Rai Universe
CHAPTERS 105. There Will Be No One Who Will Be Capable If Dealing With Loss.
The hospital park seems crowded by visitors who are also carrying patients. Esta circulated her gaze to find a comfortable place for Rai. He did not see any empty seats.
They had just delivered Oza who had returned to pick up his daughter.
“There you want, no?” Esta's question pointed towards the bottom of the shady tree.
Rai nodded. He seemed resigned wherever Esta took him. The important thing is with Esta, she'll be willing to go anywhere.
“Ah, I miss Grandma.” Lirih Rai's.
Yeah, Esta too.
“Pas Grandma died you came home?” Ask Esta.
“Return. But it can't take long. Just three days abis it instantly back again.” Answer Rai. He looked at the family crowd who seemed very happy with an old woman who was also sitting in a wheelchair like him.
“Gak perasa ya, it's been a few years ago that passed. But if you remember again, it is very difficult to imagine the days that have passed. Didn't know it yourself.” Lirih.
“Yes his name is also alive, Ta. In favor only.”
“Sok sage.”
“Hahahaha.” Rai laughed at the sneer. “Ta, try here see your hand there is what it is.”
“What? There's nothing.” Esta answered, flipping her hand.
“Sini.”
Esta frowning. He had already researched and found nothing strange in his hands. But he still gave his right hand to Rai. But it turns out Rai only wants to hold the hand of Esta alone.
“Heh. Whynot? Lepasih.”
“Mot.” Rai Acuh. He was getting his grip.
“Rai?”
“Udah diem. You said I should enjoy the time while we're here. So diem aja. This is how I enjoy our time.”
It's nothing, Esta can barely control the hue of her own face. He was embarrassed when Rai caught him.
“From time, only you can make me comfortable, Ta. Hold your hand like gini tuh, it feels like you can not be revealed using the words.”
“Lebay.” Hardik Esta's. But he himself felt the same.
“Hehehehehe.”
Esta pulled her hand as her phone rang. He immediately reached into the pocket of his pants to pick up the phone.
“Iya, Kash?”
Rai immediately turned his head when he found out that Akash was calling.
“Go home? When's? Is it better?”
Esta just nodded her head.
Rai tried to bring her ears closer to Esta to eavesdrop on their conversation. But unfortunately he still could not hear anything.
“OK. Wait for me to jerk.” Said Esta who then immediately turned off her phone.
“Why?” Tanya Rai was suspicious.
“I'll take you inside? I have to go home for a minute. Said Akash wants to go home to Jakarta later in the afternoon.”
Rai wants to refuse and prevent Esta from leaving. But he did not want to be selfish at this time. He did not want to make Esta further create distance with him.
“Ya udah.”
Esta again pushed Rai into her room. After enveloping Rai, he decided to go home.
“Be careful on the road. Don't be long!” Scream Rai as Esta is about to get out.
Esta smiled before disappearing behind the door. Leaving Rai back in lonely land.
There, he sees Akash joking with Bik Narsih in the kitchen. The man was eating fried chicken from Buk Narsih's cooking voraciously.
“Oh, hi. Was it until sampa?” Ask Akash sumringah.
“You really want to go home? In such conditions?” Esta asked unsure.
But Akash nodded steadily as he continued to bite the fried chicken and chew it.
“I've been much better kok.” Answer Akash. “What is the state of Rai?” Ask Akash. This morning he did not meet Esta.
“Udah mendingan.” Esta answered with a gloomy face. He took 7sitting in front of Akash.
“What's up? Why is your face like that?” Search Akash.
“Entahlah. I'm confused.”
“Why?”
“Which is the best way for me and Rai?”
“You still love him?”
“Huuuuffhh.” Hela Esta's.
“Why? Are you afraid of the same mistakes you used to make? You scared in sick again?”
“After I thought about it, it was not a mistake, but a choice. That night, I could have chosen not to ignore my nafs. I could have chosen not to let Rai do it. And I could have chosen not to tell him the truth. But back again, I chose to let her do it and tell my pregnancy.”
“If you have thought so, what makes you doubt?”
“I'm afraid, Kash. I wouldn't be able to get hurt a second time. I know enough to feel lost. That was enough for me to think many times to come back with Rai.”
“In this world, there is no one who is not sick when dealing with the same thing as losing, Esta. Everybody is so. No one is ready. But it's been ten years, Ta. Why have you been in pain for so long? If Rai causes your pain, just let him heal.” Akash. He put the fried chicken on the plate again.
“Color no one else can heal him besides him. Me proof. Ten years I've been by your side, and I still can't heal that wound. You must be brave, Ta. Don'tbeafraid. Rai is now different from the previous Rai.”
“Had been a teenager and unstable. And we all did that first. But now it's different. Rai will not do anything without thinking long first. I know very well what he is like.”
Esta frowned at the barrage of advice. He sneered at Akash who seemed to have no problems with Rai.
“Ngeliat you are this enthusiastic, you guys must have been better.” Ejek Esta's.
“We are not really marahan kok.” Answer Akash. He took his fried chicken back. “What don't-don't, you want the same Mas Oza?”
The question made Esta throw the straw that was on the table at Akash.
“Why are you connected with Mas Oza, anyway? I told you that we have no relationship.”
“Yes who knows. Maybe your soul mate is not Rai, but Mas Oza. You are suitable to be a connecting mother Starla.”
“Can be diem gak?” Esta Threatens.
“Truly you Ta. Mas Oza is also no less cool than Rai. They were both LB idols in his time.” Akash continued to tease esta and made her chuckle.
“I'm the same Mas Oza won't be together, Kash.”
“Why?”
“It is just that. I can't tell you the alesannya.”
“Kok that? Play stealth yeah now.”
Esta just stuck out her tongue to mock Akash. “Basic plin plan. Who do you really support? Rai? What is Mas Oza?”
“I don't support them both. I support you. You want me to support whatever your decision is.”
Esta just smiled. Honestly, hearing Akash's advice, a little bit of his doubt started to erode.
He cannot live forever in the reflection of the past. He could not constantly fear the same wounds. But what he calls trauma, he can't control it.