Obsessive Love Disorder
Secrets I shouldn't know

In the middle of the night as usual I went outside the resort to get some fresh air. I don't want to just spend time with sleep and rest, my time here is only about 2 weeks and I don't want to spend it just by accompanying the artists,I also want to pamper myself in Sumba even though I have to fight my fatigue.

I walked down the Resort, looking at the beach that was very dark but the wind and sound of the waves were still very cool,I allowed my sweater and hugging my body not to let the wind into my body.

I looked at Aditya from far away, I narrowed my eyes to make sure that what I saw was Aditya or not, because of what he came to this resort for,while the hotel he was away from my room even though we were in one resort, but the yuk hotel was the end of the hotel here, and why he came to my hotel room. But it's true that Aditya. He stood before me straight, without speaking. I looked at her confusedly, waiting for her to at least greet me.

“I can pinjem your crab scissors”

She surprised me, I opened my hair behind my ears. It's not that I didn't hear, it's just that I was confused why he arrived he wanted to borrow crab scissors.

“Where ? I can pinjem or not?” Ask him, I still look confused.

“Oh yes can, wait a minute” my clumsy.

I went back into the room and looked for my crab scissors stored in the bag.

I went back to Aditya who was standing straight and with his hand put in his pants pocket.

“Mas sure you want to eat crab?” Ask me while thrusting the scissors.

“Stop calling me mas”

“Yes I'm not used to, every guy here I must call them mas”

“You can make an exception for me ?”

I just kept quiet, because it looks like he's not at all comfortable with that ‘mas’ call.

“OK I'm sorry, Aditya”

I said it clearly and gently. He picked up the crab scissors I just gave him.

“You show me how to”

Then he dragged my hand away. I was surprised by the touch of his hand, he confused me. I wonder why he didn't ask his other friend for help, why should I? He has known me not long ago.

He took me with his car, is this what you call kidnapping ? Because he did not ask permission to take me far enough from the resort, and along the way we were just silent, I was confused to open a conversation with a creature like this. So I decided to shut up not to say much.

We arrive at a restaurant that is of course the same on the beach, because fresh seafood is always in the place to eat beach pinggri. This restaurant is small, but many visitors, maybe this place is the only restaurant 24 hours around here so people will run here to get food in the middle of the night. I don't know where Aditya knows this place from, and I am also reluctant to ask this cold creature.

We sat at one of the dining tables close to the beach, away from the crowd inside the Resto. This dining table is round and the top is only covered by a large blue umbrella. I tighten my sweater to the body, to cover up the cold beach breeze at night.

No trite he just ordered a big crab as well as a warm drink for me and for her. I kept quiet and did not speak, and he just kept staring at the beach next to us. We really just keep quiet not to talk a bit, I feel annoyed to this artist, I don't know 1 side of his ugliness tonight.

When the food came and served on our table, I immediately showed him how to cut the crab, and showed him how to choose the meat. He looked seriously at me, there was no expression on his face, but he followed my directions without complaint or asking a lot.

He picked up the crab piece, he stared at the food in his hand directly before he put it in his mouth. I don't know what he thought, but from the look of his face implied doubt and fear so visible to me. He closed his eyes, and put the crab in his mouth. He chewed his scara slowly and carefully with the mat still closed, then the longer the faster he chewed and he opened his eyes while smiling thinly. He was happy, that I could also see from the look on his face. I shook my head at his very strange behavior, he looked like he had first tried crabs, but my curiosity also appeared, why should he pretend crab allergy, she said, though he can be honest if he has never felt it, it makes more sense.

“So ? You're not really allergic to crabs, are you?”

Ask me when she is enjoying her meal.

“I never said allergies, I just can't eat crabs, they're the ones who misunderstood what I said”

I just nodded.

“Terus you why gamau earlier I bargained try to eat there using scissors, will finally they can know if they misunderstand”

“I gamau no one tau” He said.

“Why ?”

He stopped eating her, and stared at me intently.

“You can just need to know until here, no need until ngorek ngorek personality I”

He looked so upset that he went back to eating his crab.

“Maaf” I said briefly then silence no longer asks much.

Though I've been following her whims by keeping her here, and helping her use these crab scissors, but she still sucks.

I waited for him to finish his meal. After all the food was wiped clean by her own, Aditya sat leaning back in his chair while staring at me with a breath so relieved.

“We go home”

Arriving at the Resort we walked to the hotel room together. The distance from the parking lot to the resort is quite far by passing the coast, but I always enjoy this trip. I walked beside her with a gaze constantly looking at the dark beach, which only sounded melodious waves.

“You kayak her really like the atmosphere of beach” Her question finally broke the silence.

“I prefer a night atmosphere like this”

“No views at all?”

“Kalo noon I could never hear the sound of the waves are melodious rich gini, because there are so many sounds2 humans are noisy in my ears, also the cool air is different, too, cooler beach air at night”

He just kept quiet to justify my talk.

“Thus, why don't you ask for help just as you just make nemenin you eat crab?” Ask me questions that keep bothering me.

“I told you, I just don't want anyone else to know”

“But I'm someone else”

She stopped her steps, I also followed her stop walking, and looked at each other. I know he's upset because I keep asking the same thing, but I'm really curious, why should I ?

“Dhebi, you already know too much about me” his words made me silently look into his eyes.

“You can tell if I actually lied about my allergies, and you already know a big secret about my anxiety disorder, too,which no one here knows about all that including my manager”

I'm silent with all his confessions.

“So you don't feel GR, I finally ask you tonight, it's all because you”

I held up my two halis, my mouth open hearing him blame me for what I had done.

“Because you're the one person who knows that I'm not allergic to that food”

“GR ?” I asked while chuckling.

He was silent, and turned his face away. So confident of himself he thought if I felt happy to be taken out by him that night

“I never felt GR. I'm just the name, and I'm just wondering, why can you ask for help with a stranger who even you yourself gorusulannya to memenin you eat crabs, why, even you yourself are pulling my hand forcefully to follow you right ? Why should I be GR?”

He was still silent hearing my chatter.

“Kalo me GR I will definitely ask for your phone number and my social media updates,make a story ‘hey guys I again nemenin aditya eat malem nih’ or ngga I benefit this opportunity for pansos same you let me highlight the same tv” said I was annoyed by following Sisil when he centil creates stories on his Instagram.

“Buktinya from earlier I diem aja, I do not look like pansos, I do not feel like you can be invited to eat out in the middle of this cold mall. With my stupid, I even want to reduce your strange desires, which only want to eat crabs. If all this is just because I'm the one who read your behavior, you just ask me to shut up, right? Don't need to take me to exit”

He was still silent hearing me who was still an emotion.

“You don't need to be afraid for me to leak this to everyone, you don't need to worry, I've told you, I'm a person who can be trusted,I will not want to interfere in other people's affairs, I do not want to be dragged, let alone deal with people like you” said I am very sick.

“Like you guys?” Her question while frowning felt that sentence was like an insult.

“What do you mean?”

“Yes like this” replied I pointed at him.

“Famous artists who always sell their personalities, and make their lives into public consumption”

she smiled her smile as if she could not believe what I said.

“You said you weren't interested ?” Ask her.

I kept turning my face away.

“The proof is now that you are here, with us actors, and having us all day, is that not interested?”

“Forced” answer me briefly.

I gave her such a sharp look, then walked away with such quick and annoyed steps, leaving him who seemed to still be standing in his temple looked at me who started to climb onto the bridge towards my room.

I went into my room closed it tight and sat on my bed feeling upset.

I'm so sorry to have accompanied her tonight.