that ends up being real life. He betrayed me Ndre”

“She lives you?” Ask her.

“I left him”

“Who is Dheb”

I shook my head.

“I can't say, I just want you to know until here”

Andre looked at me so deeply. Andre felt the sadness I was experiencing. He held my hands gently.

“I know now. All this time you still doubted me because you were afraid that everything would be the same. But Dheb, me and him are different, I would never want to be asked to live a relationship with someone else. Clara and I were good friends, we did this in front of reporters just to convince them that if we were still good friends, I never wanted to play a show on camera. You should be able to trust me Dheb”

Andre seemed to really mean it. Implied from the look on his face he was so sincere.

I shrug my shoulders sadly.

“I can't believe it” yet

“It’s okay, I will try to get you to believe even if it takes quite a long time”

Andre brought his face closer to me carefully. I didn't move from my place, he was getting closer, I tried not to get away from him. She tilted her face and kissed my lips gently.

I'll try to accept Andre.