Rai Universe
CHAPTER 73. A Road That They Shouldn't Walk.
When they reached home, Rai immediately parked his bike in the yard just like that. Then grasped and dragged Esta's hand into the house.
The image that was accompanying Afni playing only looked at the two with astonished gazes.
Esta managed to let go of her hand and then walked over to Salamah who was watching television, she sat down next to the woman and looked at her with teary eyes.
“Why, Ta?” Ask Salamah wonder.
Esta hugged Salamah very tightly. He did not cry even though his tears were at the end. He just wanted to hug Salamah.
Rai stood behind them with a ruffled waist while wetting his mouth with his tongue. His eyes could not hide his anger and disappointment.
After a long time Esta hugged Salamah, she let go of the woman. Holding his hand and then smiling pias.
“Nek, I want to say thank you very much for Grandma's intention to lecture me. But I'm so sorry I had to refuse Grandma's good intentions.”
Salamah was disappointed by Esta's statement. His frown indicated that he was full of questions.
“Why?”
“I have no thoughts for college, Nek.”
“Keep how you want?”
“He wants to separate from me, Nek.” Adu Rai's.
The confession made Salamah stupefied. He looked at Rai and Esta alternately.
“Thener that, Ta? You asked to separate from Rai? Why that?”
Esta fell silent. He lowered his head. Don't have the guts to look into Salamah's sad eyes. He knew he had to give an explanation immediately. Yet again, he became helpless before Salamah. He loved Salamah and considered her like his own grandmother.
“I just don't want to be a barrier to his future Rai, Nek.” Answer Esta lirih. That's just the reason.
Salamah again frowned because she did not understand Esta's intentions. What does Rai's future barrier mean?
“That's again your reason.” Hardik Rai's. He sat down right in front of Esta. Staring at Esta with her sadness.
“I know Rai has to study abroad. For the sake of ideals. For the sake of his future. And I can't go with Rai while Rai can't possibly leave me here alone. So the middle way, so that Rai can still hope his ideals, and he is not heavy to leave me alone here, so I ask for separation.”Obviously Esta.
“You don't think at all how I feel, Ta?”
“Rai, please. I've explained to you at length the reason.”
“Yes, you said you wanted to go back to your previous married life with me. Aye right? Do you realize it's just bullshit?”
“It's not just nonsense. I felt sick and broken. I beg you to release me, Rai. I want my life back.” This time Esta asked him earnestly.
No one knows that Esta's decision was heavily influenced by Fandi. And Esta kept her mouth shut for the truth.
Rai stared within the two Netra Esta alternately. His brows furrowed with a face expression full of sadness. He still did not accept Esta's request at all costs.
“Then I do, I won't go.”
“Ta?!”
“Udah.” Salamah. He looked at Esta in earnest. “So, what's your decision is already round?” Ask Esta.
“Nek!” Rai did not accept.
Esta nodded steadily without hesitation.
“Grandma is not entitled to your nahan. If your decision is complete, Grandma can not say anything. Grandma just wanted to say, please think again. Grandma doesn't want you to mess up. Divorce is not easy. That is the thing that God hates.”
And Esta nodded her head again.
Seeing the steadiness of Esta's intentions, making Rai more pias. He rubbed his face rough a sign of disappointment. He did not expect that his grandmother would support Esta's decision.
“Sorry to me, Grandma..” Lirih Esta again.
“Nothing. Grandma knows what you're going through. If you feel, split the same Rai can make your spirit back, can make the pain disappear, Grandma is okay. Grandma also does not have the heart if you squirm constantly sick and destroyed.”
“Nek, how do you say that, anyway? How am I going?” Rai did not accept. He also felt devastated when he parted with Esta.
Rai's face turned shocked when suddenly tears had flowed through Esta's cheeks. The girl was looking at him with a plea.
“Stop hurting me, Rai. It's for the good of both of us.”
“What's better? I love you so much, Ta. Why do you say that separation is best for us? We haven't had any problems all this time. Why are you suddenly like this?”
“You're the only one who thinks we don't have a problem. Though we are full of problems, Rai.”
“Yes for Ta. What do I do to get you to change your mind?”
“No. My decision is round.”
“Arhg!” Shouted Rai. He almost cried. His chest became tight and made his shoulders go up and down.
Esta still sobbing. He really wanted to end their story here. Two people who have the same wound cannot join together to carry their ark to the sea of life. Because it can make the ark crack in the middle of the journey.
Coupled with ocean waves that never supported their relationship. They will not be able to survive in the midst of the onslaught of the wave. Their arks were not strong enough to fight against him. They are just teenagers who have stepped into a marriage. A road they shouldn't have walked.
Rai could not bear to see the tears that kept melting on Esta's cheeks. It was more heartbreaking than thinking they had to part. Seeing that pleading gaze, it really made Rai weaken. He is not willing to fight it. He was helpless before that look.
“OK. If that's what you want. I will follow everything. If that really can make you back to being the old Esta. If this separation can make you recover from destruction. Okay. Let's do that. But not now. Tomorrow.” Rai said angrily. He stomped his feet and went to his room.
Esta is relieved? Of course not. He thought he would be relieved to hear the answer he so desperately wanted coming out of Rai's mouth. But in fact it's not. He just stuck in his place. His heart was like it was being slashed. It hurt a lot more than when he thought about it and decided to ask for it.
Though he insisted and asked, but why did he also feel the pain? Isn't this what he wanted? Split from Rai and return to his former life? So why does his heart hurt so much?
Salamah hugged Esta's body tightly. Instantly Esta grew sobbing. The water is getting more flowing. He did not know that his desire would feel this painful. He realized that letting go of his love was very painful. His heart was getting torn and torn apart.
But still, Esta had to let Rai go to make her future dream come true. He cannot pay Rai. Anyway can't.